Forced Love

Chapters 16. Break Again

Tuesday, April 9, 2013. 

This time I cried bitterly during the break. My close friends all came to me. 

"R...Lo why?" Ask Sera who is directly sitting next to me.

"Gue is so evil with Dhito." I answered while sobbing.

"Wicked why?" Tami asked as she rubbed my back.

"Gue hurt her..." Then I covered my face with both hands. 

"R. Just calm down..." Fily hugged me. 

"There's no problem you can't solve. It could be Ri. You have to calm down first, don't cry gini ya." Tympan Sissy. 

"Udah mending lo calm first ya Ri, we all run this into my car. Let's chat.." Mily said wisely. 

I adjusted my breath and held my cry even more, I tried to stay still for a moment until I would finally cry in Mily and Fily's car. 

"Let's go all down, this whole thing doesn't go to college." Viana. 

Me and all of my close friends we call by the name FAMTOM, are down. We're all 10. Among them are me, Mily, Fily, Sera, Resty, Tami, Sissy, Viana, Aira and Yanti. We started close after our campus medical anniversary. I told you everything in the previous novel. 

"Let's all get in my car, let's hear Riri's curse." Said Mily who immediately opened the car door. 

I positioned my seat and all fell silent as we all got into Mily's car. And they all looked at me, I was cornered.

"Why do you think about me anyway?" I'm confused.

"Yaudah now you're telling meaaa Ririi.." Sissy replied while patting me on the shoulder.

"Ohh sick dodol. Yes, I am patient...So gini story. I've arrived - it's random again chatan same with the Dhito this morning. Yes as usual we chat normal nanyain already breakfast and others. Keep arriving yesa I ask for a break aja same him because kayak still confused as my feelings. I just keep crying.." I explained still while shedding tears.

"Ah lag lo funny Ri, already know you do not feel the same as the Dhito. So what do you keep doing with defense? What purpose lo? Learn to love him?" Ask Fily ketus. 

"Hopefully it is Fil." Reply slowly. 

"Can't if you don't want Ri. I know you don't want to be with him..." 

I bowed and kept quiet. 

"Gue see how you're half-hearted about dating this Dhito Dhito. 

"R..." Call Mily.

"Yeah can't be Ri, the courtship is not only from one side. Of the two - both... If he does love you and you don't yaaa can't, torture his name." Mily said with a high tone.

"Yes, it was fitting I took a break also he did not want the truth, he was confused why I often invite him to hope a few times." 

"Let's stay to the point instead of Ri." Yanti said while chuckling.

"Gue can't Yan, before being my girlfriend, he's my friend and he's really nice. I want to go straight to the point. Painful him.."

"It's more painful you're dating her but her heart doesn't make her Ri." Answer Fily ketus.

I'm silent again.

"Udah deh gini. How does Riri want it?" Ask Tami.

"It's like you've already broken Dhito. Keep running out of this will you immediately release or you want to continue this strange romance Ri?" Ask Fily. 

"Gue doesn't know yet, I still need a lot of time. The most important thing now is that I do not want to communicate with him because his guenya who wants to stay away from him, I hope by repeatedly - this break makes him saturated and he first who cut me."

"So the point is you want to break up?" Ask Mily.

"Yeah... If I'm the one who killed me, it's just as bad as he's affected." 

"Okees... If he doesn't want to break up? Want to keep going?" 

"Surely he's a bitch for a long time." Reply sure.

"Not necessarily Ri, so you have to think of all possibilities." Answer Mily.

Resty, Sera, Viana and Aira just kept quiet and listened to this talk all the tanoa gave advice. Because they are my best friends who have a hard time giving advice. 

"Judah I don't want to break up." Answer's short.

"Yaiyalaahh.. Want until when you also want to be broken up if in fact this guy lo love really the same lo. Yeah, it's hard Ri." Answer Mily.

"Udah? Lo don't cry anymore, mending now we eat yukkkk. I finished college today. We eat yuk out..." Sahut Mily's.

"Yeeeeaaay eat - eat at Mily's treatise..." Sera Sahut.

"Yeee is good! Pay by yourself! We ate rice from the yuk yuk. It's good again." Mily replied again. 

I keep reading the contents of the BBM Dhito chat, it feels evil once I say "Dhit, I'm like again males deh same you. We should hopefully first. Dingy. Each one first yes.." He just replied "Again? You why?" Then I disappeared and didn't tell him again until a long time ago. Sometimes I get confused when with him my heart goes where it goes. Even I've tried to love him can't. As hard as I can learn to fall in love with Dhito, but it always fails.