PLEASE, LOVE ME, WIDOW

ONE HUNDRED SEVENTY FOUR

If Dean and Vian's assistant were in a severe panic and worry at the moment, it was much different from the conditions in Dika's mansion.  Right now, Dika looked so calm as she stared at the face of Qiandra who was still faithfully closing her eyes.

In the luxurious room with shades of blue it also looks there are doctors Fredy and Chris and his whole family.  “Dok, it really doesn't matter if Felicia finds out about this now.  Given her current state of being pregnant young” Bu Sum opened a conversation breaking the silence between them.

Doctor Fredy sighed for a moment, “Actually this thing is quite vulnerable, but do we have any other choice.  If you see Felicia's condition after hearing your talk, I suspect she has started to remember the incident.  So, it will be a problem if we continue to cover that reality from him, because he will increasingly ask questions and maybe even reality it becomes a shadow of a scary shadow in his subconscious” said Dr. Fredy.

Bu Sum stroked Qiandra's hair lovingly, the crystal clear water still kept flowing in the corner of her eyes.  “Kak, please Feli, don't let him suffer anymore, I can't imagine if he had to feel the loss again” hiss Bu Sum or Clayandra are still heard clearly by Dika.

Dika also sat beside Qiandra, his hand gently grasping the woman's hand. “Open your eyes, Deck, look, I kept my promise to you, I'll come back to pick you up.  Forgive big brother who has let you alone for so long and even harmed you.  You can scold your sister, hit your sister or kill your sister even once, but please open your eyes, and look at your sister as your sister” said Dika.

Zaneta and Delicia were completely unable to hold back their tears.  Even a small sobbing sound began to be heard from the two.   Chris looked at his daughters and gave them a code to leave the room.

Zaneta, seeing the code from her father, immediately invites Delicia to leave the room.  A luxurious room with shades of blue and white are so dominant, which has been specially made in accordance with the favorite color Felicia.  Dika really managed to make every detail as he managed to remember about his family mansion first.

Dika made all that, not in the hope of finding his family again.  He used to make it to remember the good times he had been through with his family in his childhood.  I really don't want all those memories to just disappear.

Suddenly they were surprised by a small hiss from the mouth of Qiandra, “Kak, Sis, do not stay in Feli, Feli was afraid, Kak...” Qiandra exclaimed with his hands as if reaching for something.

Dika immediately caught the hand of the woman who looks very weak, “Kakak here, Feli, brother here, brother will not leave Feli again, will never” whispered Dika.  When saying that without feeling tears flowing from the corner of the handsome man's eyes.

Crushed and crushed the faint taste in Dika's heart upon seeing the fear on Qiandra's face back then.  True guilt really penetrated Dika's heart, he could feel the fear felt by a child like Felicia at that time.

Dika was shocked when he felt his grasp being reciprocated by the hand he was currently holding.  Dika stared at the face of Qiandra who was currently slowly starting to open, “Why brother left me” hiss Qiandra slowly but clearly heard by everyone.

Dika immediately restrained beside Qiandra, she repeatedly kissed Qiandra hand, “Im sorry big brother, Feli, big brother really do not want to leave you, but, but.”.Dika could not continue his words.

Dika also had time to see the doctor Fredy shook his head as if giving a code so that Dika did not speak too far first.  “So, you're really my sister, you're Andika Kenrich Hamilton Felicia's older sister Kenrich Hamilton” sis Qiandra again.

Dika could not open his mouth again, all his words seemed stuck in his throat.  Dika could only nod his head repeatedly confirming the word Qiandra said.  Qiandra slowly closed his eyes for a moment, and as he reopened his eyes a clear water droplet flowed from his eye fertilizers.

“This is my destiny, Aunt Clay, why everyone has been lying to me all this time.  The people I trusted so much and loved so much, lied to me, and the people I hated turned out to be my own siblings.  Ah, what kind of life game is this, destiny is really so happy to play my life and my heart” said Qiandra even accompanied a little sob.

Clayandra could not say anything, she could only sob just as Dika was on the Qiandra side.  Doctor Fredy had indeed asked them to remain calm facing the Qiandra if the woman started to remember herself again.

“Why, why, Brother, Aunt, why are you hiding something this big from me.  The fact that I'm not alone, I'm not a kara and I still have family, why do you guys hide all this” isak Qiandra until her shoulders look shaken.

“Don't blame anyone, son, I asked them to do all this.  If you want to know the reason, then you have to calm yourself first.  Remember that there is life in your womb, your repressed mentality will be dangerous for your baby.” Doctor Fredy who has been silent ever since started talking.

“Dok, You ...” Qiandra closed her eyes again as she felt a memory hit her.

“Please yourself, son, accept all those memories and do not try to resist them, but do not try to dig them out.  Let it all flow and enter your memory, because if you fight or force yourself, it will be dangerous for your fetus” said doctor Fredy again trying to calm Qiandra.

Qiandra repeatedly sighed heavily, her forehead frowning deeply as various memories returned like a fine flash in her head.  Qiandra's hand that was free from Dika's grasp touched and stroked her stomach slowly as if trying to remind herself of the life that dwelled there.

While Dika, Clayandra and Chris just keep quiet with feelings of hope anxious.  Dika still faithfully grasped the fingers of Qiandra with full tenderness.  The eagle-sharp eyes stared at Qiandra's face intensely, not infrequently a few tear-spires flowed from the corner of his eyes.

“You can tell us anything that goes into your mind at this time, son, at least it can take off some of your burden” again doctor Fredy gave a suggestion to Qiandra.

