Forced Love

Chapter 54. Loss of Taste

After I finished eating, Dhito drove me home. This time I wanted to, but I asked for it just in front of the end of my alley.

"Dhit, thank you.." I smiled and held her hand.

"Same - same Ri..." Dhito replied with a smile.

"Yaudah Dhit, I'm in.." 

"Hmm, come in, it's too bad."

"Okees.. Be careful, be careful.."

"Yes, I'll chat you when you're home. Gapapa, right?"

"Yes, what a gapapa."

"OKAY. Go home Ri..." 

Dhito left me with his motorbike. I immediately entered my alley and immediately entered the house.

"Assynoltom..." My greetings when I enter the house.

"Goddessalam.." Answer Mama.

I entered without speaking again after the greeting.

"Well, what are you going home?" Ask Mama.

"Hmm I got on the motorcycle earlier Ma." Answer lies.

"Kok you didn't contact mama anyway? I can pick you up."

"Jude Ma.. Hpku low batt about Ma.." I lied again.

"Oh.. Did you take a shower, have you eaten?"

"I'm going to take a shower, I ate it."

"Eat what?"

"Eat the rice with catfish." 

"Where is that?"

"So eat with famtom's kids." I lied many times to cover that I was walking with Dhito.

"But really yaa nasi uduk same fried catfish... Buy where's son?"

"Buy deket kok Ma campus.. Yaudah ah I take a shower first. No shower - this shower is mah."

"Haha, yes, take a shower." 

After I finished the bath, I opened the phone already there was a chat from Dhito.

"R.. I'm getting home. Are you clean - clean?"

"Yeah Dhit. It's just finished." 

"Jude, rest up." 

"Yeah... You're not resting Dhit?" 

"I'm waiting for these kids. He said he wanted to play at home, because tomorrow is also Ri holiday." 

"Oh to hang out?"

"Yeah hanging out at home. He wanted to be on the field, but not again. At her will in my house.."

"Aren't weary of what?"

"I? Hahaha am I tired of what?"

"Yes, we're out of the way..."

"Hahaha the same path you mah I will not be tired Ri.. There's even a really nice one.." 

"Then anyway? You still like it the same as me?" 

"Not Ri anymore, I still love you." 

"So someday I lost the same feeling you, you still keep trying to make love to me?"

"Not trying, but I'll still love you whenever." 

"But if you can't afford you have to move on yaa Dhit." 

"You want me to spare you? Difficult anyway. I love you so much Ri."

"Well, how can you not love me too much?"

"Yes not how - how. Even if we are a match, I will continue to love you, but if not a match then it will also disappear by itself." 

"Yeah.. The important thing is that even if we can't be the same, at least we're still friends. Inget yeah.."

"Yeah Ri, how do you feel about me now?"

"Lo, guess me again, huh?"

"Yes, the question is."

"No, I just want to know how you feel right now.. Not trying to trap or anything.." 

"Yes his surprise today the determination of our relationship further or not Dhit."

"What is that?" 

"Yeah.."

"Gak Rii's.. I just want to know."

"Okees.. If you want to know, the answer is yes no how..."

"However? Meanin?"

"Yes, I feel just as comfortable.. You are kind and very protective of me. But for more feelings there is still not. It's like it's getting lost feeling I'm the same lo.." 

"Thank God you are comfortable Ri.. That has been progress for me even though your feelings are not fully there yet. If the problem is lost, maybe because we break too long yaa so gini. Gappa Ri's.."

"Hmm maybe.. I don't know Dhit. Uh I'm sleepy, go to bed first.." 

"Yaudah, good rest.." 

"Yeah... Good Night Dhit."

"Nights."

My efforts have been maximized to continue to accept Dhito, but it feels like this heart has not been able to accept it. I don't know why it feels like this time it's getting lost, not because he's a smoker I'm starting to forget it but maybe because I'm trying to close my heart tight. But Dhito always tried to convince me that he could make me really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, dear to him. 

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It was a nice morning for me to bike. I woke up earlier than usual and pulled out my bike.

"Where are you going Ri?" Ask your mom when I'm ready.

"Yes most to the house of Vienna Ma..."

"Judah heart - heart, son, look left right if you want to cross."

"Yeah Maaa.. What time do you come home?"

"Jam 10 said... You must go home before you arrive."

"Yes ready boss! Yaudah I'm leaving, Ma..."

"Yes, heart.."

"Assynoltomodel.."

"Goddessalam..."

I also cycled towards the house of Vienna, and indeed had made an agreement to take him cycling towards the house of Dhito. 

"R.. Do not speed - speed..." Viennese when he came out of the fence of his house.

"Yes, I've picked you up a long way here."

"That's it.. Deg - with me."

"Deg - why do you?"

"Deg - Deggan later meet Ka Dhito, no huh? I'll be both mosquitoes again ah.."

"Fraight. At least he's still out of bed, I also didn't say he wanted to be as different as the decket of his house."

"Why don't you talk about it?" 

"Why Win?"

"Yes, please tell Ri.."

"Oh, this is a debate about what to do?"

"That's very bad, yes, yaudah yaudah, the way we cuss.."

Vienna and I cycled towards Dhito's house, and we had breakfast porridge at the compound.

"Eh if you arrive - see Dhito how Ri?"

"Yes not how - how. I'm still communicating with him anyway.."

"Hmmm gituuu.."

"Gue also finished watching the same night he was in the coke.."

"Huh???? IHHHHH, why didn't you tell me the same? Severe indeed.. Keep you guys reverting this lag?"

"not Win... I don't know if I'm going to reverse it or not.."

"Yeah, you are the best for you...." 

I thought, I can't seem to make Dhito wait any longer for my decision. I have to be firm with my decision.