Forced Love

Chapter 35. A Month to Survive

Today, on July 29, 2013, our relationship still persists even though my feelings for him are still bland. And as usual, my days remain in communication as usual with Dhito. I don't know if Dhito realized it or not that I've started to get lazy with this relationship.

"R.. What are you again?" Ask Dhito via BBM chat. 

I returned the message 2 hours later.

"Dhit, I just finished my assignment. Why?" 

"Oh, you're busy, aren't you?" 

"Lumayan, anyway... Now it's not Dhit."

"Oh jaudah... Have you eaten yet?" 

"Not yet, this is just about to eat." 

"Jude, eat first... You'll tell me I'm done eating.." 

"Yeah Dhit...."

This is me again realize not really if bosen really the same relationship, huh? But I'm still holding on to the Dhito. Evil huh?

After I finished eating, I did not contact Dhito directly. That I deliberately don't want to chat him until tomorrow. But it turns out that Dhito contacted me first.

"What are you again? The food is done, right?" 

"I slept with Dhit. Yes, that was an hour after I ate my bed. It's so tired of it, so I didn't get to chat you Dhit. Sorry yeah.." 

"What a Ri.. I understand... Yehudah, that you rest again..."

"Yeah Dhit.. I'll rest first, yeah.." 

"Yeah baby.. Have a good rest..." 

"Yes, thank you..." 

I still don't understand my heart this time, why do I still keep defending it for the sake of his heart? Then heart?

***

The next day I was getting lazy to call Dhito. Even from last night I didn't call him anymore. Until finally Dhito called me.

"Are you busy, Ri?" 

"Why?" 

"Yes gapapa... Or are you avoiding me, Ri?"

"No... I have a lot of tasks. Keep tired, open HP only campus affairs only Dhit." 

"Hmm that's... Is it hard to find it?"

"Yeah..."

"Or maybe I'm wrong with you?"

"Nothing is."

"Here you answer, very short...."

"Yeah.. You're not angry - get angry again and ask for a break up. I'm so grateful... But this is you changing again Ri..."

"Sir Dhit... I've done a lot of work and actually I'm saturated with our relationship."

"whom? I made a mistake, didn't I? Or are you the same as me?"

"No.. I don't know why Dhit.. I'm just as upset with our relationship." 

"What do I do?"

"It doesn't have to be how - what is Dhit.. Love me a long time ago, yeah.." 

"You want me to give you how long Ri?"

"Do not know.. If it's time I'll tell you how."

"Aren't you sure Ri? Could it be long?"

"No, I'm not that bad. It won't be a month." 

"Judah I want to wait for you..."

"But you don't expect more..."

"What do you mean expect more?"

"Yes, if I call you again, I don't know if it's going to last or if it's done."

"R... Please don't talk about it."

"Yes that's why I need some time now Dhit.. You want to be patient, right?"

"Yes, I have to be patient... Especially since I love you.."

"Try you're more realistic. Don't use your heart..." 

"Realistic how else Ri? I love you, even I have serious intentions. I want to change because I have good intentions for you. Even waiting for you can finally really - really dear to me.. I'm afraid I'll have to wait a long time... It's my business.."

"That's not an attempt at his name, Dhit, but forced himself. You slash a knife every day on your skin until it bleeds. Your blood is exhausted, you can die there. You're killing yourself slowly.." 

"I'm trying, just you want to not accept my efforts? If you close my business, I'll keep Ri..." 

"I'm not covering up, Dhit. I was forced to like something I couldn't like... Yes I'm gini, stubborn. Stone..."

"Hard head means you can still be told dong even though it is difficult. The stone can be destroyed Ri.." 

"You're really - really, really, really cool.." 

"I'm kekeh because I love Ri, you see for yourself right my mama how does she behave to you? I'm serious Ri.. It's just you who don't know me yet to your parents.."

"I can't get to know you right now with my parents Dhit." 

"Yeah why? That's the reason I'm still confused.."

"Yes, it's not time yet. It was even a debate about gini yes.. Just now, just give me a moment ago, Oh, Dhit." 

After my last chat, Dhito no longer replied to my chat. I increasingly do not understand why continue to maintain a clear heart not for him....