Forced Love

Chapters 11. Anniversary of a Month

Today is on February 26, 2013, I should have been with Dhito for a month. But eleven days earlier I cut off our relationship only because of my concerns. I'm like a bad guy now.

"Ri, did you break up with Dhito?" Vienna sent me a short message. 

"Dhito same story lo?"

Vienna is the younger brother of Dhito's class in High School, and they have known him before. When I finally dated Dhito, Vienna reminded Dhito not to hurt my heart and be loyal to me because Vienna knows how broken I used to be with Yori and how Fandi was just status with me. 

"Yes Dhito same story I Ri. I feel sorry for her story like it's really sad, and she just told me this again, today's your birthday is the month, right?" 

"Gue has to win... I am confused about how I feel. He's good with me, but my affection is still half the same as him. I think it's hard to be real - really sincere love him."

"Why? Because he's smoking?"

"Yes, it's like Win."

"Gue already ingetin it was the same Ri, but he said he had been trying to reduce cigarettes. Just yes not handsome Ri, the name of an active smoker is definitely a long process... So you have to be patient."

"Yes, I'm the one who can't wait to win, but how.. I'm tired of always taking him but he doesn't seem to want to be horrified . Therefore from my emotions continue to mending I've just my relationship with him Win."

"But I feel sorry for her Ri.. Seriously deh. He misses the same you said, but do not dare to contact you because you want you lost contact." 

"Gue is confused right now. Did I just disappear?"

"Thank you, don't. Want to make people's children stressed? I still agree you are with Ka Dhito because he is good Ri, rather than Macem Fandi kayak yesterday. It's a very sincere person lo Ri, give him a chance Ri."

"Yaa why the cake you call or BBM he is that, pity mee genuine deh." 

Although Vienna reminded me but I still doubt if I should go back with Dhito at that time, I went back and forth to open Dhito's contacts and look at his picture. My guilt always arises if I keep looking at the picture, but soon after - Dhito sent me a BBM message. 

"R.. Sorry disturb. I just wanted to say, happy month huh. Although we're breaking, but I'm actually still thinking you're my boyfriend. Sorry Ri I was so sassy chat like this. I thought about Ri..." 

"Hey Dhit... Sorry to make you sad, make you think because I and I are so mean to you. I'm really trying to make you - I can really love you with all my heart. I'm sometimes tired of debate because of the problem of cigarettes, so I'm lazy sometimes with you, but on the other hand you are also a good person. So I'm going all wrong.." 

"Alhamdulillah you still want to bales chat me... Sorry Ri, I still like to not recite your cigarette problem. I want to make an effort to not smoke anymore Ri, just not easy because I have been smoking for a long time so if to stop it must need a very process." 

"Yeah Dhit, this is just me I feel really bad about you. The time I want more evil again is not bales chat you. I may be impatient, but I still need some time. Gapapa, right?"

"No Ri, you're not evil like me. You mean well Ri, gapapa. Hmmm, no communication? At least you tell me it's Ri." 

"Okee, I'll still be told but not intense first gapapa right?"

"Alhamdulillah... Gapapa Ri, at least I am calm if I hear from you every day. I'll wait for you Ri." 

"Yeah Dhit. Thanks Dhit." 

After that I and Dhito but communication although rare because I keep my distance, do not want to communicate too often. At least I appreciate Dhito's feelings.