College Or College Ah?

Story by Andreas II

It was the grayest day for me, the day I had to see my loved ones drooping helplessly.

All the medical devices stuck to his body, his eyes closed like he was sleeping. Her beautiful mouth was blocked by the hose, I don't know what it was. I don't know what it is for, I don't even know.

Her hand no longer held my hand, even though it had been an hour since she was transferred from the ICU, I asked her to hold my hand as she used to do everyday.

But, he's not even following my wishes right now. She pretended not to hear me and instead continued her sleep.

I kept calling her name right in her ear, but she was even so arrogant and unwilling to get up. His eyes were still tightly closed, his nose was flat but his body was motionless.

"Don't you like the smell of the hospital? Yu, we go home" take me.

I thought after the seduction, he would wake up right away. In fact? He's still sleeping.

"Don't you want your hair extensions fitted again? Let's go to the salon!" I said to take her again.

It seemed like she was mad at me, because the other day asked her to return her original short hair. In fact, I know that she is very happy with her long hair.

If only I knew he would get angry and shut me up like this, maybe I would have followed his every wish.

Earlier this morning, he was still texting me about his activities that morning.

"Recca was spoiled with me again, when she asked me not to go to college. He told me to let him picture" he said.

Maybe at that time Recca had a feeling, or a feeling of what her name was that made her worry about her brother.

But why don't I even have a hunch at all? Why don't I have that feeling, why don't I go pick her up for college first?

Why am I even delicately sleeping in a cosan without having the premonition that Recca feels.

"I was picked up by Dad, you don't have to pick me up" he said.

Dad also had that feeling, he probably had a deep premonition compared to Recca. Until Dad picked her up to campus...

But, why don't I?

I instead chose to eat casually and called him without thinking that the street where he crossed was a former street he was hit by a motorbike at that time.

"Iyas, Raina got hit by a car. This is Dad again in the hospital with an ambulance".....

A few words that instantly broke my heart. I drove my car at high speed. Blaming myself, cursing everything I did from that morning until that afternoon...

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"The patient lost a lot of blood, please for family members who have blood type O can immediately donate blood" said the nurse.

My blood type AB, imagine how useless I would be again because I could do nothing to help him.

Can only see her falling asleep weakly and helplessly through the translucent glass into the room where she was being treated.

Watching how worried Mom and Randy's faces look at their loved ones on the verge of danger.

Hanifa who was crying in the waiting seat, Nunu who constantly had to calm Gian and Arika who chose to go somewhere and was chased by Nirwan.

And Dhika, my shadow that never left me a single moment.

"Lu, calm down! The doctor must have done his best" he said, patting me on the shoulder.

"If anything happens to Raina, the first person I curse in this world is myself. I won't forgive myself dhik".....

"Don't be negative thinking, Raina is strong! He can definitely survive and overcome this all" said Dhika.

"What I need now is not your advice, I just want Raina to wake up!!!"

"Gue knows, I really understand what you are doing. I and the others are also worried about Raina, but you can't blame yourself. Everything has happened, you have to be strong! You're the one he needs most now. Shadow when he regains consciousness later, he nyariin you and your condition is a rich mess gini" Dhika snapped.

I ran away and went to the hospital roof. Hit the wall with my hands as hard as I can. Striking my feet to the ground, banging my head and cursing myself.

"What are you doing yas? Keep one guy you're not so damn good? Even when the most important person in your life needs blood, you can't help. You have no benefit!"

"Pantes you lost your parents, because you can never take care of all the people God has in your life!"

All those words popped into my head. All the words I heard a few years ago when you died.

"Yes, yes, Raina has been moved to another room. You can go in and see him" Dhika said on her phone.

I ran down the stairs, went back to the room and looked for Raina.

"Yes, come in? Mom and Dad just saw kedalem, but Raina hasn't responded. Hopefully when you do get in, Raina can respond" Mother said as she held back her tears.

I entered the room with a broken heart, with tears held at the end of my eyes. With a cry that wanted to be let out, with all the emotions gathering in my head.

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"Maybe, the patient will be conscious in the next few hours. Please call the nurse when there are signs of a patient's response" the doctor said.

I sat next to him, looking at his eyes that were still closed.

"You know, I thought today you would be sad because it's my last day in Bandung. But why is the position reversed? Why am I sad? Why am I always in the position of being abandoned? Why are you rich? Why not me? Many love you, many worry about you... It's not fair, when people as good as you have to feel this pain. Try if I can, mending us tuker position. I think if I am sick. Maybe you are the only one who is sad and sad. There won't be as many tears as there are now"

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"Yes, you go home first. Eat and rest for a while. It's 9 o'clock, let me wait here" Dad said.

"Just go home, rest and eat first. Let Iyas wait here. Iyas came home too unsettled"......

Hanifa and Dhika return to the hospital...

"Sister, eat it? I brought rice with me side dishes, from noon my brother has not eaten" said Hanifa.

"Yes, you eat first. Okay gapapa if you don't want to go home for a break, but you haven't eaten anything from noon" added Dhika.

"Yes, Raina will say no if you don't eat" said Father.

I also ate in Raina's ward....

Wishing she would wake up and ask me to bribe her...

"Hey, I'm eating? This is also forced by Father and Hanifa, he said if you do not eat you will nag. But the power mending me horrified you nagged rather than you diemin I'm rich now"......

