College Or College Ah?

Big dream

Do you know who I fell in love with?

Answer: Try to read the first word I said just now....

Do you know what the best miniatures in the world are?

The answer: the miniature angel of heaven that is in the spotlight of your eyes...

You know how many bad fears have come up since you weren't in my life?

The answer: just count the stars in the sky, the number is still a lot of fear...

You know what world I can't occupy?

The answer is the world you are not in...

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It's the fourth day since Raina was hospitalized....

Today, Raina was already able to raise her head. His sleeping position is also comfortable and he can already comb his hair.

"Son't bring that comb out of my room, do you?" tanyakanya.

"Yes, the one that Mom brought, want me to combin not?" my many.

"Emang brother who has to combin because I'm lazy" he replied.

"Tumben a raina males takes care of herself" ledekku.

"I'm lazy because my hair is short, because yesterday someone asked me to pull the connection anyway" he said ketus.

I realized it was to insinuate me, I was the one who asked her to return her real hair without a connection.

"I don't like your long hair. It's just that every time I see you I feel rich looking at Mom" I explained.

He pulled my hand right then and there, pulling my body into his arms.

Although I know, his body is still very sick and has not recovered. I don't know why I was selfish at the time, because I really liked his embrace. I miss his hook.

"I'm sorry yes, it must have been difficult all this time to see my long hair. Brother why didn't you tell me from the beginning? Even though brother can be angry with me, I can understand" he explained.

I let go of her embrace, realizing that with the haircut however still there was the aura of Mother in as many corners of Raina's face.

"Yes gapapa, anyways that is your right and that was also for the campus ambassador yesterday. That's why I just asked you to unplug it after the campus ambassador was done" I said.

I combed her hair slowly, noticing that her hair was getting sticky. How much he suffered when almost 5 days can not bathe and clean his hair. He was very happy to take care of himself.

"It hurts?" my many.

"It's not hard to keep pulling dizzy but not as bad as a few days ago" he replied.

I tried to slow my hand and again pity him who had to continue in the room without coming out.

"Sister, I'm leaving the room this afternoon. I want to go around" he said.

"Ngaco, slide the sleeping position just your body motion is still stiff. Where can you go for a walk" I replied.

His face was pouting and looked disappointed. I understood how active he was before the accident, and then suddenly he could only keep quiet like now.

"Yaudah, tomorrow I ask permission to see a doctor" I said.

Finally, he can smile widely.

Our conversation continued, to the question that surprised me.

He asked when he was allowed to go home. Though just yesterday the doctor said, the development of Raina is classified as slow because her head is still often dizzy and her body often tremors (shakes). The doctor explained, it took until Raina was completely in a normal body state.

One of the causes is trauma to the front of the head, and plus Raina's psychics are shaken and in a weak body condition at that time.

"Yes later if you really recover, you can go home" I said.

"But brother, the cost here is expensive. Poor Dad's brother too, right?" said.

"You don't have to think about the cost, you're telling me that you're not a burden to him. Especially for me, can help you is as rich as my apology for not being able to take care of you" I explained.

Her eyes were watery and she looked crying. I now realize how heavy Raina's psychic burden is. He works, lectures, pursues many of his personal goals and must always look cheerful in front of everyone. In fact, he needs a lot of love.

In his home, he was the firstborn who inevitably acted as an atmosphere regulator. He often stays up to accompany Randy, relents to take care of Recca, controls wholesalers and not to mention helps with homework.

Not infrequently, when I went to his house I saw him mopping washing dishes or wiping windows.

Even though he looks like a campus activist, but last night he came home at bedtime will always be the same. He had an obligation to wake up his sisters, help Mom open wholesale and sometimes unexpected chores.

While on campus, among his three other friends. He is the one who controls the situation the most. Her fourth working mood lies in how Raina is. Raina's thoughts were always the most correct and there was no debate between them when Rain was the one who spoke.

Raina always pays attention to the small details of all her friends, she even knows that Nunu is having problems with Gian or when Hanifa is lazy with Dhika. The only one who can keep up with Raina is Arika. But, in reality Arika spoke very little and preferred silence.

Not to mention, his role in cadreization. His appointment as the head of the evaluation field, made him even more busy. He was indeed like a perfect miniature of simplicity. He speaks enough, hears more and understands more.

No wonder so many admire him. He's very interesting indeed.

"Sister, if I eat something else this afternoon. Can't you?" tanyakanya.

"What do you want to eat?" I said.

"You want to eat fried rice aeps, okay?" wheedled.

I also agreed to his request, although in fact he should not eat carelessly first. But, I admit three days back his diet is regular and very healthy. He only ate and drank what was provided by the hospital.

"Yes, I'll deliver" I replied.

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Her night....

Dad asked me to go home, and let him be with Randy to look after Raina that night.

"Well, I don't want to, I want to be the same with Iyas" Raina said with her promise.

"Don't you want to be with Dad?" ask Dad wonder.

"Don't want to, Randy's dad's coming home. Brother Iyas has been the experience of taking care of the mallem" he said as he pinched my hand.

I understand the code he just gave me.

"Yeah, Randy's dad slept at home. It's really okay for Iyas to wait" I said.

Finally, Dad gave up and I drove him home to the parking lot.

Arriving in the room, Raina billed my promise to order her her favorite fried rice aeps.

His eyes blinked a few times, as if persuading me to order him another meal.

"Yes I understand, same as a can, right?" my many.

