Amnesiacs

Lust and Desire, Secrets revealed

When I woke up, Silvi was already on top of my body, her red face was accompanied by tears.

"If my destiny is like this, I will never be satisfied" he said in tears.

I am still gathering my soul, the real confusion of what happened. Before long Silvi kissed me, hugging me so tightly.

"I know it's selfish, but let's do it" Silvi said, trying to undress me.

this overflow of feeling makes me unable to breathe, ah when I'm with you it feels like I'm becoming more selfish.

The kiss warmed up, I enjoyed it, the smell of her hair and the smell of her body made me really aroused.

"Silvi, maybe this time I'll miss it"

buttons all open my clothes, while kissing I try to put my hand on his shirt, I rubbed his stomach.my lust has gone out of control.but I see tears on his face.

while letting go of my kisses and hugs, I asked "It seems, I can't do it, and what exactly happened to you"

"There's no time for Ura, if it wasn't today I would never be able to do it with you" Silvi kissed me and hugged me again, she whipped my lust, like she whipped a wild horse hard.

"i can't, not because I don't love, but I know you did it because you had to"

After my words, Silvi slapped me.

how could I have been so lustful, while he did it with tears.

"are you not satisfied with me"

"it's not like that, you don't do it out of love, the water in your eyes shows it"

"when you have always asked for selfish things, but I do not hate your nature, this time I beg you"

"I love you, Silvi, so I can't do it"

"quite, I'm sick of it, I don't want half-and-half.you always ask me why you love me, heavy words, but you say lightly, anyways it's just as you want it to be, anyway, like the word "good" from your mouth, you take all this for granted"

"Why don't you look at me with that sweet look"

"because if it wasn't today, maybe tomorrow I'd die, and maybe if I were to survive, I might forget you"

tears broke on his face, I heard pieces of grief that fell, so sharp and piercing, and then unraveled by tears.

"What are you saying" I was shocked by everything.

"Come, Ura do it, this is all I can do for you, as a memory so that I can die peacefully"

"I'm not gonna let it, you have to live, for me" I got emotional, I tried to catch my breath and calm myself down.

"Tell me everything from the beginning clearly"

"Ura, since I was a child with a disease, I almost gave up but you always supported me at that time, even though you were still a child you made a series of operations I succeeded, he said, until this moment I can live in the hope of being with you"

"then it's not like you're healthy, everything works, right?"

"yes, everything worked, but now the cancer is attacking my brain, and even though the chances of survival are very low, and even if I survive, I will lose my memory, including my memories with you"

I fell silent lethargic, fate was so cruel to me, when I had just been taken flying but had been thrown again to earth.

"The pain is starting to feel, my hair has begun to fall out, you see it yourself right?, I often skip chemotherapy, but I don't want you to look for me, I don't want you to be sad"

"But Silvi, don't bear it all alone"

I hugged Silvi with a trembling state, I felt pain, I would not be ready to leave her.

"i also hid it from you on purpose, I'm afraid you're near me because you just feel sorry, but it seems like you really love me Ura, thank you"

The waves outside, they felt so hard, they hit my weak soul, I would be washed away and carried away by the calm of the sea, but I survived, even though the wounds were wrapped in my body, I would still survive

"So Ura, let's do it, as my gift to you who has loved me wholeheartedly, and this is also my first time, so please do it gently, so that I can die peacefully"

She started to undress, hugged me then, she smiled while crying