College Or College Ah?
A Poem for Raina...
The nights now feel very different...
I don't know what distinguishes it...
Either my race or even my life changed...
I feel like I have a lot of reasons...
Reason to be grateful for what I'm getting now....
Of course, the most important thing about your presence...
Tired days are common for me...
Then the broken days often become my loyal friends...
Until you break down the dividing wall between my ego and my heart...
The wall I've been building with firmness and arrogance...
The thorniest wall I've ever created...
But you were able to get through it without fear of bleeding and getting hurt...
You, your hair is unraveling even just the sound of footsteps...
Always managed to break through that wall so easily...
Until one moment, I named that wall my heart...
What does all this mean?
Am I losing now?
I lost to my own feelings?
Even from the person I most want to like...
Now it's...
What can I do?
Apologize or confess?
Today, after a long time of hiding...
I admit I was the one who lost...
I fell on you first...
I have admired you for a long time...
From the moment I saw you standing innocently in front of my comrades...
Your nameplate I see very clearly...
Your name is written there, even stuck in my memory...
L like you...
Even if you don't...
I want to have my first love...
Even if you don't...
That's my...
Selfish...
Not knowing, I'm evil...
I'm asking you to be a part of my feelings...
I'm too naive...
I feel scared when I clap one hand...
Raina...
There are 3 things in this world that can change me...
The first and second are loss...
Losing my father and losing me...
The third is to find you...
Why did I say find it?
Because you're the one I've been looking for all along...
I know, a lot of people admire you...
More than that, you always have feelings...
Honest and what it is...
Raina....
I don't know when I wrote this, what time of day and where....
Maybe I'll forget...
Cause all I remember is I liked you since I started this paragraph...
Raina....
Even if you never read this...
It will remain the same...
Either on paper or in my heart....
You will always be there....
"When is this naw? this is the brother who made it? seriousness? Yaahhhhh.
"Loh ko?" many wonder.
"Sister is more suitable to be a literary child, surely brother succeeds deh" godanya with a smile.
"Hahaha little boy, do you know where I got into literature?" I patted his head.
"Hahaha nebak aja abis brother jago aja enter the taste in the word" he explained.
"That's because you're the one I'm talking about, try the Dhika that I'm making the most poetry at the zoo all hahahaha" I replied.
Tonight I don't want to end, I want to be with Raina. Enjoy the most free day for me, the day when I can give something of my hand to the person I've been waiting for.
I called Mom in the village, I said, "Mom, Iyas is the same woman".
Mom sounded quite surprised and replied "Huh? what is the rain or wind today?" ask Mom while sounding funny.
"Would you like to hear her voice?" I said.
I also gave my phone to Raina, she looks wrong and enthusiastic.
"What am I supposed to say? ko impromptu call your mother?" whisper in confusion.
"Whatever, I connect ko want to be taught what to talk about" I said.
"Hello... This is Andreas' mother, right? my name is Raina, I'm her junior sister two stories below" Raina said.
For some reason, I enjoyed this show when Raina and Mom talked on the phone.
For the first time, I smiled for a little reason like this...
The conversation seems to be over...
"Ih brother mah, tell me first dong if you want to call Mom so I have preparation to say what" he grumbled while hitting my hand.
"Hahaha preparation, I want to say anything else you will be honest and natural so talking about anything must be smooth" I replied.
"But that's Mom sister, what if I'm talking wrong? Mother brother disappointed with me?" grunts again.
"Look, I even asked for a picture of you said you must be a beautiful child because the sound is good" I replied while showing a short message from Mother.
"I want to finish my hair first ah" he said as he moved.
I hold her hand, I want my boyfriend to appear as he is. I want him not to be burdened with Mom. Mom is also an honest and natural woman, I'm sure you'll like Raina no matter what.
"We are both photos now, we continue to send to Mother anyways you do not need to be neat hair is also beautiful... You think I shot you because you made up? sit here do not say anything" I grumbled while pulling his hand.
I'm a little harsh about looks, because I've heard over and over again that almost all women who are interested in me feel that they're beautiful and deserve to be my special friend.
But that's not what I'm looking for. Appearance may change over time. Black hair can whiten, white skin can blacken any beauty that can be lost inedible age.
More than that, I liked Raina's face without any makeup.
"Aren't you sure? I'm not pretty? but I'm not as pretty as Hanifa, am I?" tanyanya pouting.
"Each of us has its own value, both from the face, personality and talent. You are the child of the same mother Your father and Hanifa the son of Papa the same mother yes it is because the two of you can not be compared-bandingin" I explained.
Rain nodded as if amazed at my words.
"Mom said "Raina is coming here for the holidays.
"Ke kampung kuar? uh huh? Brother's mom wants to see me?" he said excitedly.
"Wahhhh, you want to meet the future in-laws, huh rain????" hanifa shouted from the second floor while being followed by her other two best friends.
"Wiiiissss, just this time your mother finally realized you are normal so she does not want to take Raina off hahahaha" ledek Dhika while I reply with a throw of sofa cushions.
