Amnesiacs

The deepest heart

In the next few days I will continue to stay up, in addition to completing my college assignments, I am also pursued by the target of completing my second novel.

in my messy boarding house, I tried to open the window so that the air could come in and refresh my mind.

a month was the deadline, it was stressful, I was just struggling in this narrow room. Fortunately Tya accompanied me every day, her smile helped me through everything.

"Ura's late, get some rest"

"Do you want to go home?, let me take you"

"I can be here? staying in your room?, I'm already so sleepy" Tya's face looked so tired. Tya looks so sleepy.

"uh, no, aren't you afraid I'm doing something to you? look at me, too, grown man"

"haha, I was waiting for you to do something naughty" shortly after that Tya was completely asleep.

I'm still writing, but I'm still having a lot of ideas.

Actually I was a little worried, Tya knew that my first and second novel told about Silvi. I did not want to hurt her, but how else this is my promise to Silvi.

that night....

The words flew into my brain, the tears I described in it, as well as the sadness, depression and suffering I painted well

no time passed, it was already at 3am, I should sleep, and I began to sleepy.

*sfx sound alarm

"Wake up, it's noon, didn't you go to college this morning?"

He woke me up, but I was so tired.

"Don't be too forced, I know the deadline, but don't let you hurt Nata"

"Yes, take it" I smiled and hugged her.

"bawel also I'm your boyfriend" Tya's face looks badmood

I kissed her lips, Tya was so sweet.

"You're not angry anymore, are you? thanks for accompanying me"

"Nata, one more time" he said with a flushed face

"eh, you like it so much" I laughed seductively

"aah, Nata don't even make fun of me like that"

then I kissed her again, I think Tya enjoyed it so much. She always closed her eyes.

"Every day I want you to hug and kiss, no rejection"

"Yes you are so perverted hahaha" I replied mockingly

"Sheels!" her face was so red, I knew she forced herself to dare to say that to me.

Today the campus feels very hot, but I have to complete my guidance. must be a lot of revisions, lazy it feels. The lecturer seemed to hate me, he was always revising my thesis as if what I was doing was not right, ah I hated him too.

after I finished revising my thesis, I went back to writing my novel, every time I wrote it, there were always tears falling, like I still wish Silvi was with me, I miss her so much, she said, it's been a long time, I'd love to hug her again.

I didn't feel my tears falling, and suddenly Tya came to me.

"Nata, what's wrong?"

"No, I might just miss him" I said, wiping my tears

"It's okay to cry sometimes"

"i can't choose who I'll fall in love with, and it's hard to forget that feeling"

"Then don't forget him, Nata"

"Didn't that hurt you?" I looked towards Tya

"the human heart is very complicated, very hard, difficult to understand and very beautiful, as long as you don't leave me, it doesn't matter that you keep the memories with Silvi" her eyes were a little teary

"Don't talk like that, I've always seen you happy with Silvi, and so does Silvi, she loves you so much right?" tya's tears are coming down, for sure it's going to be heavy for him.

"Thank you, my heart is a little relieved to hear it"

"how much pain and sadness you experience, will not make you feel unhappy. Life is interesting, because we can't get everything we want. I hope you don't regret something you don't have to regret" Tya tried to smile, but his tears came down without him noticing.

I hugged her, this time I felt so lucky to have Tya, she was so patient, and so strong to support me.

he did not complain with me, but Silvi was still there, deep in my heart.

"Nata, can I stay here again?"

"uh, what's the matter?, I won't stay up anymore anyway"

" It's precisely because of that, I wanted to hug you all night"

"how would I refuse it yes" I did because feeling guilty made her shed tears

Night came, it was so cold in my arms, Tya was in my room, in my bed with me.

"Yes, you're so pretty" I hugged her so tightly

"Nata, don't say it like that, I'm so embarrassed" Tya's face flushed red.

"oh are you still shy with me?"

"no, but it's like a dream, to be in bed with you, in your arms" Tya smiled, I'm so happy to see it

"haha, let's just say thank you, because you've always supported me"

"Nata, I want more" he said with a spoiled and embarrassed face.

"You want me to kiss you?, all right"

I kissed Tya so lustfully, I was already at the lust level of a savage beast.

"Nata, I want to do it with you"

"i'm also Tya"

I was completely carried away by the current, as Tya took off her clothes one by one, the beautiful body was. I looked at her face, she still seemed to be timid.

shortly after seeing his body, I remembered Silvi who used to cry, when we would do the same thing.it is hard for me to continue.I'm sorry I can't.

And I hugged Tya, holding back my increasingly uncontrollable lust.

"I don't think I can do it. It reminds me of my bad past"

"your past with Silvi?" trying to let go of my embrace, he looked so angry.

"yes, I never did, it's just that Silvi invited me, but I refused, and after that incident Silvi really left my life, she said she wanted to make memories with me, I don't just do it this much, especially if I do it"

my tears fell, memories came spinning rapidly in my mind.I suffered so much

"hemm"

"forgive me Tya, I'm scared too. I already love you, so just do it later after we get married"

"What's wrong, Nata, I've always liked you"

he smiled but I doubted his sincerity

"thank you, don't leave me"

I feel so weak, I fear loss, I fear suffering, I fear all that hurts.

"like her, it's not me who leaves you, but you who will leave me.

It sounded like the destruction of a great hope, at that moment I understood that great sorrow could no longer be described as tears.

because Tya smiled, but his heart was in so much pain and fear.