He smiled wide again.

"In fact, I don't want Dad to be with Randy waiting for me. Only if there is no father at home, I feel sorry. Mother will close wholesale alone, lifting things alone, not if you are just two doang sama Recca must be serem. Randy though he's off school too, but he's really useful at home. His job is to mastiin all the doors and windows of the house has been locked and Randy will sometimes wake up really early to open the wholesale alone" he explained.

"Isn't it because you're nasgor?" ledek.

I actually didn't mean to bully her, it's just that I wanted to shift her focus so she wouldn't be sad anymore.

After the food comes, Raina's world is back. His eyes sparkled and his smile was wide.

He sent me pictures and did a videocall with his three best friends, only to show off that he could have a good meal that night.

As simple as my girlfriend was, she only asked for fried rice and a glass of a warm can for her healing celebration meal.

"Definitely a lot of money because of paying room money?" tanyakanya.

"Can not really, if again eat or again do something you do not think of other things first. Really, I didn't think. Your brain is richly branched, again this thought it continues again it thinks this. I want you to really rest here" I explained.

"Well, I want to know, how many tries? If it's for Dad, I'm not a burden, if for brother I must be a burden, right?" ask her insistently.

"From now on, your tuition and your daily or monthly expenses let me take care of it" I said.

He looked shocked and stopped eating.

"Hmmm I become more burdened if the gini, the more difficult I will be brother" he said.

"Jude, let's make a deal, how? I charge you but you have to give me something" I said.

He scrunched his forehead and hit my ass.

"About? Don't mind it, I don't want to" he said.

I understand where his mind is going, but I don't think there at all.

"Ngeres, that's not what I meant. Dengerin first, do not just conclude" I said.

"I want you to take care of my life. You send me to eat every day, wash my clothes to the laundry anyway you who nganter to the laundry and take it again to my boarding house. Then you should think about it, what business should I open in Bandung?" my clear.

"Wow that's supposed to be, I'm asking for a separate salary. My job is art as well as a personal assistant and also served as a business planner. Triple job, huh?" ledek.

"Yes that's the second choice yes, the first choice because it can not be realized now-now" I said.

"What was his first choice?" tanyakanya.

"Well me" I replied.

This time he looked extremely embarrassed, his expression changed and his face reddened.

"Ish gumbal" he said.

In fact, it was really a speech from the heart not the original rumble I let out.

"After this, I slept? You see, if you have taken this last drug, I like to immediately drowsy" he said.

"Sleep, don't think of anything weird anymore. Anyway you're here the job of healing" I said.

An hour later, he was sound asleep.

I waited for her while sitting on the couch and watching the tv show.

Until I got a call from the police.

"The one who hit Raina's sister's run, has been caught. He has been secured and arrested in the west bandung area. The suspect is also one of the car and motorcycle theft plotters" explained the police who handled the Raina case at the time.

"Good sir, tomorrow morning I'm going to the office. Thank you sir" I said.

I still remember Rain's request the other day, when he overheard my conversation with his father about the impactor that got him into the hospital.

"Udahlah, do not extend. It's my fault, I'm not careful" he said.

He also had asked me to keep it a secret to Dad if it was true that there would be a suspect who was caught.

"If you demand people will have to come out of money as well. Mending up, the important thing is that I'm alive and well, right?" inexplicably.

This time, I agree with you. I understand the frustration of a father whose son was run over by a runaway man.

But, somehow also I find it difficult to refuse Raina's request. I thought, if Raina finds out that this case is being extended, then the first person who will let her down is me.

I'm not willing to stretch with Raina, for whatever reason Raina's recovery should take precedence over my selfishness and Dad.

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Tonight, I suddenly had a good dream.

Mom and Dad came to see me...

Mom stroked my hair and Dad hit me on the back like he used to.

"Mother is proud of you yas, you have done your best for the people you love"

"Father is also proud and envious, it turns out that you are not as good as Raina who can change you for the better"

I hugged both of them and closed my eyes even deeper.

I wish that dream would last longer.

"Sir, Iyas sorry? Iyas has not yet made you proud" I said.

"Father who should apologize, because it can not and failed to make you a good child even until the father does not exist" replied the Father.

That longing, sad atmosphere enveloped my heart...

Seeing the shade on Mom's face...

as well as the stoutness on the face of the Father...

Makes me even more convinced that I am lucky to be the son of them....

"Yes, leave Raina? You said Raina looked like your mother... Your mother told you, your father agrees... I also want you to treat Raina like you loved your mother" said the father, wiping his tears.

"Same Father Mother go first yes yas, you must be patient and use your time as best as possible. Fathers and mothers only want you to be a child who is sholeh and useful" said Mother.

Before long the two of them were picked up by the white light emitting...

Both are gone, leaving a deeper longing...

Both are gone, leaving a lot of calm....

I know, it was just a dream....

Dreaming is enough for me...

I wish so many dreams would come to my sleep at night....

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I got out of bed and realized it was too late for me to wake up.

I glanced at Raina's bed and found her soundly asleep.

I don't know when he might wake up, because there's a cell phone in his left hand.

I picked it up and put the phone in a small closet.

I looked at her idly, she was looking at what the last time was.

Apparently, he wrote a note.

"Raina, you're lucky to have each other... It was not that he was handsome and had treasures. More so because he loves you with all his soul as well as you who love Andrew with all your soul" said the late Mother in my dream...