Me And Myself

Me And Myself Chapter 20

Me And Myself Chapter 20

"Why am I thinking?"

These past few weeks my focus has been distracted, by someone who has recently filled the void. Not shila, this time a man.

Not a man whose origins are unclear. I met him somewhere, not far from where I used to be. It seems like our habits are the same, just as we like solitude. And stay away from the crowd.

Brucks

"Ouch"

I hit someone, because of the lack of lighting I can't clearly see the person I've hit.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it"

"It's okay, too"

"Yes, if you'll excuse me"

I went back home after apologizing, I did not see clearly his face, but his voice and body posters were clear he was a man.

"Now I've apologized"

...

"Assynogaic"

I was not kapok kapok despite how many times in the interrogation because I came home late from 7, I only did that when I was dizzy and careless with the state of the house. In addition to too much drama, a lot of talk and I can not make a place to rest makes me more lazy days home.

But if I don't go home, I don't know where to go. Because all this time I was alone, no one knew my condition, so inevitably it was like this. Make trouble by going home at 7pm because you're tired and want to rest but not at home.

I don't know what drama is going on right now, which is clear outside the room I can hear clearly if he's angry. I only heard his voice and the answer from the father who only occasionally sneaked in.

I don't want to get dizzy, I'll go to bed and wake up early and go to work as usual.

I woke up at 6, when I opened my eyes which I thought was water, then the other day. No problem, everything is safe after I make sure there are no more people in the bathroom, I rush out of the room and go to the bathroom. Then prepare.

"It looks like today is late to go home again, my brain why so noisy. Want to rest"

I monologue myself as I walk towards work. The plan was I'd be home a little later, I wanted to get out of that house but somehow. Dad and he won't let me go, though I know if they want they'll be able to throw me out. But because of ego, and do not want to be looked at ugly by others they still maintain me even though I actually no longer exist for them.

Although actually some people around the house already know about what always happens in the house, no one complains or gossip especially he who is very good name. But yes because basically live in a place where many people have neighbors nearby and also they see the behavior of him and the father is also a thing, they understand a little although not all.

But even so, no one will be able to rebuke or defend me, no one is brave enough. His family is a beautiful family!

Here I am now, in the same place as yesterday alone in my favorite place. There is no fear or worry if later I go home to be angry, there are too many injustices that I receive so I no longer feel afraid. I'm already numb.

Srek

Srek

I turned my gaze back when I heard like someone coming.

"Who?"

Srek

"Eh, there are people"

I stood up from my seat, I just realized that this place is no longer a place that only I know.

"There are people, who are you? Is there a need here?"

"Nothing, his feet alone walk here. There's a place this good here"

"Oh"

I just turned my back and turned my back on that guy. Whatever he wants, it doesn't seem like he's a bad guy either.

"Women what's in their own kayak gini?"

"Ngadem, why can't you?"

"Hehe relaxed dong, uhm kayaknya yesterday we met deh"

I cringe

"When?"

"You hit me last night when you wanted to get out of this place"

"Eeh, relax, that's not what I mean"

He stuck out his hand already standing beside me at this moment.

"My name, Gilang"

I welcome his outstretched hand, there is no harm in getting to know new people.

"Aprili"

After that we kept quiet, sat side by side enjoying a quiet night, with a beautiful view.

Since then, I and di gilang often reply chat. Before long we were silent that night he asked for my no, did not want to ask much I just gave my no but I did not think Gilang would be so diligent chat me.

It's been almost a month more like her since that day, and we've never met again, just texting almost every day.

At first I was ordinary, there were no strange thoughts but the longer the content of the chat the more often and the conversation we always connect and feel warm. Sometimes he also put a little attention in it.

For me a small thing will be very influential, and it's true. I am not a strong woman even though all the problems that exist are never absent. But that's not all, there's more than me. Even so I was really touched by Gilang's behavior, he gave me a little attention that even my father no longer behaved like that.

"Oh every day I'm treated like a gini, I'm afraid of my own baper. I don't know what I mean by acting like this to me, if I'm the baper himself hurt later"

I spoke to myself thinking about what had happened to me, as if I had recently hoped for a crush.

Ting

One message came in, and you know I was hoping it was a chat from a cross. I took my phone to see the incoming notifications, and sure enough the chat.

"Again what? I haven't seen you in a long time. Meet Yu at the place we first met"

Deg

Deg

What is this, my heart is not because of gini. I tried to neutralize my feelings first. And I avenge it.

"Yes, come here"

I sent her, before long she retaliated.

"just come? Are you there again?"

He asked me where I was, making sure. Because yes, I've been here since, as usual, I stopped by after work.

"Yes why?"

"Jeez, I'm waiting for you, I'm there now"

"OK"

"How about it, he'll be here"

I was confused myself after reading the last chat, ah yes it is already we do not have anything I am too excessive. I tried to calm myself.

Half an hour I waited, finally Gilang came.

"Haii, sorry for the long wait"

"Oh hi, that's okay. I'm here, too, ordinary"

"Yes, I know you but if you can't come here too often by yourself. Danger know dark gini where deserted, if there are bad people how?"

Eh?

"meaning?"

Well, even the thing that I definitely know the answer to. Why did I arrive as a bego? Ok calm april.

"Yes if you want to come here, take me"

Lah, even there?

"O-oh yeah"

We talked for a long time, we enjoyed the time when we met and talked about things. I feel comfortable with her.

I hope this is not just my feeling, and I harapa gilang do not intend to hurt me with his attitude as if I belong to him.