Forced Love

Chapters 27. Uncertain

Once on campus, I sat directly on the seat that was already tagged Resty and Sera. I sat next to Resty and Tami. 

"Morning Resty... Morning Tami... Where's Sera?" Sap me when I get there.

"For Rii..." Answer Tami and Resty simultaneously.

"Si Sera again to the toilet..." Answer Resty.

"Oh... Still this class." I answered while looking left and right. 

"Yes ordinary kayak aja we'd come right after class is still quiet Ri..." Tami Sahut.

"Lo tuh dawn - dawn on campus. I want to be clean - clean campus aja hahahaha..." My answer. 

"Hahaha, I thought Ri wanted to be in the morning. Do you know my house is jammed if it leaves a little bit during the day." Tami replied with a smile.

"Lo's house is so far, oh my goodness." I answered while shaking my head.

"Eh Riri has come..." Sahut Sera who arrived - suddenly came into the classroom.

"I'm dizzy again. Wanna confide in this..." My heart while bowing my head.

"Why Ri why??? Ajahh's story..." Tami is excited. 

Sera and Resty were also curious and immediately sat closer to me.

"Semalem... The Dhito tells me that he dreams of marriage with me. But in the dream I left home because I did not want to be with him. I was very sad when he said he wanted to be serious with me and wanted to be my Imam. My heart can't accept him but on the other hand I have to accept him because he's sincere and kind.." I told him while shedding tears.

"R.. He already has serious intentions cuy equally lo, how come you even sad? Then you're not sure about him?" Tanya Tami was serious.

"Wait a minute, I'm honestly confused. How do you feel about Dhito now? From yesterday the beginning of the same thing he was sepet seperat connected because of your feelings are not clear Ri. Don't - don't now you're still not clear, is he so lo kayak gini?" Sera Sahut.

Resty just kept on observing and hearing our chatter.

"Gue tuh why yes hmmm sometimes I'm sure want to continue with him, but sometimes I'm not able to continue with him until a serious relationship. There are many doubts within me." My answer.

"Meanwhile, it's not clear what his heart is to Dhito." Answer Sera.

"Ri, ck duh lo tuh want to until when the hell do I like to continue to Dhito?" Tami Sahut.

"What a bad guy?" My toot.

"Not evil Ri. But you are impressed to survive without any sense of tuh kayak throw - waste your time just." Answer Tami.

"I don't know if I'm confused anymore.. Wait for Mami Mily. He can give you good advice." Sera Sahut.

"Yeah I'm so confused follow Ri. How do you want... What do you want? Want to see when the love of hope is not clear with Dhito? It is unclear Ri. Seriously is." Answer Tami.

I also bowed quietly and increasingly dizzy to think about it because my friends were already upset with my attitude. 

"Have you prayed Ri?" Ask Resty.

"You pray for sure Res, I always ask for the best answer for me and Dhito the same God Res. But my heart still wants to keep giving him a chance."

"But pity the Dhito Ri kalo lo continues to survive like a gini." Answer Resty who arrived - arrived wise.

"Hi Ri, where are you?" 

"Boy, are you awake? I'm on campus." I reply quickly.

"By the morning too, dear. It's ready again - ready, I almost had a bad luck. Fortunately in waking up mama, if not in wakein must be bablas deh this mah. Was it breakfast?" 

"You keep bad luck.. Didn't set an alarm? I drank milk."

"Heehehe yes, free alarm me again matiin Ri. As usual, you have breakfast milk... But bring supplies today?"

"What do you want me to wake up every morning? I'll call you till you pick up the phone. Bring me some, I'll bring some fried rice." 

"Can? You want to wake me up every day? I am so happy about this. Will you have lunch?"

"Well, I'll call you until you pick up. Yes, make lunch later."

"Okee from tomorrow.... Hehehe thanks baby."

"Yes the same - the same... Had breakfast?"

"So I bought rice with mama...."

"Is this not yet gone?"

"This is another motorbike manasin, soon to leave. You haven't started college yet?"

"Judek. It's gonna start soon."

"Jude, I'm leaving.. Later if I've been to the office I'm telling you."

"Yeah Dhit, heart - heart yes.."

After that, Dhito no longer replied to my message because he must have left. 

***

After the first course, my friends and I ate at the cafeteria. Mily immediately pulled my hand and asked about my relationship with Dhito.

"So Sera told me the same story, you're upset again because of Dhito's business?" Ask Mily slowly.

"Yes Mil. I doubt you're the same as Dhito." Sad answer.

"Putuinu. It's over, gone from him." Mily replied firmly.

"Huh?" I was surprised not to say any more words.

"Yes... I no longer need to defend people who you do not love. What do you want now Ri? Poor fellow? When do you want to feel sorry for him? It's not clear if you'll want to be serious about him or not later, right? Mending you are single but you are not sad continue Ri."

I was silent after Mily said that. 

"Jaudah now we eat first, you do not need to continue - continue thinking this. Lo now follow your heart but do not continue - continue to torture yourself, Ri." Mily said again while patting me on the shoulder.