Chasing you

CHAPTER 62

Qirani opened the laptop and started to turn it on. For a while, he seemed to focus on what he read on the laptop screen.

Then Qirani began to move his index finger nimbly on top of the laptop keyboard. Sometimes he stopped and scrunched his forehead to think. Then continue typing.

So serious Qirani with his laptop, he did not realize the presence of Arga who brought a tray with a glass of warm chocolate milk and a plate of fried bananas.

Arga placed the tray on the table, next to the laptop. He chose to sit on the rug next to Qirani.

Seeing Qirani who was still busy and unaware of his presence, Arga used the opportunity to stare at Qirani even longer.

Arga put his elbow on the table, to hold his chin. And he looked at Qirani lovingly. Looking clear from his gaze, he was truly enchanted.

I don't know how many times I've told you, but she's really pretty in every way now.

Everything that was on him, really made me unable to turn away for a second.

Even though she's been married for three months, and she's still so cold, I never messed up...

Until when, I will wait for his heart to open for me by itself.

Three years...what made him change so drastically in just three years ?

Change anywhere, I'll wait...

" What are you doing here ?! "

Thin-pitched rebuke made Arga disperse her daydream.

Qirani was looking at him with a cold look. Her pretty face looks cynical.

" This, you came home last night, and I saw that you didn't eat after the shower. The fried banana that made Sherina, was brought Doni after isya'. Who knows you want to. "

Arga said while showing his chin towards the tray.

" Don't be so good to me. I don't have time for that kindness and care. "

Sahut Qirani remained tight.

" I don't feel too good. It is natural that a husband cares about his wife. So it doesn't feel... "

" Our marriage is only black on white, not in the name of mutual love. So for me, each take care of themselves is better. "

Cut Qirani fast.

And not wanting to linger, Qirani closed his laptop. He wants to get up and leave Arga.

Seeing Qirani's gurgle, Arga caught Qirani's wrist. Inevitably, Qirani sat back down.

" Please, one more chance. "

Arga said expectantly.

" Objection ? Do what ? "

Ask Qirani, cynical.

" For us. I promise, I'll do whatever you ask. Whatever. "

Arga said, now holding Qirani's hand.

" What ? How with... Divorced ? "

Sahut Qirani looks doubtful but serious.

Hearing Qirani's last word, Arga's hand clasped. His face changed immediately. From what was previously hopeful, it has now become desperate.

" Divorced ? Meaning ? "

Asked Arga in a weak tone.

" Divorce is parting. Especially, hem ? "

Sahut Qirani, this time looking relaxed.

" Did I really mean nothing to you all this time ? "

Arga's question with a soft tone of voice made Qirani stunned.

Doesn't mean anything to me ?

His attention...

His eyes...

Does he mean nothing to me ?

If I say he doesn't mean anything to me, then why do I feel lost when he no longer gives me surprise every morning ?

Why do I like to feel lonely if he no longer comes to my office and sleeps on my guest sofa ?

Why would I worry if he came home late at night without telling me ?

" Three months... I wish you could try to open your heart to me. Gave me a chance to make up for all my mistakes with you first. I'm the one who doesn't appreciate you, I'm the one who's always arrogant about you, I'm the one who keeps bullying you, I want to make up for it, Qirani. Three more years, enough to make me lose my pain there's no you. L'm... "

Yeah, three more years.

The times I held a sense of vengeance that flowed throughout my bloodstream, filling my heart and mind !

" Have I really lost my chance ? "

Chance ?

So what does that mean ?

Is that an opportunity ?

A chance for who ?

A chance for him ?

Or a chance to fall in love with the same person ?!

" Answer me. Your silence makes me even more tormented. I beg of you. "

Arga jerked Qirani's arm, making Qirani aware of the inner war.

" i... "

Qirani looked confused in answering.

" Look at me, and tell me, you never loved me ! "

Arga began to get impatient, pulled Qirani's arm and make the distance between himself and Qirani stay a while.

The two looked at each other. Arga's gaze looked piercingly sharp into Qirani's two clear eyes. Qirani was feeling puffed up. There was guilt coming into his mind.

" Don't turn away ! Look at me, Qirani ! "

Arga said in a half-high tone of voice as he looked at Qirani who was intending to turn her face away.

" Tell me right now ! You never loved me ! "

Force Arga with his sharp gaze.

Qirani who returned Arga's eyes, felt even more guilty.

I must be strong !

Can't be weak !

Mama, Brother Adit, everyone is fighting, I also have to be able to !

Inner Qirani who was trying to encourage himself.

" i... "

Said Qirani, trying to speak in a firm tone.

" Never love you. "

Qirani continued while returning Arga's sharp gaze with the same thing.

Instantly Arga relaxed. The grip of his hand on Qirani's arm just slipped off. His body sat backwards with a curve.

Sorry me...

Sorry, that's not what I'm supposed to say.

But...

Inner Qirani who continued to feel guilty.

" I'm not a cruel person and I don't know thank you. Please, you who prepared the divorce papers. I want to get divorced next month. My life is not about remembering the past. "

Qirani said straightforwardly, though her heart trembled.

Looking at Arga who was just silent and bowed, Qirani bit the corner of her lower lip. And not wanting his heart to be more troubled any longer, he immediately stood up and went to his room.

Stupid !!!!

Stupid !!!!

Qirani said in his heart.

Arga smothered his face with both hands. Slowly, his tears came out dripping through the sidelines of his fingers. He refrained from speaking in his tears.

Arga felt as if his entire body was shattered unceremoniously. Pain to deep sadness, radiating in each of his veins.

Why is the pain more painful than when he went missing first ?

Does this mean that there is no longer a word to wait for him ?

Does this mean I really lost her ?

Then, what should I do now ?

I'm not sure if I can live without him a second time ?

First of all, I'm still holding on because I'm sure I'll see him again.

Which now ?

Am I still able to survive ?

Because he will no longer exist for me...

Can I ?!

Oh my God.. Is this karma for me ?

The tears of Arga continued to flow in silence.