Me And Myself

me and I 27

Chapter 27

I waited for the following message from Gilang, I was right to wait with a disco heart.

With a smiling emoticon and love around her, Gilang replied.

(Alhamdulillah, thank goodness that April received Gilang. I'm happy, sorry well I expressed my feelings through WhatsApp like this. Although impressed not stubborn but I really seriously ko April)

Again my smile did not fade from my lips, tonight every reply from Gilang has become a bomb of love in my heart.

I'm glad very very happy. I'm so glad I don't care anymore about all the problems I've always faced.

As long as I was familiar with the cross, my mind was a little distracted and my feelings warmed up every time I was with Gilang or received a message from him.

Every day after work I always reply with his message, of course Gilang first who started the conversation.

Starting from (have you arrived?) Or (still on the road?) And that initial message that led me also Gilang involved in a warm story.

Long pleasant conversation. Calm my heart and mind that are not focused on the problem.

So I feel better, when I exchange messages with Gilang I no longer care about the talk of the house people outside the room.

Even if they yell at me so I don't make noise or for me to change myself. I no longer care, in fact, we will indeed be valuable and perfect if we are with the right people.

And maybe the house guy isn't the right guy because he always claims I'm useless trash. Even far from perfect, though every human being can not be perfect.

But if we are with the right people, whatever we want now. We are still special in his eyes.

(Yes Gilang, April believe. And April will wait. If Gilang there is a feeling of doubt the same April we are istihoroh aja in addition to believing our hearts, so that our hearts are also calm)

(Yes I agree, I also do not want to rush to cause failure. I don't want to fail and choose pril wrong again)

Gilang had said, if he had failed when he was getting married. Besides maybe because of the condition and finances also because his family did not respond to the desire to get married at that time.

Gilang was also once in selingkuhi even made an affair by others. His experience was so much more than many times compared to mine.

Even I had no experience of love, and I admit Gilang was my first love. It will be my last love when we get married.

Ah imagining us getting married' makes me even more fly craze.

Gilang and I are indeed quite far adrift if at our age in juxtaposed. But his very charming physique does not look if he is a little old.

I am 20 years old and I am 29 years old, the difference does not make our love does not grow.

In addition to Gilang's efforts to make my heart melt, the way he behaved also made me sure if he really can respect women. Especially if you are already a woman.

(Yes Gilang, there is still time we strengthen our hearts first. We will discuss it again later)

Not one bit I doubt his sincerity. Because I know what it's like to hope and be afraid of rejection, just like I'm afraid of being too hopeful and ending up empty.

Only with Gilang willing to follow my advice would I be sure if Gilang really really mean it.

Tonight is more late than usual, but tomorrow we still have to be active. But that's okay because tonight is the warmest night I've ever had while I was with Gilang.

We ended the message at 01.23 and a half in the morning.

Not because I'm so happy.

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Just three days ago I was proposed, but I didn't tell anyone. Let the relationship be very warm and towards this seriousness I and Gilang first know.

Once we have established true sincerity for sure and got an answer from God then I will tell others.

Of course this will deal with my parents and his parents. However they are our guardians, and we must involve them in this very serious affair, right?

Yesterday I got no less happy news after Gilang's application event three days ago.

I didn't think I'd go back to where my childhood was. Areas that are very heavily filled with human beings who continue to grow until the area that used to be arid is now increasingly crowded with too many residents.

I visited Tia's house, and Tia's house wasn't far from my old house when I was living with my grandmother.

The difference is Tia in the upper area and will not be affected by flooding while I am below and often floods hit if the rainy season.

"Assynogaic"

I got to Tia's house, Tia really has been waiting for me for a long time. He looked for me where I was and it was frustrating not to find me.

And when her neighbors were talking about me and calling me Tia directly asked for my number and we were able to communicate also meet today.

"Waalaikumusalam, jeez April huhu hyks"

Tia never changed, she hugged me and cried. Seeing her like that certainly makes me sad and I also cry.

We hugged and cried together in front of her house. Tia knows all about me, how we haven't been friends since we were Kindergarten or maybe before entering Kindergarten.

Enter the same Elementary School playing together in front of my house first, because Tia will be at her grandmother's house if Tia's parents work.

And Grandma Tia's house is facing my grandmother's house, of course it all makes our friendship easier.

We were always together, never fought even though we were as small as we used to be. Until now, we have never fought about anything.

Our friends who are more than 17teen years this does not make us forget even though the distance separating even had no news.

It used to cross my mind whether Tia had forgotten me? But it turns out that even today Tia still remembers me, misses me and even looks for me.

Not that I'm not looking for Tia, but under my condition I really can't go anywhere freely.

To be able to come here I deliberately skipped work so that I could have a lot of time.

After the crying we finished, Tia and I entered the house without any babi-bu I told her everything. Everything I've been through up until now.

So was Tia, but I'm grateful that Tia lived a peaceful and quiet life unlike me. Tia just had a hard life having no friends in her Junior High.

Because there are neighbors who know the work of Tia's parents, because Tia's parents used to work in the waste management of the residents.

And the neighbor spreads rumors of Tia's stinking home, leaving Tia in the bully. Tia was crying at that moment she said and Tia wanted to be with her loyal old friend. Namely me.

I just smiled and cried listening to her tell a story. No different from Tia was crying sad to hear my story, especially about my situation and treated like what I was at home.

Tia and I are that close, we'll tell you about anything because we can't possibly insult each other. We have sympathy and will help each other if our help is needed in our friendship.

Not only Tia mamah Dewi mamah from Tia also sympathized, listening to the story that flowed just like that.

Because if I'm with someone who makes me feel comfortable, I'll be more open and can't cover things up. I can't lie to someone who makes me feel comfortable. Because difficult.

But if that person makes me depressed, then there will be a lot of lies my money lies do. And that's what I do every day when I'm at home.

Although all I have told you but for Gilang who proposed I have not told him, the action only talks about Gilang who likes me.

That was first, because the rest will be able to continue with chat reply message. We have each other's contacts.

From morning to evening before it does not feel if with a pleasant person, today I spend the day at Tia's house by sitting relaxed without burden with accompanied by the life story that is lived.

Tia's parents even offered me to stay with them here, I really wanted to. But is that all possible?

Besides I still have my own real parent's legal guardian, my father, I'm not sure I can do that. Mamah Tia agreed.

It is not that easy if you want to get out of the family circle even though you have been hurt. Only the heart is hurt, not the physical. And a heart as sick as it may be no one can see it. So it is difficult to explain if only by word alone.

This Tia family will not be confused anymore, because they already know all the conflicts that occur in my life.

I told you, we were that close. Even I already assumed Tia's parents were my parents. Since even they were better than him and my sister at home, of course father was involved because if father did not side with him, he would wrath the wrath of his wrath.