Forced Love

Chapters 19. Days Without Dhito

I began to get used to it without communicating with Dhito, even the message he had when I was Me Time had not been answered until now. Even today I really want to focus on learning and doing a lot of presentation tasks. 

"It's my tutor's presentation of pathophysiology again..." Mily said as we were looking for material in the computer lab.

"How can you get pathophysiology Mil? Can't ask for an easy one? Patof is a genius, right?" Ledekku to Mily.

"Well that's it, my brain is a passan yaakk.. And it's so complicated huh. You get a presentation on what Ri?" 

"Gue's diagnosis, a lot of it too." Answer me while looking for - search in the lecture material.

"Ih diagnosis is still good, if pathophysiology duh want pingsn me Ri. Oh my goodness.." Mily while scrambling - random her own hair.

"Damf... Is that crazy, huh? Hahahahaha have been working first, search only first on google tuh make the maps. Let's have a picture, keep looking in the book. The library." 

"Hell, if I know I can. But later on, I stammered. Let's say what is the pathophysiology of diabetes. Can be tripe I'm the same doctoraa huaaa.." 

"Udah lo don't panic first why the hell Mil.. Now work first, then you learn. Let's get your presentation right. Gihs.. I'll help you later, but I'll do my job first.." 

"Kc... Yes yes.. This is the other one not on his tutor?" 

"Not yet, her tutor was on diligent. Long time - hahaha.." 

Tutorial on my faculty was a discussion with the group to discuss one scenario on the first day, what should be discussed in the present later 3 days. As the case we discussed is diabetes mellitus, we the students/i medicine will discuss from the definition to the establishment. So we will know how diabetes attacks our bodies, and what drugs, education and what doctors should do for their patients. 

"Guy..." Suddenly Sera came to surprise us and followed up with Tami, Resty and Yanti.

"Well on kellar lo? Fily, Viana, Aira, where's Sissy?" I asked when I saw them.

"They're ready - ready for tutors." Answer Resty.

"Oh yes, I forgot that we have different classes. This is you guys just finished the tutor?" Ask again.

"Yeah.. The doctor mostly talks to me." Said Tami.

"Gue later on my group gave me his presentation." Sera Sahut.

"I was the doctor a long time ago, Resty too." Yanti.

"Yes, the discussion is tele." Answer Resty.

Among us, the most studious and smart one is Resty. For the others we all have their own portion of leisure and moody to learn. Learn H-1 before the hahaha test. Overnight Speed System, aka SKS. 

"Eh what are you guys on?" Ask Mily curiously.

"I got the definition and classification of diabetes dong.." Answer Sera.

"That's so good!" Mily was upset.

"Gue dapet Etiology anyway. Aman." Reply Yanti.

"I'm pathophysiology.." Answer Resty briefly.

"Ihhhh Mauuu dong if he has made his presentation pleaseeee... Oh, God help Servant.." Mily shouted.

"Ohh Mily is also the pathophysilogy of Diabetes Mellitus?" Ask Resty.

"Yeah.. Ih Alhamdulillah yahhh.. It can be taught hahahaah... Makeup baby.." Mily replied with excitement and hugged Resty tightly.

"Yeee is Mily's a scene." Sahut Yanti while shaking her head - shake her head. 

"Jaudah now we eat yukkk first... Laper nihhh..." Sahut Sera while patting - pat her stomach.

"Yeeee.. Can't do.. This work was Iue. Just ate." Answer Mily.

"Ih Mami Milyy. If the laper can't think about it." Answer Sera.

"The thought of you eating mulu yaa Ser." Answer Mily.

"Hahahahaha yaudah mending eat first is good, so there are nutrients to the brain. If the laper is dizzy so can not learn guys. Yuk.." My heart while turning off the computer. 

"Yeahyyy! Ayoooo... Let's Gooooooo!!" Yanti and Sera shouted. 

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After more than a month without Dhito I'm getting better - it's fine because I've started to focus too much on college. And I think it's time for me to return the message that time, because my feelings have begun to calm at this time. Maybe at the time when the heart and head is already adem new can chat with Dhito again. 

"Hi Dhito's. Thank God I'm okay. Sorry to reply to your message again. How are you doing now?" I asked through BBM chat.

"Alhamdulillah after so long you bales also BBM me. Thank God I am healthy, I am very happy, God... Are you better now, Ri?" Reply Dhito quickly. 

"Udah kok Dhit, it's better and calmer. And I'm sorry, because I'm not clear, I don't mean Dhit." 

"No, you don't have to apologize anymore Ri. Maybe I am too selfish because it forces you to continue with me when obviously you are not comfortable if you continue - continue to be with me. Sorry about Ri." 

"Nope. That's not it, I'm selfish. It always wants to be understood by you whereas I should be able to understand you as well. May we introspect each other again.."

"Yeah Ri.. I want to be like running water, no more forcing anything."

"Unlike running water also Dhit, running water can only go where - where the end. It's not even clear where the end is. Well, we have to be good communication Dhit, obrolin whatever it is that's stuck. Than in the simple." 

"This is what makes me love you more Ri. I'm grateful to know you Ri."

"You always taught me to be patient, I'm also grateful to know you. Thank you, Dhit." 

Learning my life when I have to fight with myself about feelings. I became more appreciative of the feelings of others and better understood that the couple was not just about who used to like, who used to love and who used to love. But how the man will try and be patient because of his sincerity, the sacrifice that is not easy to continue - continue to clash with your own feelings and the feelings of others who really want to accept me without but.