College Or College Ah?

Don't let me lose again

"Daddy!"....

"I am thirsty" he said.

I immediately called the doctor, informing him of Raina's condition.

The doctor came in, examined her pupils and removed her breathing apparatus.

"Dok, thirsty" he said.

"May sus, please give me a drink" said the doctor.

I saw him up close, as if dreaming that he was conscious.

"Oh, don't talk too much? Please be accompanied" said the doctor who then walked out of the room.

Finally, our eyes meet. The tip of his eyes looked at me, I was reluctant to come closer.

"Where's recca?" tanyakanya.

Instantly I approached him, sitting languidly so lethargic.

Slowly I grabbed his fingers, I held and kissed in my arms.

My tears flowed between his palms.

"Can't cry" he whispered.

I still can't speak. Really wanted to hug her, if she could sit down later, I would really like to hug her.

"You'll see Recca" he said.

I called Dad immediately, told him that Raina was conscious.

"Yes, I'm there now. Please don't stay with Raina first, will you?" my father said it sounded very happy.

Mother was also no less happy, she immediately shouted to Randy and Recca to go to the hospital.

"Yes, I'm with Randy and Recca not going there" ....

This time Raina smiled despite being weak, tears dripping down the end of her eyes.

"You too don't cry" I said, wiping away her tears.

"Hanifa, Nunu, where's Arika?" tanyakanya.

"They never left you, but they had to go to college to check grades. Later it will be done on campus, they must be here" I explained.

"Aren't you going back to Palembang?" tanyakanya.

I almost cried again hearing her question.

In fact, when he was seriously ill.. He is still thinking about my departure.

"Sssst, said the doctor earlier you can not be invited to talk a lot first" I said.

"I want to get up" he said, lifting his body.

"Don't you love me, it will be new if the doctor says you can sit down" I said.

He resigned and only smiled slightly at me. This time, he responded to my hand. I felt his fingers warm.

"I miss you" she said.

I miss those words so much, I thought it would take me a long time to hear it back from Raina's mouth.

"I'm more confused with you, sorry between this I always mengganggapkan words that are strange and excessive. I just realized how bad I miss the same words, when you brought me 2 today" I explained.

She smiled, so sweet. It felt like all the weight on my shoulders went down and all the distress in my chest was gone.

"I'm sorry for worrying my sister" he said.

Imagine, he who should be mad at me for not being able to take care of her instead apologized for worrying me.

Imagine that I should apologize instead of being an apologist.

"I have to apologize, I failed to take care of you" I said.

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Before long, Mom and Dad came. I gave them time to miss.

At least, I'm relieved that Raina is safe and able to regroup with her family.

Randy and Recca waited with me outside the room, they couldn't hide their happiness either.

"Sir Iyas, can't Recca come in?" tanyakanya.

"Come, but a minute? Children should not be taken to the hospital. But I really wanted to see Recca" I said.

"Recca wants to see you too" he said.

After one by one his best friend came, I realized that he was so much loved. Everyone was happy to see him sober.

At least, after this I have to think how I can work in Bandung without being bound by working hours and can take care of the plantation in Palembang comfortably.

I also informed people in Palembang about the cancellation of my departure.

"Yes tan, please aunt Om help Iyas first huh? After relaxing later Iyas thought again how" I said.

Suddenly Dhika came and sat down next to me.

Perhaps, he saw the uneasiness that was drawn on my face.

"Yes, I know this is not the right time for me to talk. But I know, after this incident you will definitely think a thousand times to go to Palembang......

......My advice, maybe you can cancel everything. You give the freedom to your aunt and om lu to take care of there. They are people who can be trusted. Lu can also ngandelin Pak Budi to be your right hand, and my advice again yes you open a business in Bandung"

I listened to Dhika's advice, however she said just now it was true.

"I think you're going home for a while to Palembang. Tell them what portion of their work is. Om same Aunt you position as what, Mr. Budi as what and maybe you later as what. So there are no worries in you and they are calm" he added.

After chatting with Dhika, I was summoned by Father inside while everything was out of the room.

Inside, Raina is seen playing her nails.

"Sister, come here. My nails ko shortened gini? Ugly ah gasuka" he said.

"That's the sister who cut, not me. Later it is healthy you can lengthen again you can continue to paint as you like" I said.

"That's not the case, but I don't feel good about short nails" he said.

"Keep what?" my many.

"You moved the room ah" he replied.

"Ko so move the room anyway?" my many.

"It's because I'm used to being in a simple room, not this luxurious and with enough facilities" I explained.

I see, the meaning she slipped from the story about her nails that had turned short just now.

He just wanted to explain, that his habits could not be eliminated.

"I know ko, brother wants me to get the best handling but I also have to adjust the situation of Dad. I know, brother paid and Dad also know that even he can't refuse. I just don't want to, brother's money runs out because of me" he said.

"You don't refuse this one, let's just say I rent a room here for me to sleep well while waiting for you. I won't accept this debate, you're my girlfriend's my fiancee instead. I should have done what was best for you" I said.

He nodded, maybe this time he accepted my request. I did it all, solely for his health as well and not to show my merits.

He knows very well, I'm not a royal typekal and gave him a lot of money. He is also not the type who asks me a lot of things.

But this time it's not about who's right. It's his health problem. There's no discussion about that. The point....

Mr. Yana came to the hospital, he called me shortly after arriving at the lobby. I asked Gian and Nirwan to pick him up.

"Duh, the pretty one's sick.. Now how's he doing?" ask Mr. Yana.

"It's a little mengingan sir, only if the gerakin head still hurts" replied Raina.

"Yes, do not move a lot, just wait for the doctor's direction" said Mr. Yana.

