Me And Myself

Me And Myself 34

My happiness broke in the morning after last night my wedding day was decided.

He did not agree if the 18th of this month the wedding was carried out, because as the head of RT, of course, he and his father would be very busy preparing the needs for the August 17 event.

Before I left for work, my father passed her along with him who had folded his eyebrows many times until he was so wrinkled.

Angry and agreed just because the date clashed with the August 17 event, which I knew last year was not too splashy. Just make a flag, I can help from now on if you want.

But still his decision could not be changed, making me confused and daydreaming all day.

My work was not because, several times I was reprimanded because I was not focused. Of course, because my mind was headed towards the fate of my marriage that was not as good as the others.

I told Gilang about my parents' rejection, of course Gilang was frustrated.

It's nothing, since the beginning of those who asked us to get married immediately, after being fixed they even refused on the grounds of clashing with the August 17 event.

Who wouldn't be bothered to hear that. After all, next week Gilang will go to his hometown to take care less strongly for our marriage.

The time was so close that the preparations were really sudden. I don't care what matters is that I'm getting married and getting out of this house. That's all I want.

But their rejection messed things up, I don't know what my marriage will be like.

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Gilang has returned to Bandung after almost one Sunday Gilang is in his hometown.

And today Gilang and I are going to KUA to register for our wedding.

Said Gilang boss better register directly so as not to cost a lot. Because the finances for our marriage are very limited, do not even know how much.

Now we are in the office of KUA after driving around because it had strayed in front of earlier.

"Yes, it can't be time to be too tight, it's not just someone who wants to get married. A lot more of this too. Moreover, this aa time to stay three more days"

Yes, the time for our wedding day is three days away.

I and Gilang retreated nodding in understanding, after this what else? indeed it can be understood besides suddenly also a very close time will not be able to and it can be understood.

It seems that father's disapproval and he is supported by circumstances that are all sudden.

On the way home I was really sad, I could not bear these tears. I cried without Gilang knowing and trying to make Gilang not realize that I was crying.

In my mind, I kept hearing about the treatment of the house people against me, and this situation made me really frustrated.

Until when I had to stay in that house, this failure made me really desperate.

As if tomorrow and the day after tomorrow will be no more, that's how I really feel I'm really afraid if I have to linger in that house for a long time.

The treatment is getting worse, and I'm getting more depressed. I was afraid that I would have to keep coming back to that house after a glimmer of hope came before my eyes.

Until we until I have not cried, it can be a long question if I cry even though Gilang will not ask because I know because I cry.

I just don't want to burden her mind more than our failed marriage of three days.

Gilang and I went back to Gilang's workplace, to talk about what other steps we should take.

Because this stutter really makes me and Gilang not excited. Because everything that hinders us has been breakthrough in order to keep running as it should.

But maybe it is not the way so we have to experience this.

Me and gilang sat down, the cross was right next to me and I leaned my head comfortably on the cross shoulder.

I don't know what else to do, this stutter is frustrating for me. I don't want to and I really don't want to go back to that house anymore.

I want to get out of there and start a new life together with a cross. Why does God not seem to want.

Again, my tears are shed. Noiseless and just tightness in the chest which is excruciating.

Perhaps realizing that I was shaking with tears, she turned to me without speaking and carried me into her arms.

I didn't refuse, because honestly this is what I need. Backrest that makes me comfortable, and quiet.

I want to continue like this please God, I screamed in my heart asking for ease in this business to God.

"Prophey first well, maybe not yet the time"

Still in the arms and big hands still faithfully stroking my head dear. Maybe try to find understanding and patience for me.

"As for now, I don't want to go home"

I was still sobbing and sobbing, considering I would have stayed there longer in a house that was not home, back there and away from the cross.

I want to get married soon enough so I will go home where there is no Him and the look of hate and disgust towards me, I do not want to see him again I am tired.

"Yes patient first, it is not possible to be able to understand. Because the distance is only three days, while I was told by the employer's son who was married at least one month to apply for marriage to KUA"

"So much as I am, I really don't want to go back to that house anymore"

Still with a sob and in a cross embrace, I knew if I behaved like this it would be burdensome for a troubled mind.

But I could not resist this sadness, until the cross said a stupor that made me astonished.

"Well, what if we just run away, we go back to my hometown. And there we start a new hudip together"

Honestly, I would love to agree to that, but there will be a lot of bad possibilities that keep popping up if me and I do that.

I was confused, I wanted to leave the house as soon as possible, but I didn't want to take the wrong path either.

It's nothing, my mentality is still shaken and not ready, just imagine if I go cross-legged to his hometown without strings attached. It's the same as running away from trouble.

And gossip from people will continue to arrive even if not asked. I don't want to be like that, and I definitely don't want to hurt you with me running away.

"Where's hum?"

Busy with my mind until I don't realize I'm missing waiting for my answer.

"I want to, but can't it be solved quickly in a good way?"

"Well, we've been patient sabarin the attitude of your parents. Even we went to belain asked for money for our marriage to my father, even though I myself never asked him anything. And just for now for you, but why doesn't the universe allow it?"

I dian lowered my head and went into the crosshairs. I know it's been complicated from the beginning, but is there no other way? Another way that I can calmly live my life in the future.

We are equally silent. Trying to calm yourself with each other's thoughts. What does the universe expect from these same two people who have been hurt? Until the ordeal keeps coming back to us.

sorry typo scattered yes friend, mark aja typo his 😅.

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