You Are My Regret's

Light of my eyes (my haesbich)

For your my haesbich (for you my sunshine)

I miss you

Regretting that it was too late to realize that I love you so much

I held a pen, scraping a row of regretful words for you

I would love to express my love for you

As deep as my heart misses you, until I can't tell you how deep it is because I can't measure it

I know this word will never reach you, and it will only be a story.

A story that will have no end in its story

But at least this can be my memory, the healing of my heart's wounds and the proof of my true love for you and will not be able to reach you

Dear... Dear…

I still love you and miss you, I made you the love of my life even though you didn't know it, didn't know that I loved you so much

Actually I could have just looked for you and said

“i love you so much and come back to me, love myself again like I used to”

but I know this word won't change anything that happened in the past. I'll just add to your wounds, again, again and again.

So I want to pour out my love for you only in my fantasies

Fantasy through a story

Your dream (my “haesbich”)

“akkhhh” a woman stretches her muscles after typing a few words in a square-shaped screen before her

“what are you doing?” Asked a woman with glasses from behind the back of the woman who was typing on the iron screen

“ah, Lensi surprised me just” said Qiran rubbed his chest that was shocked due to the arrival of his best friend named Lensi

Waistline traceability “Qiran Naditya Lavanya!” yells lensi loud

“apa?” Qiran asked back typing on the keyboard of her laptop

he did not care at all about the screams of his best friend who was so ear-shrinking

lensi scanned the 4x4 m qiran workspace with dim lighting, there are so many papers and sleeping pillows “do you not get bored just being in this room?” Ask lensi qiran's best friend since 4 years ago

Lensi sighed to see his best friend “try to see the world of qiran, do not just be in the world of your imagination alone” pinta lensi with a soft voice

Qiran turned her head towards the lensi and chuckled “what the heck is lensi? I'm working on a script for drama” reply qiran shook his head but still busy his hands on his keyboard board

“iya I know it qiran if you make great dramas here even the best seller novels are made here, but you have locked yourself here for 4 years and just in front of your laptop that” reply lensi annoyed with qiran who is only busy with the world of writing only

qiran again chuckles “ya. I leave for work at 9 and come home at 9, so I didn't spend 4 years here” qiran started counting with her finger about the length of time she spent writing in her study

“ because I work 4 years in the next month, cut the Sunday I did not to the office I spent here about 15,312 hours. It should be one year about 8760 hours, so I spent my time in this place about 1.74 years” said qiran counting with her hands so fast

“means 2 years has not even lensi” added qiran smiled answering the question lens at will

Lensi shook his head in disbelief, his mouth gaping wide to find Qiran's answer that made him unable to refute, because the qiran to calculate the time spent by qiran per second, which is why, minutes and hours “actually what are you after qiran? all your writing for 4 years is best seller, and royalty

your writing is very enough for you to have fun out there without working 1 year was not a problem for you” said lensi reminded the results of hard work Qiran for 4 years which certainly amounted to not a few

“what am I chasing?” Tanya qiran seemed to think “ I want her to know I still love her” said qiran staring at her laptop screen

“jeez qiran, who do you love? Just come and tell her you still love her. A woman as good and beautiful as you is not likely she will reject you” lensi reply who does not know who is the man who is loved by qiran because qiran only says his feelings but never mentions who is the person who is meant by qiran

“already ah, don't bother me writing” remove qiran on lensi to get out of qiran's private workspace

Qiran looked back at her laptop screen after expelling Lensi from her presence “and as easy as you said” qiran chuckled at the person she meant “to write my heart to her alone was difficult, just stalled on my heart's outpouring. I can only say “ how are you, are you good? could not be more than this” muttered qiran cupped her face with both hands and cried softly remembering her love story that did not run smoothly.

His first painful love for Qiran

Qiran Naditya Lavanya is a Pakistani and Javanese girl. He lives in Indonesia alone because his parents who live in Korea take care of his business there

because the family's main office is in Korea and even qiran was born in the country of ginseng.

Qiran is an S2 graduate with an MBA from one of the UK campuses at the age of 23 at the time

Actually his parents want qiran to continue his family business because qiran is an only child and has no close relatives But for whatever reason, qiran lives in Indonesia after

completed his S2 education. And since this has been going on for 4 years, qiran is now 28 years old.

Qiran works as a novel and drama writer who is quite well known in his field, he also has several companies engaged in entertainment even though he does not handle it himself directly, he has people of trust to take care of his business

Qiran, who seems to close himself and always hide from people, even his biological parents do not allow to come to the qiran office, in fact, the company Shadows Dreams is a company that he built with his own sweat, although he always closed his identity as an owner

the company with the help of his best friend Kennedy Aerospace, commonly called tara.

Everyone thinks tara is the owner of the company because he is the one who always appears in public as a representative of the company

though from behind his closure in building his business empire, he devoted it to helping someone he valued the most and cared about the most in this world.his first love and only love for years