You Are My Regret's

Don't love me

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Jay's love statement that so suddenly made the silent qiran sculpt, Things that for several years have never been thrown from the mouth of both “ I love you” jay with a soft voice

Qiran's eyes began to condense, staring at jay with a difficult gaze at the meaning of "i love you so much Qiran” jay slightly shook qiran's arms so that qiran could respond to her expression of love

qiran looked up, looked at jay with trembling lips “don't love me jay” a sentence out of tiny lips qiran made jay squint his eyes and look at qiran wonder

“don't love me” reset qiran

the rate of tears qiran can no longer hold so free fall just like that “why?” Ask Jay with lips that shake

qiran bowed her head closed her eyes “because I do not love you” reply qiran made jay's heart so devastated, shattered already hope for the sake of hope embedded in these years, the, although Jay knew very well there would be an end like this and maybe only this is the end

Jay silently bowed his head, digesting every word qiran “ I know you don't love me” with a heavy heart Jay said it all, even with a choked voice

Jay looks up, stares at qiran with an iris face “but at least let us in this relationship until I

able to release you” pinta jay by throwing his self-esteem so far. his ego is a little bigger this time.this time jay wants to enjoy the relationship he dreamed of even for a moment

the clear liquid was increasingly falling from the corner of qiran's eyes. qiran hugged tightly jay hide his face in the chest of Jay's field “maaf jay” cried qiran broke in a warm embrace of jay

jay hugged the qiran tightly, as if he did not want to let go at all "forgive me who always

doing whatever I want, I should not just say, and this makes you have hope about me” great-grandson qiran is so sorry for the original speech that made the relationship between qiran and Jay intertwined

Jay further tightened his embrace “kau and tara same my best friend” said qiran

Jay just kept quiet did not answer only the roar of tears that continue to flow from the corner of his eyes “don't love me jay” pinta qiran with sobs

“hmmmm” jay just replied briefly qiran's request is clear that jay is lying

if it were easy to forget the qiran, jay would have been in a relationship with another woman. so many beautiful women who approach jay but none of which makes him interested beyond the taste of qiran when the relationship jay and qiran just like a close friend

Jay is still hugging tightly qiran “how can I not love you qiran, I've tried to throw away this feeling, I've tried to throw away this feeling, I have repeatedly reminded myself not to fall for someone who doesn't love me but I can't, I love you more every day ” inner jay continues to shout channeling all the feelings in his heart

qiran began to wipe away the tears that fell after a long time sobbing, qiran broke her arms slowly "i'll go rest jay, I'm tired" qiran tried to get up from her seat

jay held qiran's hand "just sleep here, after all we usually sleep next to each other" said jay

"jay.." qiran stared blankly at jay.

how can qiran sleep next to jay like his bias after knowing how jay feels to him that has been stored for years

qiran and Jay have been used to sleeping together since they dated but no more activities have happened just to sleep together, qiran who initially accidentally overslept beside the jay at that time began to feel comfortable sleeping next to the jay so when the qiran stayed in the apartment they always slept together either in the jay room or in the guest room

"alright" the qiran went up to the bed followed by the jay who went up on the bed

qiran laid her body on the right end while Jay was on the left "are you sure you want to sleep like that" asked Jay glanced at qiran

"ha" qiran gawked at Jay's question

"i won't do anything rude to you, qiran" jay shifted slightly to the right and pulled the body of the qiran closer to her, he brought the head of the qiran to the chest of his field by making his hand a pillow for the qiran

"we're just going to sleep hugging as usual" said Jay

"alright" qiran wrapped her hands around Jay's waist and tried to fall asleep

"good night" jay peeked the qiran's forehead inside

"hemmm" qiran only answered briefly and so quickly fell asleep

sleeping by smelling the masculine aroma of jay that so calms him

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Sunlight sniffed behind the curtain gap where it began to stab jay's eyes made Jay's eyes forced to open his eyes slowly and the first sight to be greeted was the beautiful face of his lover, who was his lover, lovers who may only be limited to status and in fact they have an invisible barrier wall and are so difficult to penetrate

Jay raised his hand, raised the hairdresser who covered the pretty face qiran “what can you not love me inner qiran” jay always ask for supplication and question about how his relationship with qiran  "can a little bit of myself fill the gap in your heart" Jay still looked at the sleeping qiran's face beside her, sleeping in her arms

“only you can fill the space in my heart, no one else can fill it qiran” jay heart said

with a heart language without being able to get out of his lips

Jay advanced his face peeping at the old qiran's forehead and carrying the qiran in his arms. Qiran who was not disturbed at all sleep due to the act of jay even just back hugged tightly jay and sleep with the chest of the field of jay

“I love you, my haesbich” jay said in a soft, inaudible voice in the hearing senses of the qiran

"you are my sun, the light of my life" jay's mind still hugged the qiran tightly

jay loved the qiran so much but they kept slapping him so many times that he soon realized from his long beautiful dream "can I hope not as an orphanage boy" jay cried in silence "just this time I wanted to curse the old man who dumped me, if I hadn't been thrown away, if only I had accidentally gone missing and my parents were trying to find me and they came from the upper class like you, I would have forgotten my frustration that my parents had never been with since childhood. I want to be with you qiran, want you to be my life partner and the mother of my children" jay inner monologue

jay felt so unfair about his life, not that he wanted to be rich, just that he was so sad about his circumstances that made it so difficult for him to be with the people he loved