Me And Myself

Me And Myself 38

Two more days, my lips are endlessly smiling. I'll be out of this house soon. Living a new life with someone who values and loves me.

I'm really grateful, and I hope that all goes well. Aamiins.

Today I will go to his boss's house, of course along with the cross if I go alone shame it feels, let alone there is a child of his boss Gilang. Although actually I already know and know but just know not close.

I'll try to kebaya her daughter's mother, the boss of the gilang. I did not rent bridal makeup, nothing I will groom and just later.

Kebaya school along with the side that has become a skirt, making it easier for the wearer.

Kebaya white plos and skirt is fit, after a try and then me and gilang back to his work place.

Actually not far from home buda same place of work is cross, back and forth was not up to five minutes.

For gilang enough to wear his new cocoa clothes, not too new because it has been in use lebaran a few months ago hihi.

The clothes are already veils already, iyah I decided to wear a veil on that important day, other than I wanted her since a long time ago this is a chance for me to carry out my duties as a woman. It closes the aurat hehe.

"Today you will come here, maybe the afternoon nyampenya"

"Well?"

I forgot or maybe I have not spoken about his father who will come to Bandung.

"Yes make sure, while also making friends. Yes, yes it is not going to come to the wedding day we continue to have no chat, as much as the parents can talk directly with the prospective besan."

"Hmm yes, how good. But you're coming to my house too?"

"Well, April is when we don't come, we're the ones who don't, I'm the same as you"

"Hehe yes yes"

And as beautiful as expected when noon to afternoon the father came along with his brother.

I prepare only potluck food because indeed I and Gilang are not holding money to just give good food.

After the salamans and dishes were served, we ate only four people, the father of the cross, the cross, and me. In the mess room gilang.

After eating coffee, smoking and a little chat after the magrib the four of us went to my house.

First send me, then go back to pick up her dad and sister. Only five minutes using the motor because of the close distance.

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"Assynogaic"

Long enough for the door to open, it makes me restless. To be honest my feelings are not calm, I'm afraid he did not accept his guest this time, I'm afraid he was angry and ended in wrath.

I don't know if my feelings are really different from what I felt this morning. This time it was like the atmosphere was very gripping and tense.

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The door opened, displaying my father's figure behind the door, smiling thinly at my father and the two behind me. Then let her come in and sit on the carpet.

From the entrance to the left of the father and sister Gilang sitting by the window, across from him there was he who sat close to the parapet of the living room and the living room, the middle room, in front of the door of the room I sat next to him but at a distance because in the middle there was a father. While the hella behind him occasionally saw guests who came and occasionally watched tv.

The slightly narrow room bears witness to the parents of the sidelined child gathering, talking about the plan that has been made and will be carried out in two days.

A chat was opened, with him and Gilang's father dominantly talking. My father just smiled nodding and occasionally making it a conversation that I did not understand myself.

Until the chat they discuss about the behavior and nature of each child.

Whether I was the only one who felt it, or indeed he was cornering me, he talked about all my bad behavior.

I'm fine, but what makes my heart ache and cramped is why discuss it in front of my future in-laws and on my wedding day?

Whatdoes thatmean? All this time he wants me to talk, my ugliness or my rude behavior to others I don't matter.

But why talk about it when everyone is happy for their child's marriage?.

"Yes pa, I have told this child but still his behavior is not polite. No respect for parents, always fight back. I'm tired of teaching this kid"

"Haha, well ma'am, it's natural that his name is also young. The same is true, but yes we as parents should be able to understand. It's our job to guide them"

The point is, he wanted to tell my dad if I was a wayward child, unruly and very ungrateful.

Now my heart's getting claustrophobic over hearing everything he's saying, where the cross isn't here! Where he is, he said only parked the bike but why has half the chat cross has not come as well.

Because I can't bear to finally move, a little bend and excuse me to go out of the house looking for a cross.

He said he was going to park his bike at his friend's house, which was only blocked by a few houses from my house.

I immediately went there, and who was really happy even cool to chat with his friend that I was a little upset and finally demanded a cross to immediately come with me.