“I do not know what happened, so daddy arrived carrying me and brought Kak Dika into the hiding room.  I just heard there was a commotion outside the mansion, I don't know what happened.  I was so scared that I kept hugging Dika after Daddy left us.  I really didn't hear anything in that hiding room.  Until a while later, I saw Kak Dika getting restless and always looking towards the door.  I put my arms back together, I know Brother Dika definitely wants to go, well, he's always been so fond of leaving me alone” Qiandra started telling me with her eyes closed.

Dika smiled as he recalled the childhood of the two of them through the story of Qiandra.  Dika was indeed happy to tease Felicia because her sister was very spoiled for her.  Not Dika does not love Felicia, but instead Dika feels happy when she sees her sister always depends on her.  Dika really loved Felicia and so spoiled the little girl.

“And I was right, Sister Dika started persuading me to be left alone in the room, she said she wanted to find daddy and mommy.  But I knew he was lying, he always said that if he wanted to leave me, but now I really don't want to be lied to anymore.  I don't want to let go of his hand” said Qiandra still with her eyes closed but her face looked scowled with annoyance as if she was really in that state.

Dika's heart really felt like it was pierced by thousands of needles when he heard the story of Qiandra.  Such great guilt made the handsome man subconsciously clasped Qiandra's hand tightly.

“But I'm hungry, and Brother Dika knows it's my weakness.  I would do anything to get food if I was hungry.  And Brother Dika used that opportunity to leave me.  I waited for Kak Dika for a while, but he did not come back, I think Kak Dika must be hiding again.  Because my stomach was getting hungry I finally went out of that room to look for food that I would bring back to that room also” continued Qiandra again.

Clayandra slowly shook her head feeling barely able to hear the continuation of the Qiandra story.  Chris approached him, “Do you want to wait outside, Darling” asked Chris while resting next to Clayandra.

Clayandra only smiled at her husband while shaking her head weakly.  “No, Pah, I still want to know what my little girl passed by back then” muttered Clayandra.  Chris stared at Clayandra intensely, he knew it was very heavy for Clayandra.

Hearing Qiandra's lips retell the past that began to re-enter her memory, was certainly not an easy thing for Clayandra.  Because all of that indirectly re-opened all the old memories that had been stored neatly in Clayandra's mind.  The poignant memories that had incised deep wounds in Clayandra's heart and mind.

“I stepped slowly leaving the room where we were hidden by Daddy, I looked left and right.  But I didn't see anyone around the room, I was wondering where the servants were going.  But I don't care, actually I want to scream, but I'm afraid Kak Dika knows I didn't obey his behavior, I'm afraid Kak Dika will scold me.  Brother Dika once got mad at me by silencing me for an entire day, and it made me very sad” Qiandra continued her story, still with her eyes closed.

Dika who heard the words of Qiandra again was unable to hold back her tears, “Forcuse Big Brother, forgive Big Brother, Feli, big brother was very stupid when it” hiss Dika who could only be heard by herself.

“I continued my steps towards the stairs, my goal was just to go to the kitchen and take food to ward off the hunger in my stomach.  I know at a time like this, Aunt Clay must have prepared warm milk and snacks for me on the dinner table” again Qiandra continued the story.

Clayandra who heard this again felt a deep sadness.  What was told by Qiandra was something that Clayandra was used to.  Even then, on that tragic night, Clayandra was making a glass of milk for Felicia.  Even Clayandra had also prepared a snack to give to the little girl.

The uproar that occurred outside the mansion, made Clayandra stop her activities and choose to step outside the mansion to see what had happened.  “From the top of the stairs I saw that on the dining table there was a black forest and empty glass, but it seemed to have been filled with milk powder.  I wonder why my glass of milk is still empty, I think Aunt Clay must be making a fuss again with Uncle Chris, the two of them are often like that, I wonder why Uncle Chris is so happy to make Aunt Clay angry, even though I was so afraid that I was scolded, even though Aunt Clay never scolded me” again Qiandra continued what came to mind.

Chris clasped Clayandra's hand tightly.  The middle-aged man's eyes stared directly at Clayandra's bead eyes.  A wistful smile etched on the faces of Chris and Clayandra, those memories were one of the sweet memories they would always remember.  When the two are the same keep the taste in the heart and cover it in a very adorable way, fight.

“I tried to look down at the part that could be seen to find the whereabouts of Aunt Clay, I had to remind her that my milk had not been made.  Because if not reminded, Aunt Clay and Uncle Chris like to argue for a long time, they sometimes forget that they ignore my existence” Qiandra this time commented a thin smile even though his eyes were still closed.

“Things that make me fall more in love with you, Darling” whispered Chris made Clayandra's face filled with tears meet for a moment.

“When I began to step my foot down the stairs while continuing to look for the whereabouts of Aunt Clay, I was suddenly surprised to hear the cry of Brother Dika who called Mommy.  I was really surprised and wanted to see Kak Dika immediately, but I forgot that at this time I was on the stairs, and aaaaaa...” until there the story of Qiandra stopped.

Dika, Clyandra, Chris even doctor Fredy held his breath as Qiandra came to the end of the story which became a sad part.  They all know, that's when the little girl fell and toppled on the bench until discovered by Clayandra and Chris.  And that's when they had to choose to leave Dika to save Felicia's life.

“I'm sorry, I'm sorry” that's the only word that keeps rolling from Dika's lips, so much guilt back pressing the handsome man's heart.