Amnesiacs

Tortured Ego

I don't know what he's hiding, is it important? then why don't I have the right to know? why is he so agitated?, cold sweat running from my body, only warm hugs of his that keep me alive today.

I had actually changed, and Silvi was the one who changed me, I was actually afraid to fall in love. rather I was afraid of being let down. I had been friends with loneliness for a long time, but after meeting her, I was afraid of being let down, I'm so afraid of loneliness, time flies, but may you remain mine.

I was silent in the room, since that incident, Silvi always came to my room, she did not change, like nothing happened, but if she knew, my sense of her did not change.

afternoon towards dusk, in my room. I tried to hug Silvi from behind, she was looking in the mirror.she said something to me

"You have always been like this, like this room that never changes, even though the years go by, old cabinets and wall clocks are always in the same position, he said, so is this mirror that I use, to look back at my sin, just a calendar that changes, you tear it every day, in every tear there is a new story, first when you come home, then, I'm always looking forward to tomorrow, hoping for you and other interesting stories, time goes by, now you're still tearing up the calendar, and I still hope tomorrow comes soon, with an interesting story of yourself every day"

then I saw the glass, there was a clear, red hue from his face, emanated sadness and regret, he grumbled a lot of things, a lot of holes from his heart that I did not know, he said, right now I can only hug her, but I can't warm her heart.

"I'm sorry, I accused you of something weird yesterday"

"What's wrong, I get it, Ura don't think about it anymore, I'm sorry, there's something you can't know, but if you ask my heart, it's yours alone"

The two were in a storm of jealousy, sweat soaked the two, mixed with a lot of suspicion, they forgave each other.

but after that there is space between us, space that stretches, triggered by guilt, and the ego becomes the pole.

and if I recall, he said once, that separation is a certainty, there's something you're locked in so tight, I actually want to break it, but the dagger inside is ready to blow my heart.

it didn't feel like a week like this, together but there were no words, silent and silent, I tried to step on my ego, and I said something to him.

"Silvi, don't you feel this is so annoying? we're together without any words coming up, no tones getting together?"

"I'm sorry, I don't know what to do, you're silent, I'd rather you be angry, because if you're angry only my heart is hurt, but right now you're silent, negating my existence, you know, you're angry, my soul is so tormented, and I can't think clearly, maybe let the tears describe it, and don't you see I suffer so much, because of my love for you, so trust me, I'm yours, you know, I put everything, even my soul to you"

"Now prove it, that I may believe it"

"You come with me now!, prepare your heart"

During the journey, I was just busy cursing myself, a lot of regret from this sinful mouth, this time getting heavier, just staring at her I couldn't afford.

but when Silvi's house came into her room, falling down with tears I didn't want to stop, how could I doubt someone like her, there was clearly my photos, from various angles, this is crazy, everything is there, as small as I am until now, and one big photo when I and Silvi embrace.

"Crazy, you're so crazy Silvi"

"Do you still not believe that I'm crazy about you"

I hugged Silvi, I kissed her sweet lips, I stroked her hair, that day all the flavors were united in the sweat that soaked my body.