Amnesiacs

This Love Bridge Will Be Collapsed

Monday afternoon at the boarding house, as usual Tya came to see me.

"Nata, welcome to the fans I heard very successful" said Tya with a face so calm

"yes there are so many people who come, I can't believe my writing is accepted by so many people" I replied flatly

"yes because you put your emotions in there, and it's easy to understand"

"yes? I don't know it too much myself"

"Is there anything fun in there?"

"Of course, I met a lot of great writers, I talked and learned from them"

"It looks like a lot of fun"

"Yes very pleasant"

Tya was silent for a moment, it seemed like there was something she wanted to convey.

"do you still love me?"

"Sure, I love you"

"then why did I hear, you hugged a woman there"

"uh, yes" I feel so guilty

"Why did you do it, I got so jealous" she developed a funny cheek.

"sorry"

"Who is that girl? I'm very curious"

"Only someone who likes my work, I just feel like I know him"

"Do you really just feel that?"

"yes of course"

I tried to paint a lie, a lie that I thought was good, but it turns out the carcass is still a carcass, the rot will smell from anywhere.

"You're like hiding something Nata" Tya started to get curious

"No"

"Woman is Silvi right ?" his face was red, his eyes were teary

I was silent at Tya's words, what should I tell her.

Tya's tone started to high and she started to get angry.

the anger delivered by Tya was not disappointment, but his fear that had long been pensive, millions of times he tried to cover it but this anger explained all his worries.

"i don't understand"

"Come, just tell me, I just want to hear it from you, from your mouth"

"Yes, but now I love you Tya"

"But right, that woman is Silvi?"

Tears from his face came out, I saw the destruction of him, the anger he unleashed not for me but for himself, as if he could do nothing to hold me back. now crying was the only way to calm his completely frightened soul.

I really can't possibly let Tya go like this, I don't want to regret losing someone I love anymore, I also don't want Tya to experience the depression that I felt like I did when I lost Silvi.

"Well, she's Silvi, but she doesn't know me"

Tya was crying so hard, in my arms I felt it, the sound of broken hope was so loud, fear and anger.it was so clearly heard from that cry.

"Then why if she's Silvi, I'm your lover and she doesn't know me anymore"

"I must have lost you, because I was never in your heart"

His soul begins to be pessimistic, eaten up by fear, disappointment and he begins to try to destroy his own expectations.

one sentence in an instant, heart-shaking.

"Wherever you go, you can't run away from yourself, you can't lie to your feelings"

"If you knew that? why are you acting like it's okay for me to come back to her? I'm here, Nata your lover, no longer her lover, although I still remember the memories of her, but what helped me to this very second was you"

"time can force you to stop fighting, but deep down inside you, there's never been me, I'm really so scared, how about you leave me, I'm not ready"

I hugged her very tightly, her breathing was so heavy, her face also looked pale. I started to kiss her, yet she repeatedly rejected her, trying to keep dodging

"tell me exactly what you want, if you don't say it I won't be able to understand, I don't understand how you feel" said I who forced her to embrace, while she tried her hardest to let go of my embrace.

"That's it, this time let me go"

"I'm sorry I can't, I don't want to regret it twice, then it's time to convey each other's feelings stored in the chest"

It seems like I hear the sound of sad memories.Knowing reality is good or bad, it will be a relief rather than a drift of uncertainty.

both are in poor condition, the bridge that supports this story will soon collapse