Me And Myself

Me And Myself 37

One week away from my wedding day, I smile. Everything is ready, this time the cross pay to one of the nearest paternal fathers or maybe more precisely to the same pengulu father with pa pengulu who married the child of his boss.

So that it is easy and ready for KUA business, as long as I and caretaker file required no one to help us.

Only the cross boss always gives direction, or also a emi, the son of his brilliant boss who a month ago married.

Those who gave us directions, starting from RT RW, subdistrict of rural areas, and vaccine letters. There is also good luck this year we got married, in addition to being prohibited to participate in making the event also a lot of prohibition from the order.

Because as you know, this year 2021 is still a crisis year for the covid19 outbreak. And with that my wedding that will be carried out simply will not invite many questions.

Because according to others it will be natural and very obedient to the government.

The contract is already on rent and stay in advance three more days, because for now there are still people and the tempo is about three more days.

In addition to being close to the work place is also very easy to get here and there, which I definitely feel at home. I can't wait to wait it out.

Even today I am packing, well it will not be moved now but I will bring little by little my stuff or my clothes to the place of the cross, so later there's no need to bother.

Maybe I'm the only one who's happy about my marriage, because I can see the melancholy on the faces of the house people.

Even this afternoon I was again surprised by his misgivings with my wedding day, even though it was only a week away.

"Of course your marriage should be annulled. His great-grandmother died this afternoon everyone would have bothered"

I made a cengo with his statement. My mouth is a little gaping and my mind is messed up, what does he really want?

"Well, why mah?"

I don't know if the mind is blank I can only question it with such insolence.

"Why why, yes it will obviously clash disturbing know no!! Not yet tonight must be tahlilan, not yet next week will be seven people will be busy cooking for seven days tahlilan his great mamah how the hell!!"

"No need for me, I don't know how much money I have"

"Yes before your girlfriend is giving money to cook cook here better in cancel, later next year cake so that you have money first just married!! It's not like it's now on a parent's nuisance"

As bad as I want to feel like crying, I can't help but have to hold it. I cry a lot in this house.

"I don't know, I can't stay another week. Although not many people but still the date has been determined"

I must have courage. I want to be selfish this time, I will not return to underestimate the happiness that is in sight.

"Nonsense of you, dare to volunteer!! It's not that people can't get married but people will be busy next week. You don't think you're tired of cooking a lot huh?!! Money is not busy yet! Just cancel first what the trouble is"

I went back into the room without paying attention to her babble.

I tell the cross, and the same as I'm missing won't undo anything that happens. There will be no party in this house, because we will get married in the house of his boss.

Well, even before I was told to marry only in KUA only, enough with kabul and finished. His wish.

Because the government's prohibition that does not allow many people to gather, and must always keep a distance makes him very fanatical.

It is true that no one can go to his house even his own sodaranya, except having to use a mask and before entering wearing a handsanitaizer.

Amidst the confusion, the boss offers his house which is above his mess to bring up his place of ijab kabul, and the neighbors who witnessed so that it will not make slander.

In addition, the boss also gives an offer for his yellow rice tumpeng will come from the boss mom, so the more money that is only five million and should be enough for everything is really enough.

Even from that money can make our contract not too empty later.

The boss spent money on me, bought buckets, jolang, LPG gas, gallons, even mattress pillows, kitchen utensils and all household necessities.

With pleasure, and this heart calmed down. And the events of this afternoon will not be able to replace that calm, because once again I will continue to advance through his desires.

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This afternoon I am in a rented house that is still empty and dirty from others, I will clean it this afternoon with a little help of course.

After sweeping and mopping I let it for a while so that the floor dries, before long came a cross brought a wooden cabinet.

Of course the cupboard was loaned to us, because we had nothing. At home I only have a small exel closet with four doors, of course, it will not be enough. My clothes don't go in all hehe.

In addition to the wooden wardrobe is also shiny carrying a dish cabinet, it is not new even the condition is not beepintu with the bottom of the hole there is no pedestal.

But I am grateful that at least some people still care, and enough to just dry the dishes.

Then the gas stove, just buy his LPG alone not with the stove because it was a proposal from his boss is brilliant, of course I am happy and cross to accept it.

After everything went in and I put a gas stove with LPG in the kitchen, I went back to the gym to bring my clothes that a few days ago I brought little by little.

Then I arranged it in a wooden closet that I had allotted with newspapers, just a ghost so as not to get too dirty. Even though it has been cleaned still a little dust and mold will stick if not in the garage, let alone this rented space is stuffy. The pentylation is only a little.

Then in the carpet, and foam mattress that the price is not up to a million hehe but still I am always grateful, then the pillow in the layout above her.

Because it has not been used plastic from the mattress that is not released first, let it look new.

Everything is done in the layout, just a little more stuff in the house. Maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I'll bring it.

Ah there is no pingit pingit in this wedding, of course because I and gilang who take care of it themselves, there are no family members who help. Not even they care.

After the sun was almost sinking I went home, in between the galang of course as usual in front of the alley and the langusng came back home.

I will pack the rest of my clothes, and pack small items complete with all the important suratan, such as diplomas, birth certificates, and so on. I put it in my little bag, and the other tote bag so it doesn't look too flashy.

Everything is ready tomorrow just stay in the transport, I lay myself in my thin mattress.

Ah soon I will leave this room, a silent witness of all the inner suffering I feel. No one knows the wounds I have suffered all this time.

Dad, isn't three more days a good day to express all your affection to me? Aren't I going to belong to someone else soon and not be by your side all the time? Wouldn't you miss me if I left this house?

Suddenly the thought came to the contents of my head, making a sense of tightness perched and resulted in a clear circle falling crowded.

Will you miss me?

Would you like me to go away from you?

Would you remember me if I wasn't in front of her eyes?

Hixes

The slow stuffing I pressed, it was so clear that I was leaving there was no worry I saw from my father.

I don't know what you think, what you feel but, can not give a little saying or a little word to calm the heart that is restless because soon I will belong to someone else.

Can't you rejoice over a happy day?

Should the family of every bride whether it is a bride or a man will be full of laughter and happy joy?

Her daughter, even her first daughter will give up her singles, at the betrothed of a man who always replaces her father.

So bad was I that I was ignored, there wasn't even any preparation ahead of the event.

Such a precious event and only once in my life, I have to go through with tears. The indifference of the family who did not pay attention to the important event.

Everything seems like nothing will happen, as if tomorrow the day after tomorrow and my wedding day is not so important to just celebrate.

Mother, your daughter is getting married hiks.