Special Journey

Episode 9

I lost almost 1 year of quality sleep.

Not to change it with this morning, even last night being the worst sleep of my life.

it was the darkest night of my life.

Bismillah... I took a breath so deep. I close my eyes, I ask for the power of the all-powerful substance.

From today I am determined to be stronger.

My priority right now is Kia.

"Subhanallah... My God, my mother's son is so beautiful." I dress Kia Muslimah shirt with a little long veil perfectly covers her small body.

I am determined to noblely teach Kia the science of religion and religious values from this day forward.

I want her to grow up to be a Muslim woman full of faith.

I have been busy beautifying the look of Kia, I forget that I have to instill noble character as early as possible. I want Kia to live with noble character and know God better.

"Gee... Kia likes mom!" Kia turned her body while looking at the large mirror in front of her. She was very happy to see her beautiful figure behind the mirror.

"Alhamdulillah... Noble today, Kia must always wear a veil yes, let Kia be more beautiful and dear to God, and if God loves, everyone will love Kia too."

I looked at her cheeks while smiling.

"That means, Abi will love Kia again y mom?" my smile spontaneously faded.

Why is there any more pain in this heart?

I cannot accept Haikal's actions to me even more so to Kia, how cruel Haikal's attitude to his children.

This is what I'm afraid of.

What answer will I give when Kia asks a lot about her Abi.

I'm weak when I'm in front of Kia." hmmm of course, baby, but Kia don't forget to pray that Abi always love Kia, yes we've left!" I'm leading the way.

"Where are we going, mother?" Kia followed my hand pull.

"We'll see Aunt Valen, aunt Ana and aunt Nada later, we'll go to the hospital first, okay!"

I decided to use the taxi service, of course I will not touch the red car in front of my house, disgusted when imagining their sins there. What's more... Haikal won't let me touch him.

"Said Mom, you can't go to the hospital with a lot of the virus, why are we in the hospital now?" ask Kia.

I smiled back and got into the taxi that was in front of me that I had ordered online.

"Now it's not for working moms, anyways we just play in aunt Valent's room, no sick people." I clearly.

**

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"Sister, can I come in?" I asked permission by letting a little bit of my head into Valen's private room.

Even though I made an agreement with him, I still really appreciate his privacy.

He does have his own room because he is indeed a head of the room in the hospital's icu room, of course, needs room to store all his files and work reports.

"Ehh Afiifa! enter Fah, let's get it done for a second." Valen immediately removed the red and yellow map from the top of his desk.

"What's the matter Fah? Like it's so important that you should come to my room, you'll still have a rest permit today." Valen's brother approached me.

"I want a consultation, sis, if I rise now how is y sis? the contract is still one month away." I started to say I was hesitant.

"Hm!" valen began to think.

"When are you going to start stopping?" brother Valen broke the silence.

"Today brother, I plan to go home to my parents in two days" I replied.

"Why so sudden Fah?" obviously, Valen was surprised.

"Later I'll tell you the story at my house, brother, but can I not decide my counter work now?" I noble feel desperate.

"There really can't be Fah, whatever your reason, you will still have to pay a penalty" Valen said by putting his hands together.

Actually I know with this rule, if you stop before the work contract is completed I have to pay penalty, the meaning of the change money is two times more than the wages I receive each month.

"Papa brother I pay, but what about your service schedule? You must be troubled by the lack of members."

yes it is... I continue also not possible, I have promised to leave after three days with Mas Haimal.

"You're here to tell me about this, huh?" ask brother Valen. And ignored my question.

I nodded. "huh... We just go to your house, I've permission to go out, anyways Ana and Nada are also ready to tewe to your house." invite Valen who has stood up.

I'm still in place.

"Ayokk... Later we discuss at home, you do not have to worry too much, there must be a way out, later we shering in your house, you bring a car here?" brother Valen came out of the room and was certainly followed by me.

"Sister, Kia and I are in a taxi" I replied with a little sleigh.

"Ohhh...!geez! Kia is so pretty." Valen's sister cooed Kia's cheeks.

"Yes donk aunty... Kia likes this Muslim dress aunty." replied Kia enthusiastically, looking very happy look on her face.

How happy to be small as a kia.

"We'll pick up Ana and Nada first, yes" Valen's car came out of the hospital parking lot.

***

"Who's in your house with Haikal, Fah? " ask sister Ana after the car we drive reaches my house.

Obviously I'm surprised, why hasn't Haikal left yet? How they reacted after seeing Haikal with other women.

"Wait brother!" I held them down as I was about to get off.

"Why, Fah? You scared? No papa Fah, there we are, we must take care of you." asked Brother Nada who sat beside me.

"That's not it brother... But."

Krekka...

Not finished my words. Mas Haikal came out with Felli, of course with Felli's spoiled gelayut on Haimal's mas arm.

Their eyes were wide open, as if they could not believe what they were seeing.

They saw me at the same time.

"Afiifa, did they stay at your house last night?" brother Nada could not bear to ask. I'm nodding.

"They slept together?" keep brother Ana. I go back to nod.

"God... My emotions. It's like they don't have their brains right."

if you have emotions, brother Valent is very horrified, he is also a descendant of batak. But he was very kind to his friends.

They started to get emotional, and it was clearly anger on their faces.

"That's the woman we met at the diner, right, Fah?" Kak tada asked with a frown on his forehead.

I nod again, "stttt calm down brother, don't get angry, don't go down first let them go first, later I explain, I don't want Kia to meet her Abi and make Kia sad again."

I try to keep them calm.

They started to calm down while watching Haim and Felli's car leave our house.

Astagfirullah...

Why is it still hurting her pain?

I can't imagine what happened between them last night.

I can't forget the sound of******** their friendly sounding like lightning in my ears.

God is strong in this heart.

