Amnesiacs

Mother's Advice

"are you going? I want you by my side, please stay here with me forever"

"that's why I had to leave, so we could be together forever"

that night, I dreamed of a strange thing, a conversation that came out of nowhere and with what purpose.

very early in the morning I woke up, preparing to meet my mother, Silvi would also come, I would ask permission to marry my mother, even though in fact men do not need the blessing of parents, but the pleasure of God lies in the ridhonya of parents.

holding my trembling hand as I walked, Silvi whispered to me.

"Calm down, I will definitely support you"

"I'm going to fight, it's hard I'm stepping, a step that makes me a grown man"

in front of the house, with a yard that is not too broad, I know this house well, millions of memories I remember just by looking at it once.

"Mom, I'm home"

The longing that peaked shortly after I said that, it was a long time ago, I was very confused by this situation, this small house became a witness I grew and developed.

then my mother came to open the door, smiled so warmly at me, came and hugged me

"Mom is waiting for you to come home"

I don't know what's sad, but the tears keep pouring out, I can't stop even if I try.

this is a form of longing, the mouth can no longer pronounce the word how long the mother misses a child, the warmth of this embrace is proof that she is missing her child, the child he always waits for every day and hopes his son will come home soon.

you just fell silent, I don't know what to say, I understand how lonely my mother has been, behind her strong figure, I understand she's always waiting for me every day, he was always ready to say welcome, but I never came.

"Mom hope, you live here, this house is too big for my own mother, I think I'm a little tired of taking care of it"

it's been 4 years and I've never been back, not an escape account, but in the name of self-discovery, I've hurt my mother so much.

I cried prostrate before my mother, so much pain in my heart to think and know that I was so missed that I never came home.

"Mother, I'm sorry"

"Although I don't understand why you're sorry, I don't,

the warm smile that was typical of a mother, made me unable to stop crying, I had made a fatal mistake and I was very sorry.

Silvi who was beside me, grasping my hand, tried to strengthen me, but I kept crying, I really felt very guilty towards my mother.

"Mother, I came here to ask you something, but I feel ashamed, after what I did to you"

mother then approached me, hugged me, and it felt so comfortable, filling all the empty hearts, actually this is what I was looking for, genuine, loving affection and warmth.

"Tell me son, so I can give it to you if I'm capable, I'll really try if I want you to"

I stammered with my plans to marry Silvi, it was so shameful that I said such selfish things after leaving mother for so long.

"I'm getting married ma'am, help me camouflage Silvi for me mom"

mom saw me, she smiled happily

"mother's child is old, has grown up and is worthy of being a father, both will help you propose to Silvi, mother also likes her, and mother does not want to see you depressed like before"

mother started holding Silvi's hand, but Silvi was down maybe she felt embarrassed.

"Silvi, help me take care of Nata yes, she's the only mother's family left, and if you get married, stay here, accompany me you'll be happy"

"Marriage is not something easy, you will work together to build a family starting from scratch, maybe there will be some arguments because of differences, but I hope you will understand each other later, and later Silvi's stomach will be filled with a baby, love your wife indulge him, take care of the child with affection, you will meet with the rigors of the world, but if you face her together, you will meet the harshness of the world, you guys can get through it"

"Thank you very much ma'am" said I who reflexively hugged my mother.

"Of course, mom is very happy, mom's son is an adult, make sure you are a responsible man yes"

"Ready ma'am"

"So when is the plan to apply to Silvi's parents? "

"The plan is Monday ahead ma'am, can you? "

"Yes, I will wear my best clothes, and I will ask Silvi for you"

Hearing that, there was a sense of calm and also fear, after this I will face a different world, I will begin to take responsibility for two people and will be fully supported by Silvi.