"Pak related to the research project.....

"Not to think about it, you need to be healthy first. That research will continue to run with your friends who run it. Moreover, because you can not attend then you ask Andreas who became the chairman of the research this time" explained Mr. Yana.

I was surprised to hear Mr. Yana's explanation, one side I was happy because Raina was free from her duties and could focus on recovery. Luckily, the lecture was also on holiday for a long time.

"Yes, if that's my brother Iyas will not be able to refuse sir" Raina said as she pulled my hand.

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Her night.....

They also insisted on me going home and cleaning up.

Raina, who had returned to chattering, also scolded me after knowing that I had not bathed all day.

"Just go home with me yas, I nginep in your kosan huh? I also have a holiday here" asked Dhika.

With a heavy heart, I follow their will. Although the truth is, it was hard for me to leave Raina all night.

"You're telling me that you're sick or need something" I said, stroking her hair.

Hanifa laughed and spoke my words.

"There is also, he tells people who are caught in the call time of people far away anyway"....

"Don't worry, they can take care of me.. Big brother sleeps and takes a nice bath" said Raina.

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Back to kosan.....

Dhika instead preceded me to take a bath and pick up the clothes in my closet for her to borrow.

"Yes, I'm a laper. Fill your fridge I cook ya?" said.

"There is an instant noodle at best" I replied.

"Whenever you can eat" he said..

I also took a shower....

During the shower, I still remember Raina. After that event, my feelings were always anxious and scared.

"Fa, is Raina sleeping?" my many.

"Sleeping, I just took my last medicine and went straight to sleep. Nunu same Arika waiting for him in the room, I'm looking for food" he said.

"You'll hear me if there's anything" I said.

I saw Dhika was busy eating instant noodles in front of the boarding house while enjoying the breeze that flew strands by strands of leaves in the trees.

"Weeey's a spell, I wasn't made?" my many.

"It was broken, it was the refrigerator" he replied.

While eating, we talked about many things. Mostly about our past that we both passed in Bandung.

"You got married first" Dhika said.

"It's true, you don't want to directly apply for Hanifa just as she sorted out the trial" ledekku.

"Ngaco lu, the Hanifa family is not a careless family. I was a jiper at the beginning, yes even though after that I can prove the same Papa and Mama if I am a good guy" he explained.

"If I could, I'd love to marry Raina. I took her parents and her sisters to Palembang. I made an effort there and they lived with me" I said fantasizing.

"Lu must have been amazed by Raina's father and mother? You want to boyong them" asked Dhika.

I also told you about the incident I experienced when I was going to help Dad pay for Raina's medical expenses.

Dhika was as surprised as I was, she was envious instead because I had a very kind and simple would-be-in-law.

"Have you heard from the police yet? About the one Raina hit?" ask Dhika.

"Not dhik, he said they still have to find the perpetrator and from the plate it was bodong. It's hard to trace where he lives" I explained.

Actually, the police told me that the perpetrator was in pursuit because the car used with the license plate was not suitable.

"Yes, I have an idea... How if you open a business here, your money will be a lot of tuh nah you can use capital to open what is it in Bandung" said Dhika.

"Open what do you mean?" my many.

"Cafe cake, carwash cake or something" he said.

I did have time to think about this, I think the only way to be able to in Bandung is to open my own business and while continuing my studies.

"Gue basically want to list first s2 here, the impression I see arentar" I replied.

"Well good, besides you will have aspirations to be a professor tuh well well you have to s3 lah. I support whatever your decision deh, but if you really want to open a business yes I beg cooperation hahaha. Take me!" dhika said while patting my shoulder.

"Yes yes" I concluded.

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Dhika had slept well.

I still couldn't sleep because I wasn't sleepy yet, either because Hanifa hadn't replied to my message just now.

I asked Raina what she was doing.

Shortly after, Hanifa called me.

"Raina woke up, she said her head was dizzy and she wanted to change her sleeping position. But doctors are not yet ngizinin. So he had a hard time sleeping" Hanifa replied.

Without a second thought, I went back to the hospital. Leaving Dhika in kosan alone.

I'll just calm down when I see it for myself, after that maybe I can sleep well.

Arriving in the room.....

"Loh ko, is this brother?" ask Nunu.

"Yes abis earlier said Raina woke up because of dizziness. Brother wants to see straight away how he is" I explained.

"Let's see for yourself" said Arika.

I saw him trying to fall asleep, but clearly his position was uncomfortable.

"Why deck?" my many.

"I can't sleep on the side, not good. My head doesn't taste good either" he replied.

Seeing her in pain and discomfort made me feel uneasy.

I wanted to help her, but how? Even according to the doctor, Raina should not move much first.

"Yes, can I raise his head?" I said.

"Yes please, the remote is under the lamp" he said.

Afterwards, he felt a little at ease and could close his eyes. While his hand held my hand.

Before long, he asked me to go home and sleep.

"Go home, I told you to go home too. Let me be here with them" he said.

"Yes, brother, go home to sleep" said Hanifa.

I followed and went home soon....

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*there are many phases in love....

Interested, in love, express, together, possess and lose each other then if his destiny will then be reunited ....

I almost went through the fifth phase, but luckily it was only a short time...

What I love is returned to my side....

Either this is the wisdom of the Creator or his compassion for me ...

After I was hit by a loss....

I know more and more the meaning of the word have....

Not just claiming that he's your right....

but also treating her like she really is important in your life....

I was negligent before, until I lost both my parents....

This time even my first love....

I'm a fool for not learning from my mistakes....

I should have kept him behind my body....

Not just letting him get hurt alone....

Luckily, God loves me*....