"Afiifa!" sister Nada shook my body a little so hard that it blew my mind about their beautiful night.

"Ehh i... Yes brother." my voice stammered.

"Afiifa...!" sister Ana's face was impatient for an explanation.

"okay... We go down first, save your questions, I'll explain later." I immediately cut off Ana's words, I know they can't wait to hunt me down with their questions.

This time I let Kia play SmartPhone, but of course it's still under my control, let her focus on her disorder and not hear what I and these horrible women say when they're angry.

I can already make sure the current atmosphere will be tense after hearing my explanation.

"APAAA?" they were shocked at the same time.

"So last night they really wanted to be here?" ask brother Nada.

"They slept together?" keep Ana again.

"You...! You're not crazy, are you, Fah? Why don't you just kill that bastard, aisss son of a bitch that's the time he is." brother Valen emotionless unconscious accent distinctive stone out.

Just remember I smile. What makes me smile at a time like this.

"Stttt.. I'm here to ask for your help to clean up my stuff not to kill people." I said.

"Great you, Fah, Fah,

"Great... It's great that you can rest easy to see your husband sleeping with another woman." Valen gave me two thumbs in front of my face.

I smiled back bitterly.

"Sister... Obviously I'm sick, obviously I'm angry, I'm angry no matter how much I'm just a human being, however much I still have love for him, to the men I've been calling husbands for six years, but what right do I have to forbid them to do it all." I blew my breath.

"I'm just an outsider, I'm nobody in this house, I'm just hitchhiking, my status is no longer the mistress in this house, I'm just her ex-wife."

"APAAA?" they were even more shocked while staring at my own face.

"Ex-wife said you?" sister Ana is aware of my words.

"What do you mean, Fah? Are you divorced or are you still planning a divorce?" brother Nada needs a definite answer from me.

"Yes... I'm his ex-wife sister, I'm the woman who was just in my husband's thalak last night, now I'm a widow." Ahh somehow heavy sense said the word talaq and a widow?

Suddenly the defenses of my heart began to collapse. "he has returned me to my parents, even Haikal has dropped two thalak on me sis."

My crying started to sound.

"Afiifa.." Ana's brother grabbed me. Hugging me gave me a little comfort and quiet.

"So this is your excuse to go home to your parents in two days, Fah?" now, Valen understands my reasons.

"You want to go back to Jambi, fmFah? Two more days? Why so suddenly Fah?" brother Nada let go of his embrace.

"What do I do, brother? Can't I still live in this house? I'm not allowed to Haikal in this house anymore, brother,

"I've asked permission to spend my iddah time here. But Haikal didn't give me permission, he asked me to go back to my parents' house immediately.

"somehow I wouldn't want to see their contempt in front of me, I'm afraid Kia knows what Abi did sister, no matter how I want Haikal to be a good father in his eyes."

Of course I'm still crying, even though it's starting to subside.

"Patience, Fah." elus nada's brother on my shoulder.

"Hmmm... But I'm still learning "my answer.

"We know it must be hard for you and kia fah, we can only pray for you and we are always happy fah "

" thank you sister "I hugged sister ana.

" maxih y sis, you guys have been willing to be my family while here, thanks also be the best friend for me. I hope we can meet again someday. "

I hugged them in exchange.

" you must be strong fah "sister Valen raised his arms and in the follow kak tada and kak ana.

" fighting "they're compact.

I replied with a smile and raised my hands like them.

" patience yes fah "kak ana still doubt that I can toughen up.

" yes, brother, yes God willing, I have no ah, I still have God, brother, it used to be God who gave love to my heart for haikal and now I am also sure the brother of God will help my heart to heal, believe my brother, I just need your prayer "

I looked at Anna's face with great confidence.

We hugged again, today I feel so teletubbies very very very often hug. Hehe...

Thank you to those who are always by my side.

"Help me clean up my stuff, brother."

I started to unload one by one the cupboard. "all this you want to take home to Jambi, fah?" valen was shocked to see how much my clothes were especially Kia's toys.

"The plan is not sis, I only bring two suitcases, one suitcase for Kia clothes, one big box for dolls and toys Kia" I explained to them.

"This is what I want to bring my brother" I noblely took out my bedroom wardrobe.

"And this one inshaAllah her plan wants me to love her sister." I pointed to the clothes in the closet again.

"Why don't you bring them all, fah? " ask sister Ana who is also noble.

"I'm going home on the bus, brother."

"Why fah? Didn't you say far, could it be two days' drive from Jakarta?" ask Ana again.

"I wasn't ready to get to my parents' house, brother, I was still thinking of how to explain my problems to them."

my sister and I talked while putting clothes one by one in a suitcase.

While sister Nada and sister Valen are Kia's toys.

"Just calm down Fah, explain when they ask, there will be no one who can understand you the most apart from your family Fah, maybe even without you explaining they can guess the time."

"Pray me, O God, brother."

Done is one problem, now I'll go to my in-laws' house.

I'll tell you what happened, but of course I can't tell you everything, I'll save you the haikal and felli problems last night.

Anyway I still want to keep a little of my ex-husband's good name.

And tomorrow morning I'll settle my contract at the hospital.

Even though Valen says it's okay at least I want to resign politely and ethically.

For the affairs of my service schedule, I am very grateful that my boss is my own best friend and obviously he does not complicate my affairs, because he also knows my current problems.

And I'm grateful they're all willing to help Valen, which means they're just helping me, because without their willingness to replace my service hours, it's impossible for the management to give me permission to leave before his time.

Thank you hasanuddin hospital has been met with good people nan sholeh.

Thank you doctors and seniors for sharing their knowledge with me.

Thank you to all the residents of this 2-storey green building has given me love and kindness as well as strife so that I increasingly have life experiences, especially in making friends.

I pamit...