You Are My Regret's

Want to always be together

Zahira sat in front of the TV while looking at the Wall clock "surely Mas Reagen has been Leanding" Zahira muttered

"hiks hyks hyks" Zahira slapped her face, hiding behind her knees crying as she realized the Reagents must have flown back to her home country

this morning he did try hard when releasing the departure of Reagen even with a long release drama

the hug was originally long enough, but it lasted for an hour because the two seemed difficult to let go of each other but no one tried to hold back because they realized they were nobody and there was no right

whether it is too comfortable or maybe there is a sense of more between the two. I don't know, no one has realized it yet but clearly they feel lost to each other.

"i must have missed the mas" murmured Zahira feeling so sad to let the Reagen go

Zahira was already comfortable with the presence of Reagents around him but he had to lose that moment so quickly

not much different from what Zahira feels, the sense of loss is also felt by the Reagents at this time

Reagents see the clouds that are nearby "just parted with you for a moment why.have been so longed it feels "the murmur Reagen imagined a cloud clump near him shaped Zahira's face in his eyes

"why should I tell you to go home soon" upset Reagents who must be forced back to the main house by Daddy thomas but of course Reagents can not do much because Daddy Thomas is still his parents who he can not deny his orders

while living far apart in different countries, Zahira and Reagen always routinely communicate just asking for news and telling stories about their daily lives through long distance calls or video calls

If there is free time even if only two days, Reagen always took the time to fly to Indonesia, meet with Zahira and invite her to walk together and chat together

even when Reagents came he chose not to tell mommy brianna at all because he did not want a short visit time to be shared with others even though it was his own parents

and it kept going until the last year made them closer and more comfortable together

"you've not enrolled in college yet" asked Reagen during a visit to his apartment in Zahira

"yet mas, still confused about the list of where" replied Zahira who was busy eating snacks while sleeping on the lap of the Reagen

"when are you testing" asked Reagen to Zahira, who is now in third grade and will soon arrive at the end of high school

"next month begins the test" Zahira replied

"study in England only if so" proposed Reagen

"it can't be if in England, Zahira will have to take care of Zahira's cake shop " Zahira now runs a small cake shop that is used as a source of income for forcing himself to return to the home of Zahira's biological father to close all financial roads from the late mother on the grounds that Zahira is still down age and not allowed to access his inheritance without the assistance of his guardian

"mas who pay deh college, later the store here is handed over to the employees only" bargained Reagen again

"can't do dong mas, the store is only six months Zahira manage, can't play as long as it lives" said Zahira who did not want to leave his responsibility

"but if you live there, it's a good mas, it doesn't have to be a steal every time you come here" Reagen said, expressing his wish that he always wanted to meet Zahira easily

Zahira only chuckles at Reagen's "funny face anyway" Zahira pinches Reagen's squashy cheek

"not funny" upset Reagen whining like a kid

zahira and Reagen are very close, maybe so close like a lover or even like a married couple, the difference is that they only sleep in separate rooms and never make more physical contact than holding hands

the word love is never thrown from the lips of both but body language can certainly answer that Zahira is so meaningful in the life of Reagents and vice versa

"maybe, I also want to tell you the progress of memorization of a short letter mas to you" replied Reagent who had begun to increase memorization

during this year Reagen always learned to teach Zahira from a distance shortly after the Reagen was so amazed at the sound of Zahira who won his heart when he was tired when working in England

"you want to teach mas teaching, the rich sound of teaching you is so beautiful and very soothing" asked Reagen about Zahira's willingness to teach him to teach

"wouldn't want to convert" asked Zahira

"no, just want to try it, maybe" replied Reagents

Zahira smiled knot "of course it can, Zahira will gladly teach mas" Zahira replied

and since then Reagen learned to teach with Zahira through long distances sometimes through video calls from mobile phones or through laptops, but when meeting then Zahira will teach Reagen directly with so patience

after performing his Maghrib prayer Zahira began teaching the Reagents to teach and examine the law of his short reading so patiently. Lucky as a child, Zahira's biological mother gave enough religious supplies by bringing teachers njai to the house and often invite Zahira to teach outside so Zahira teaching reading is good enough even though it may not be so perfect

"wah. mas has developed quite a lot" said Zahira who was amazed at the Reagents reading that was much better than two months ago when they met last time

"yes, it just so happened that there was a gold officer from Arabia and ngajarin mas najai so reading mas so better a little" Reagen replied

"mas also learned to pray" Reagen added, noting the development of his learning which is now increasing around Zahira religious worship

"mas wants to convert to Islam" asked Zahira

the reagent was silent for a moment "I don't know Zahira, mas hasn't confirmed it "reagent reply honestly

Zahira paused for a moment "does she not want to marry me huh" Zahira's inner self

Zahira often told Reagents that she would only marry the person she believed in and wanted her husband to be her prayer priest until death to pick her up

in her heart she wanted the Reagen to be her husband and priest but Zahira could not have forced the Reagents to convert while they had no relationship whatsoever

"yes already if that Zahira enter. the room first yes mas, want to learn.anything mas will leave early so need to rest early" said Zahira moved from his seat to his room

"iya Zahira, sleep well yes "reagent reply

"iya mas" replied Zahira

looking at Zahira who had entered his room, reagent tidied up the book he had used with Zahira and then immediately entered his room to rest because it is true Zahira said that he had to rest early for his flight tomorrow morning

***

early in the morning Zahira came out of the room and had not found the existence of the Reagent "had he left" Zahira remembered that the Reagen said the flight was five in the morning, of course Reagents must go to the airport early so as not to miss the plane

Zahira saw the memo paper on the table lounge "gold go home first yes, sorry do not wake you first make pity pity if you wake up too early. Later will be a phone call when it arrives in the UK, take care and always healthy yes" a message written on the memo paper that is clear from the reagent

"pity is also when he saw him back and forth here yes" Gumam Zahira felt unbearable actually on the Reagents who had to go back and forth often England - Indonesia but want how again, and again, sometimes they miss when they don't meet

"did I go to college in England" Zahira murmured

"no no "Zahira shook his head quickly "may be added to my dependence later, I'm the same mas reagent can not be together" muttered Zahira realized his differences and reagents that could not be ignored just like that