You Are My Regret's

A statement of love through a story

Qiran was just silently pensively staring at the sky “what reality will the fox jay, what a, because from the past until now you are still there” muttered qiran tightly grasping the sun-shaped necklace that he always carries in his bag

After 12pm, the event was over and many guests were returning home

Qiran decided to change his casual clothes because the place where the party was held was one of the hotels he used to stay and happened to also the hotel belonged to his family so there were some clothes that were still there

Qiran has been wearing a suit as nerissa ningrum and does not forget to wear a mask and glasses thick as a complement to the identity of the author

“already at this hour, it looks like I have to forget my break” muttered qiran glanced at her smartwatch which has shown at 2 am. the time where it has passed her bedtime is 9 pm

usually the qiran will sleep on a Saturday night from 9pm until the next day at the same hour

Qiran did not decide to go home by car or call her best friend because she knew at this hour that her best friend was fighting in bed with her lover.  Qiran chose to walk home, even though the road from the hotel to her apartment was 6 km, if you think about how long it would take for her trip home? qiran wants to walk

qiran put her hand in her pocket in her big jacket, draped a bag of braids on her shoulder while walking leisurely “why today no bintang” muttered qiran raised her face up, look

the sky that does not appear any stars

quite far away in the sense of qiran walking he felt quite tired, Qiran decided to sit on the long bench of the city park, closed her eyes for a moment and recalled her meeting with Jay a moment ago

Qiran felt that there was movement next to her because the park bench slightly shook slowly making herself open her eyes wide and turned to the side to check on her “what are you here for? What is looking for

inspiration?” Tanya Jay who accidentally stopped at the city park because her encounter with the qiran made her heart unsettled

Qiran swallowed her saliva roughly looking at the jay there. people just crossed his mind and now it is in front of him “just want to breathe ” replied qiran rather nervously and immediately turned his face away from qiran

jay scrunched his forehead “is it if you sleep at home you can't breathe?” Tanya Jay makes the qiran attention back towards Jay

Qiran hurriedly returned to avoid jay's sight and stared straight ahead “emmm, how is it? Me too

don't know if my breathing is going to last long or not” reply qiran in an ambiguous tone

“why are you here?” Ask jay

“you yourself for what came here?” Ask qiran back

“cih” jay squealing back “his days even back Tanya” annoyed jay did not find qiran answer even got

question throw

“if you don't want to answer also no problem, anyway I don't want to answer your question” reply qiran flat

“I just met my first love” exclaimed jay poked her lips

“first love?” Qiran asked, looking towards Jay

“ya my first love. Maybe for him, he is not my first love because I used to be famous as a playboy” reply jay remember his memories of a long time ago when often diatribe playboy by his friends because so many women who pursue him first

“lalu” Ask qiran

“I think my feelings have disappeared since 4 years ago, but in fact it is still there” reply jay chuckled

Qiran chuckles “lalu why don't you go back to her if you feel like you still love her ?” Ask qiran

“i'm just a man who's not considered so where might I go back to him. I used to not be considered something alive especially now” jay reply to pour out what was in his pendam all this time

There was a sense of tightness in his chest as jay revealed his heart “have you ever asked him?” Qiran asked trying to neutralize her feelings

“not” reply jay

“then why do you think he thinks that way about you?” Ask qiran

Jay linking his eyebrows staring at the qiran with a question mark makes the qiran swallow salivanya rough “you are a top actor and quite famous so just wonder if there are women who do not like you” said qiran tries to distract Jay

“his parents who said that I was just a real man in his life” said jay with a sad face

Qiran nodded “maybe it's true” reply qiran remembered past events

Jay stared intently at qiran “so you think? I'm really benalu?” Jay asked with a grouchy look

“I didn't say like that”reply qiran flat

in the heart of course the qiran does not consider jay a benalu, it's just his family's assumption about Jay who used to live always got the help of qiran but in the heart of qiran is always happy when helping jay in the past “kan you who think like that, so I just follow your assumption” reply qiran

“ih ngeselin” exciting jay

Qiran raised the corner of her lips smiling with a jay behavior that jay did not realize because the qiran was wearing a mask and a head covering from the jacket she was wearing

“then you yourself haven't answered why you're here at this hour ?” Ask jay

Qiran turned to jay “same as you, I met my ex-lover first, I, and I end up here now” qiran shook her head wanting to rectify her words “not the former but the only lover I have and the one I love in my life” added qiran

“you still love her or she still loves you and you want to go back to her ?” Ask jay

Qiran smiled “ I of course still love her because she is the only person I will love in my life but maybe she thinks I don't love her,and also I don't know how to say love to him ” qiran put her shoulder “so I don't know” reply qiran floating

“what is that person you always remember when you wrote a play for me?” Jay's question confirmed the feeling he had felt all along while reading the qiran script

“ya” reply qiran raised her face to the sky “even I made a special script to express how my love for her” reply qiran

“ya already, give me the script. I'll make it as good as possible for that person to know that you love him” reply jay spirit with the words qiran

“I can't” reply qiran

Jay links his two eyebrows “why?” Ask jay

“there's the end when I say I love her, but I can't write it” reply qiran smiled wryly

“why?” Tanya Jay doesn't understand why the qiran can't write it, it's just a

jay's thought writing

“i'm too afraid to hurt her heart. I hurt him a lot. I was afraid that just one sentence I said could tear down his defense all this time” replied qiran staring blankly ahead

Jay tries to permeate every utterance qiran “turns out you love her so much?”Ask jay

qiran turned to Jay “does you love that woman too” replied qiran again asking

Both of them both nod their heads assuring that they still love the same person who is in their hearts “iya I love him so much, so too scared with him” said jay and qiran simultaneously

Qiran and Jay looked at each other and chuckled because of their similar words and the same tempo

'it's funny that our minds are the same" Jay tweeted

"yes very funny" said qiran

“where's home? Let me take you home” bargain jay glanced towards Qiran

“no need, my house is near” reply qiran do not want her place of residence known to Jay

“you live in the apartment area” Tanya jay glanced at the area around her

“ya” reply qiran nodded

“can I play, occasionally?” Ask jay

“not” reply qiran with great confidence

“why?” Jay's question found the qiran's answer direct and without any doubt at all

“I don't like anyone setting foot in my house other than my best friend” reply honest qiran

“oke then” jay departs from his seat “aku go home first, because it must shoot at 7 am later” pampit jay

Qiran nods “ya” reply qiran flat

Qiran looked at Jay's back that was getting away “why when I was like this you didn't recognize me” kekeh qiran laughed to find jay who was unaware that he was Qiran, nerissa ningrum and Qiran naditya lavanya are the same person

Qiran turned her head to look at the still dark sky “it seems I have to go to the office later” muttered qiran stretching her muscles that feel stiff and tired