You Are My Regret's

I love you Qiran

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Qiran and Jay were driving together to the apartment in Jay

jay glances at a glance qiran who is looking at her car window “you really want to my apartment?” Ask jay

“iya, again lazy at home” reply qiran

“why?” Ask jay

“gak papa, again want to spend the same time with you, tomorrow my time will definitely be wasted following the strange tara-weird” said qiran

Jay chuckles “you're rich don't know our best friend's abstract behavior” jay says

“just because I know, so lazy to take care of him” complained qiran

“how lecture? Ask jay

“got know, again lazy ngurusinya” reply qiran pinched her lips

“you why the hell is qiran? seems a bit lazy college” Tanya jay

“daddy told me to go straight back to Korea when I finished my education. I was already at home in

here” said qiran with a lethargic tone

Jay rubbed the head of the soft qiran “they only had you children they were the only ones they had so it was natural that they wanted you to go home quickly. It has been almost five years you are far from them” jay said

“aku has wanted 22 years loh jay, but still considered like a child. they always make a decision for me” upset qiran

“kan you are still a child” kekeh jay mocked qiran

“aku small children who can already make small children?” said qiran with a ruffled waist staring at jay

Jay coughed with a speech qiran “do not origin talking qiran” pinta jay with a soft voice

“mau evidences” challenge qiran

“qiran..” say jay with a compassionate look

Qiran sat with her hands against the car window

“you don't know how desperately I'm holding this qiran, 5 years I'm entangled by you and can't get out of the vortex of unrequited love. so lest I lose control over myself” the inner jay raged withstanding the pounding on his chest that he held himself for so many years

Dating with qiran is certainly a burden for jay, jay certainly knows the condition while the condition

what kind of qiran. Jay was from the lower classes while the qiran was born with a silver spoon in her hand

Not that he did not know that the old man of the qiran hated him with regard to the qiran but he tried to hold it strong

energy to stay with qiran even though the end of her love story can be guessed with certainty

Sounds cliche maybe the story of him and qiran. He was very sure of loving qiran and giving up the whole

his life was for that woman but he never asked how qiran felt. Not because he was afraid to face the qiran family who came from the upper class who would obviously reject him outright because only an orphan and only capitalize on scholarships to pursue education, he said, but more to him who is so afraid if the reality that he will hear later.

Jay won't be able to hear the thing he's been most afraid of all this time . He was afraid that the qiran did not love him and was afraid when he said love, the qiran would stay away from him so jay decided to walk like this anyway everyone knew that qiran was his lover

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qiran approached the jay who was sitting on the sofa of her apartment living room “jay” call qiran

“emmm” jay who is busy with his laptop just answer like that without looking at qiran

“aku stay ya” pinta qiran

Jay immediately turned his head towards qiran “nanti uncle ask you why not go home, I have to answer if” reply jay

jay sighs long “it's up to you just” reply jay

Qiran laid her body on the sofa and made jay's lap as a pillow “jay” called qiran in a soft tone, her gaze pointing to the unlit television

“hmmmm” reply jay who keep busy with his laptop

“what better we break up” Ask qiran can not look jay in the eye

“deg deg” jay heart seems to stop beating his hands as if stiff he can not move his mouth

it was as if I could not speak

“I know you don't love me, so we'd better break up lest this relationship get in the way of your story

together with other women” qiran looked up so that she could look at Jay who had just been silent

“tes” qiran rubbed her wet cheeks

Not her tears that fall but the water that falls from the corner of the eyes jay “jay you cry” Tanya qiran realizes the water is not coming from her body

Jay hurriedly rubbed his cheek “ah no, I just glimpsed it” sangkal jay

Qiran gets up and sits staring at jay “don't lie I jay” Tanya qiran wants to observe jay's face make sure what jay says

“not” jay avoids qiran by going into his room

Qiran who was worried about jay rushed after him “jay” qiran approached the jay who was standing behind him

with a slow movement

“jay, you why?” qiran grabs Jay's arm trying to flip Jay's body to face him but she doesn't want to

turn around

“ayo by jay. Did I have a wrong talk” asked qiran

Jay turned his head up trying hard to hold back his tears “you want to break up from me” Tanya Jay without turning to qiran with a soft voice, so soft but still able to catch the sense of hearing

qiran is pretty sharp

Qiran bowed her face “toh, we do not love each other jay, we just never expressed love or just asked for a willingness to date so there is no harm in ending the relationship without this foundation" said qiran

Jay grabs the arm qiran “do you think I don't love you?” Ask jay

Hearing jay's question at that moment qiran raised her face looking straight at jay “do you not just love me as a friend” reply qiran

Actually in his heart qiran knows what jay feels, of course, qiran knows how jay loves him but he tries to deny all feelings jay, jay, jay cannot promise anything or just return jay's love

“you think why I reject all women who want to be close to me?” Ask jay

“because you want to be serious with your lecture and do not want to be disturbed” reply qiran with confidence

"maybe that's one of the reasons but I have another reason why you keep quiet when you tell everyone

my man is your lover when we never agreed to date” explained jay

Qiran squinted her eyes at jay “what do you mean?” qiran wondered what Jay meant even though in her little heart she could guess what was in Jay's mind at the time

Jay sighed long “that's all because I love you qiran” jay said with a tone of emphasis on

every word

qiran just silently stared at the statement of love from Jay, someone who has been her lover for four years