Forced Love

Chapter 26. Dhito Dream

It's been almost a month since my relationship with Dhito has been good. Even many. Laughter and a lot of stories that we discuss in BBM chat conversations. I talked to Dhito a lot, although I never talked about our future. I have not dared to discuss our future that even I don't know if I'm already sure of my feelings with Dhito right now? 

"So I was hanging out with Ri's kids. That's why I've only been able to contact you." Dhito said via BBM chat.

"Gapapa Kok Dhit... I also don't care if you reply for a long time, which is important for communication. Hanging out at the compound?" I reply quickly.

"Yes, baby, thank you. Yes, in the complex, in the house of the Angga. What are you now?"

"Oh on hanging out there. Mytha too? I'm watching TV again Dhit. You?"

"Yes, the children love to hang out at Angga Ri's house. Watch what Ri? I'm sleeping again, pegel my feet the effect of playing futsal yesterday."

"Watch the news, follow me watch TV hahaha.. Yaudah is resting in bed Dhit." 

"Hahaha your style is watching the news, you know. Yes, I'm waiting for you to sleep, I just rest."

"You don't have to wait for me.. I'll sleep later too. That's you soy sauce, so go to bed first, Dhit."

"Why? Hmm yaudah that is. Not sleepy yet, if I sleep first." 

"Judek.."

"Ri, I want a story."

"What's Dhit's story?"

"My dream story yesterday. I dreamed you... I dreamt you were the same I married to live together. We are very happy in the dream, keep arriving - you leave the house because you do not want to be with me anymore. I know what reason you are in that dream that I must be very sad. You're not gonna stay with me, are you Ri? I really want to change to be your Imam someday."

I was speechless when Dhito told me such a story, the first time Dhito had discussed it like this was because of his dream. I feel sad and feel guilty because my feelings are not completely right with Dhito. 

"Ami... I'm just assuring a good prayer, Oh Dhit. Her name is a dream of sleeping flowers, Dhit. So you don't think too much." 

"Yeah... But I have the intention that I want to be serious with you Ri. My mom likes you too.. I want to stop smoking to be your Imam Ri." 

"Dhit, if you want to stop smoking do not because of something or because of someone... But from yourself. I don't want you to stop smoking 'cause I asked." 

"Yeah Ri, it's me again." 

"You can't know if I can't make it and I don't know what I'm going to do in the future." 

"So you don't want to be serious about me, do you?"

"Hmmm is not that Dhit, anyway we will not know in the future like how... So now the pathin ajaa mutual self-improvement better each - each. Yes Dhit...."

"Yeah Ri... Yehudah, are you not sleeping? It's malem loh."

"It's a little while I sleep, you sleep first.. You want to rest, he said, pegel.."

"Judah I sleep first yes, you do not sleep malem - malem." 

"Yeah Good Night darling..." 

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The next morning, I woke up before the alarm. Then I took my phone and reread the chat from Dhito telling me about his dream. I feel guilty if Dhito continues to hope to become my Imam someday. I immediately got out of bed and prepared - ready for the Fajr Prayer first, immediately I spilled my heart as I prayed to God, I was still in a dilemma over my feelings towards Dhito. But his feelings were so deep and sincere to me. I'm so mean to good people like him.

"Alhamdulillah Mama's son at this hour wake up alone." Ledek Mama when out of the room.

"You're going to college in the morning Ma's problem." I answered while wiping my tears so that my mother would not see me crying while I prayed.

"Yaudah mama made milk.. Eyang masakkin fried rice like deh, this morning eyang call Mama. Fajr - dawn has woken up cooking fried rice for his grandson."

"Yes Ma.." I answered while tidying up my face.

I rushed to take a shower and was ready - ready to go to college. 

"What time is it today?" Ask Mama while preparing provisions for me.

"Today's the schedule until Ma's afternoon."

"Judek... You are ready - ready in front." 

I rushed out and said goodbye to Mama, "I'm leaving.. Assalamualaikum." Salim Mama's hand.

"Moskalamic. Be careful, Ri... Mr.." Mama said while kissing the hand salim.

"Let's go say..." Answer Father.

"Dahhh...." The Princess arrived - coming out the door of the house.

"Daah eya... Thanks for the fried rice.." I answered while waving to the princess' eyes. 

During the trip I was just silent, my father invited me to chat asking about where my lecture had reached. But I'm less focused because I'm still thinking about Dhito last night. Until finally he walked me in front of the campus. 

"There's still money on Ri's hand?" Ask Father.

"Udah finished Mr. hehehe..." Answer me while chuckling.

"You're not asked if you're not saying the money's over. Father love again. Don't let it go.." He answered while taking money out of his wallet.

Believe me, you gave the allowance of Fifty Thousand Rupiah that I love dear can be up to 3 days. Even I split the money for me to save. I do not want to continue - continue to ask for a lot of pocket money because I know paying for my school alone is very expensive. 

"Yes sir thank you. Yehudah I'm going down Assalamualaikum." I replied with a salute to my father's hand and got out of the car.

"Jaudah heart - heart. Walaikumsalam." 

You also go with the car at low speed, sometimes if you are home in the morning. Father drove me to the campus after that continued to Cibubur for practice to the 24-hour clinic which had become his workplace since bachelorhood.