With a feeling of growing tightness I couldn't help it anymore, my tears shed drop by drop but soon I rubbed rough from embarrassment. Whether it's brilliant to realize it or not is important now that it's been with me, and I'll calm down a little.

Because it is indeed like a booster for me, I will be able to face all kinds of situations if together with the cross.

And I would be very fragile and not strong if he wasn't. Arriving at the mill house immediately sat right behind the door while I returned to my original position.

Still with the discussion earlier, discussing me and the cross but not about our wedding but the attitude of our nature, me and cross.

Although he was actually the one who spoke more, for some reason it was like there was a fire of spirit that was in him when talking about me in front of my eyes and in front of my future father-in-law and future husband.

I just looked down and listened to them talk, in the room there were six adults including me and a cross but, the one who spoke more and the one who answered his father was brilliant.

Somehow the more here the atmosphere is getting gripping, I can see the crossbows who looked down with a very red face. And immediately he spoke up, which made him not accept and ended up saying a little raise his tone.

"That's it! It's better this way. Instead of talking about things that make others hurt better already, the wedding date has been set. The temoat where it is done has been set. And the mother with the father just stayed present!! It's like that."

"Yes know if about it, the problem is that children are difficult to manage can not be talked to. Marriage is in someone else's place, what are people saying here! Moreover, his father April that RT head wants to put where our face!!"

He replied by not losing the rent, I did not think there would be a fight. Because honestly only this time I look brilliant with a red face.

Like holding back anger that will explode out of control at any time. I saw him worried, a little shook his head and he looked at me and at him a few times.

"Yes I know! But yes already april spirit same marriage I have! My mother was present. My father is already finished april. It's the mother who said she didn't want to do her show here because of the coronavirus takit (covid19). Besides it has to cost a lot of this money, while there are only five million with everything to be fulfilled!"

"Will you ask him at that time the condition of the virus is being spread widely throughout the area bandung, yes I am worried. The last one now no longer say the same aya, if you say I will also allow the important ones to still obey the rules!!"

"Mommy already, I have already! It's nothing. After all, everything has finished its presence only, and I apologize as his father Gilang will not be able to attend because it can not be far"

"Yes at most. It's okay if I can understand"

"Yes we have already announced. I'm sorry if there's been a mispronunciation, or distorting feeling"

"Yes the same, I also thank you for coming so far"

"Come on, april assalamualaikum"

"Vaalaikumusalam"

Finally the very tense debate ended already. I was so afraid that the cross would get out of control earlier, but thank God we were all good.

But I'm not sure, because he looks so angry. With eyes glaring red and aimed at me.

I immediately went to the room after the galang and her father and her brother went away, and the house door closed.

"What the hell is that, you old man but not like old man. His manner of speaking was truly as a child!! Can't appreciate the interlocutor indeed who he taught me to understand all the attitudes of the neighbor's child!!"

"It's mah, don't get angry because there's no one too"

"Yes not that dad, know if he's the first person to meet face-to-face just pretentious and teach mamah. Although mamah is still young not as old as him but mamah understands better, he does not know what the pretentious to teach"

"Yes, I'm ashamed of my neighbor. Angry yell that yell mah"

"What the hell yeah, dad defended them huh!? What part of what is it that the gilang memamah with eyes bulging red face so!! He thought it was good to behave like that huh!! Heh son of a bitch everything is because of you demons!! Everyone blames me for not being educated you!! Tell me if you are the same they hah so dare the gilang snapped guaa!! Aaaa!! Anj!!"

In the room I could hear him yelling, swearing out all sorts of swearing. With the father trying to calm him down, the crying haenda frightened at his screaming mamah and scattering the surrounding bawang.

I know because I heard everything, everything in the throw. Now I hear his footsteps approaching.

And sure enough, he pushed the closet oenyekat in my room until I would befall towards me, but fortunately he did not fall and still stand.

Behind him he appeared with a face full of anger and eyes staring intently at me, somehow courage from wherever I was cute looking at him.

But I looked at him with a really sad look really sad to see everything was chaotic like this.