Forced Love

Chapters 17. A Month Not Together

Today, May 2013. I was staring at the rainbow that came after the rain. I was contemplating alone in the back seat of Mily's car, opening my phone and reading a chat from Dhito that I never deleted even though our relationship was not good. At that time in Mily's car was heard the song Glenn Fredly Once Only.

"Lord if I'm still given a chance, allow me to love him...But when my time is up with him, let the love of this scale live alone..." I sang while shedding tears without Mily, Sera and Resty knowing.

"Ohhhh emang yaa rain and the song is upset..." Mily said while looking at me. 

I immediately wiped away the tears that were dripping on my cheeks. 

"R.. Healthy?" Mily asked while looking at me. 

"Sehat Alhamdulillah's.. Tasty rain gini eat fried food or indomie anyway." My answer immediately closed my sorrow. 

"Double indomie, right?" Ask Sera. 

"Indomie fried double use egg half mateng, mustard equal cayenne pepper. Ihhhh delicious." Reply spirit.

"Astaghfirullah I want to diet ah." Sahut Mily's.

"Th tumben?" Resty's asking is like being teased.

"Heh..bocil.. I could have cheated on you hahahaha.." Mily replied while glaring and laughing.

"Yaudah yukk we eat indomie to the cafeteria, or look for fritters in front?" Ask Sera while grinning.

"Emang yaa if you have gathered together you eat mulu." Mily replied muttering.

"Let's Go Mami Mily." I screamed from behind Mily.

"The bratty boy. Yaudah ate indomie at the cafeteria." Mily turned off the car.

Then we all got ready and got off Mily's car. We walked to the campus cafeteria and looked for a seat. 

"That's a pretty yuk." Mily said as she pointed towards the empty chairs and tables.

Me, Sera, Mily and Resty were sitting in that place.

"Who's the pesen?" Ask Sera who while cleaning the table that is still a little dirty from the people eating.

"It's the same with Mily." My answer.

"Resty and Sera want what pesen?" My toot.

"Gue indomie fried double, use eggs half mateng, use mustard equal chili pepper ya.." Answer Sera.

"Gue indomie boiled chicken onion, use the same mustard egg. The egg mateng yaa.. Don't wear chili." Answer Resty. 

"Okees.. Drink it?" Ask Mily.

"I want milk dancow dong. I'm ordinary." Answer Sera.

"I'm not cold mineral water." Answer Resty.

"Okeee..." Mily answered and went to the place of order with me. 

"It's Resty Tumben you don't go straight home." My solute.

"Yes, I'm waiting to come back. He said he wanted to be picked up, you guys just wait." Resty replied with a smile.

"Yeah.this is another tumben already on the back. Si fily again the same way temen - his High School Temen. Sissy equals Viana again basketball practice, Yanti, Aira equals Tami on the back. We're trapped in the rain." Answer Mily.

"Sera was soon picked up by her father...." My solute. 

"Was Rayn again in Jakarta Ser?" Ask Mily.

"Iyaaa again play to Jakarta, again off he until Sunday. Sunday afternoon back to Semarang." Answer Sera.

Rayn is Sera's girlfriend who studied in Semarang. They've been dating since 3rd grade Junior High, their relationship is very durable . But unfortunately they are different religions, so it is not clear where the end of their relationship. 

"Don't have a boyfriend." I answered with a sad face. 

"Yeeee... Do you want to be with Dhito?" Ask Mily while being teased.

Our food is coming. 

"Yeyyy.. I ate Ri first, let's not be upset." Sera Ledek.

Resty just smiled at Mily and Sera. I stirred the noodles and started eating them. 

It felt different, like no one was paying attention. There's nothing I can be angry about anymore and... 

"Udah Ri, learn lupain tuh the Dhito. If you reverse it again, your relationship is not clear." Sahut Mily while stirring her noodles. 

I just kept quiet and didn't answer Mily's words. 

"How long has it been with Dhito?" Mily asked while chewing her noodles. 

"A month is like a mile." Answer's short.

"It worked a month, yesterday it was every month you broke up not long back again." Answer Mily.

"Yes, so I feel like there's something different about this." Sad answer.

"Let's go... Udahh.. Do you feel the same about him now?" Sera asked while stirring up her drink. 

"Because I don't feel the same about him. But my feeling is that I should give him one more chance because I've started to lose him if he doesn't communicate with him." I answered while chewing.

"It means that without you realizing it, you have started to feel the same way Dhito Ri.." Answer Mily.

"This is not communication with Dhito?" Ask Resty.

"She chatted me, but never did I bales. Because I'm afraid I'll give her false hope as she res." My answer.

"Yaudah gini deh, you follow your heart to go where. If you still want to give me a chance yaaaa yau back again but if you do not want to give him another chance, already mending stop. Block all his sosmed, so he can't connect and find you again Ri." Answer Mily.

Again - again my heart wavers because of Mily's statement, I still want to give the opportunity to Dhito but will our relationship be better after that?