Amnesiacs

What If He's Still Alive ?

My second novel is finished, I've given it to the editor. Everything I think is okay.just wait for the time to publish.

"You have a characteristic feature in writing, the feeling you want to convey is so sincere, as I feel it myself"

"Thank you sir for the compliment"

"This I try to rise as soon as possible, must be a best seller, if the story is like this I. continue to continue to son"

"Yes, thank you sir"

"Son, you have great talent, but writing is two souls, the first writing for money, the second writing for satisfaction.Your advantage is the delivery of taste to the reader, and the second writing for money, your weakness is in the selection of sentences"

It's nice to feel like I'm being praised like that, but if I recall the reason why I started writing, it's because Silvi asked for it, if only she saw this success of mine.

In the afternoon in a messy boarding house, Tya came to see me, she said she missed me, but every day we met

"I'm sorry I come here so often and bother you, I just always miss you" her face flushed red

"Well, I feel the same way"

Tya then hugged me, I liked her like this. Her reddened face was so cute.

"What do you want to eat ? Let me cook".

"Anything's okay, I'm hungry too"

Tya then rushed to the kitchen, and started cooking while I started studying for my thesis trial.

Tya's cooking is ripe, the smell is very fragrant, I have not eaten food cooked like this for a long time, usually I buy ready-to-eat food more often.

"It's delicious" I said, enjoying Tya's cooking

"Of course, I'm a good wife-to-be" she said spoiledly

"Yes, yes"

After eating, I went back to studying, but Tya invited me to a chat.

"What if I sleep here again? there's something I want to talk to you about" she looked so serious.

"uh, I'm gonna be busy preparing for my trial, don't you mind me ignoring you a little bit?" I said tease

"What's wrong, I just want to talk and accompany you" said Tya who climbed on my bed.

"Actually what do you want to talk about, after all you want to talk seriously like this?" started sitting next to him.

"Actually I was scared" her expression changed.His eyes were pale, her face was sweet.

"i'm afraid of losing you" she looked at me tearfully

"hahaha I'm not going, now I'm your girlfriend" I tried to shift her grief.

I started hugging Tya who was on the bed, her body was shaking, she was really scared, I tried to calm her down. In my arms she said.

"i believe you won't betray me, but what if Silvi comes back? are you going to leave me again"

his words felt so disturbing to me, right he said, am I going to go back to Silvi? or I'll stay with Tya, I can't think of her.

now the atmosphere feels so awkward.

"i don't know Tya, I can't answer that"

"so you wish he was still around?" her tears started to fall

"Of course, I couldn't have expected that"

"and you're gonna leave me?" She tried to hold me and started crying

"i don't know, but now I'm starting to love you"

"i just hope you don't regret something you don't have to regret"

"Thank you, I hope you understand"

"You're so good to be able to choose, whereas I have no choice, I can only wait, whether you'll choose me. But silence is painful" Tya actually cried, in my arms, in my arms, I couldn't ease her grief, and all I realized was that she was afraid I'd leave her.

Tya tried to hold back her crying, her eyes were so red, she tried to close her eyes, her mouth tried to hold back her crying, hopefully, this will make his heart a little calmer.

"I can't either, I can't choose to forget it, even though I tried a million times" I said honestly.

"The only one who can kill my feelings is you, so please be careful"

Tya came back crying, tears came down her face, from her eyes I understood the suffering she was feeling.

it felt a bit awkward, but I learned to tell the truth, because lies would only freeze the heart.

"Yes, I hope you stay with me, I was almost crazy about losing her, and now I don't want to lose you"

"She is indeed very precious to you huh" in her cry she smiled.she was really very frightened and suffering.

and I also feel like a loser, I can't choose if it happens. I could lie, but I'm afraid I'll make him hurt more the next day.