Forced Love

Chapter 36. Introspections

This time I was busy - busy with exams, lots of material I had to learn. And yahh.... So the medical student was so unpredictable. Sometimes I can easily learn and understand what I've learned, but sometimes I can't understand and understand what I've learned. Really sickening, I used to think being a doctor seemed fun. Hearing the curses of people who come for treatment of his illness begins with thoughts and stories - stories of his life either telling about family or friends. But it turns out that before going to the fun part, you have to go to the annoying part first. Must learn human anatomy, from head to toe. How the process of breathing, the process of food entering until finally thrown into the last disposal, how the brain can work, how the heart can survive, until finally why there is diabetes, why there is hypertension, why there is cancer, why there is cancer, why there is appendicitis, why heart failure, kidney failure, then how to unite broken bones, the process of human growth and development and many more. How can it be that while I am in a dilemma with my relationship with Dhito, I also continue to think about my education that is getting harder and harder. Even if I had started to stress with the exam, I could not study but choose to sleep. 

"I'm not ready for testing yet.." Mily said as she ruffled her own hair.  

"Gue is also.. I had a panic attack.." My mouth while coughing - coughing.

"Duhhh I can't do it later.." Sahut Sera while pacing - mandir walking in front of me. 

"Diem kek Ser's.. Make me dizzy just see you go back and forth like an iron." Sahut Fily's.

Tami, Resty, Aira, Yanti, Sissy and Viana were still silent and continued to flip through the material paper they were seriously reading. 

"Tuh lo see the children pinter on diem. Lo on a really bad taffy.." Fily again. 

"Udah ready to be massacred I'm the same doctor if I can not answer in the dalem.." Sahut Sissy arrived - arrived. 

"Hahahha from earlier lo ateng really though Sy..." Mily Ledek. 

"Dizziness Nih Miii... I can't just tap the same brain that pinter..." Answer Sissy grumbled. 

"Hahahahaha yaudah there you open first the contents of your same head that is the most sintered in our generation." My solute. 

"Take care of me..." Answer Tami. 

"No, you are pinter..." My solute.

"If only I had said pinter Ri..." My answer.

Before long we were all called to enter the room and begin the exam today. We have tried and prayed how God determines whether we can do or not, pass or not pass. 

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It was time at the end of the exam to be relieved once this last day. After finishing the exam today we plan the way to the mall to just eat and walk. Yes consider it like refreshing for us prospective doctors who are tired of studying and stress facing hehe exams... 

"Weird why?" Ask again.

"Yes usually you are more beautiful, this is from the first day of the test already moody. Rarely laugh..." 

"Yes yeah? Do I look so bad if I'm sad again?" 

"Eh... You know my deket Ri... I can guess. Wh why? Same story as me.." 

"However, I again need some introspection for my relationship with Dhito Mil. I'm kind of selfish like him, he's been trying so hard that I want to fully accept his heart. But the guy didn't want to also try to open his heart to him completely. Just yes I dilemma Mil, how can I open my heart while something that I do not like in him aja he still sell... That's smoking. I want to take him to my parents.. Just so he stops smoking. But the proof until now can't be him. And I can't make that. That's the point." 

"Duh duh duh duh dizzy also yes so... Honestly, yaa Ri... What I used to be like you even became the same sprain Dhito. Because yes, he will make you love him but he cannot change. Yes maintain. He's so patient he doesn't mean anything to you Ri." Mily replied upset. 

"But I also don't want to mistake him Mil. It's my fault too, I shouldn't have given him the chance from the start."

"Yaa okay you're wrong but at least he's a mature dong. Time wants to survive your love, but he does not want to try to quit cigarettes. Yes mending do not have to make it last, it makes you a dilemma."

"Yaudah that's why I have to introspect first. I still have him for a week, no communication either. I need time to tell him, and he still wants to wait until I really - really open his heart to him. Make it quiet and confused." 

"Udah.. What matters now is that you happy used to be with us so that for a moment your mind escaped from Dhito."

"Hahaha yes thank you Mil. I'm so grateful to have a friend like you..." 

"Woy... Do not talk to both doang dong... Same story as us..." Sahut Fily's.

"Haha yes yes..." 

I finally told them my heart. Who initially sided with the kindness and sincerity of Dhito now they became upset and supported me whatever my choice. Yes, consider me wrong at the beginning to accept it out of pity and want to give a chance. But this time I have to try to follow my heart or stop.

"Hopefully you can be wiser, Ri, will continue or not be the same Dhito." Tami Sahut.

"Amiii... Thanks to tam. Thanks to all of you.." I answered while hugging them all.