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"Hey, it's over. Are you sure you don't want to eat? Aren't you always ngerecokin every time I eat?

...........I'd like a sip of a sis......

..........kak I want the side dish............

.........do not get.....

"Sister, let me be with Nunu who's waiting for Raina. You have to fly at 10?" said Arika.

"Yaudah, but brother mending washing face first biad seger. I promise, I won't leave Raina. I'll take care of him until brother gets sorted out" Nunu said.

Seeing that the two were so eager to wait for him, I relented.

Outside I saw Nirwan, Gian and Dhika were also sitting while daydreaming without chatting with each other.

I sat among them, letting out the tightness I felt earlier.

"Sister, do you want anther cave to go home first? So you can take a shower and change clothes?" ask Gian.

"No need, I want to be here. You can please not go to the boarding house, I doubt that I just found the door is not fit to otw here" I said.

"Okay sister, I'm going to your boarding house now. Wan, you temenin me yu? Pake our motorbike to be quiet" asked Gian to Nirwan.

"Yaudah, I'm the same as Gian yep first huh?" pamit Nirwan's.

Dhika searches for Hanifa who disappeared somewhere, while Dad is seen walking towards the administration.

I went after Dad and found that the total cost for Raina's treatment had reached over 10 million.

"It's yeah, let Iyas pay" I said.

"No need, you're the same Raina is not married means Raina is still the responsibility of Dad. The cost of his life as a penny has not been an obligation for you. After the father's son gets married, then Dad loses responsibility" explained Dad.

The more I love this family, the more the family that truly shapes me becomes more sensitive and compassionate.

"Judah yeah, we split two huh? At least Iyas can help ease Dad's burden" I said.

"At least, Dad never felt burdened. It's been two semesters, Raina hasn't asked Dad for tuition. Maybe this is her replacement, Raina's tuition can I pay for her treatment" explained Dad.

"I mean Dad?" my many.

"Raina didn't tell you the same story? It's been two semesters, every father wants to pay his tuition. He always returned the money to Dad, on the grounds that it had been paid from the proceeds of the same sale of Hanifa or given money with Iyas. Sometimes Dad is angry, because Daddy's son is pushing himself too much" explained Dad.

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Raina's been paying for her own college two semesters? He even told Dad that I helped him with the money...

"When do you want tuition? When do I give you extra money to pay for your college tuition?"

You're better than me on deck...

You can even pay for your own tuition for two semesters....

What is your deficiency?

Grumble? Fussy? A jealous?

I think that's just the advantage....

How could there be such a beautiful, smart and popular woman who seemed to want to date me?

A newcomer student who couldn't even match her beauty.

He always said he was lucky to have me.....

In fact, I'm the lucky one to have it....

Has all his attention, his jealousy and all his free time.

"Yaudah, you better save the money for the two of you on vacation later after Raina recovers. Happy firstborn father, please don't hurt him! For Dad, Raina is the most beautiful God. You know, now maybe you're more important to him than you are. That's why I want, when I realize later the first person he sees is you" explained Dad while wiping his tears.

I was pensive, holding back my tears and trying to strengthen Dad.

"Maybe if you're still around, and I'm in Raina's position.. I'm sure you're just as worried about Dad...."

"Well, go home first. I'm anterin Daddy's home, huh? Let Raina be guarded here first. I sleep at home, let Iyas standby here" I said.

Dad nodded in agreement...

I paid a moment to Dhika and Hanifa who were sitting outside Raina's ward...

"Gue Anterin first Dad came home, I'll come back later. You tell me if there's anything" I said.

"Yes, be careful. I'm not the only one who comes later let me drive" said Dhika.

"Yes, brother, sister come later brother who is driving not brother Iyas" said Hanifa.

"Jaudah come" I said.

Back then, I wasn't worried at all despite having to leave Raina for a while.

There were three of his best friends nearby, three people who had not even left the hospital since noon. Three people whose eyes had swollen from crying over his sick friend.

I was even envious at times, seeing how much Raina was loved by them. Their friendship is no joke.

They feel like they have each other.

They are like a building, when one is damaged and collapsed the other will also collapse.

"Lu don't worry, there's no one who can take care of Raina other than Hanifa. They're both rich I'm just like you, like each other's shadow" Dhika said.

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Arriving home....

Mom called me and asked me to bring Raina some clothes.

"If he's conscious, he'll have his shirt changed. Raina doesn't like patient clothes later she must be fussy" said Mother.

I hugged Mom, crying in her arms.

"Sorry mom, Iyas can't even take care of Raina".....

Mom says it's God's destiny, not mine or anyone's fault.

"God love Raina this ordeal, because God knows Raina is strong. I never doubted the strength of my son, you can't see Raina either. You're the one Raina needs the most. I'm sure, when he wakes up he will immediately find you" said Mother.

"Now minglingan you take a shower first, there is your shirt one right in Raina's closet? take it and use it" added Mother.

"Yaudah ma'am, Iyas wants to take a shower. Please tell me the same Dhika below? ask waitin Iyas" I said.

This room, it feels just as warm as mine.

I miss the owner who always sits at the end of his bed and smiles sweetly at me.

His messy study table because of the pile of books stored arbitrarily, made me miss him even more.

"Look, my room is no neater than my sister's room? don't mindfeel like me?" his words suddenly ring in my ears.

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"You saw the deck, not a day you got me. I've been suffering this much.... Anyway, when I get back to the hospital, you gotta get up?"