Special Journey

Chapter 4

"Dear, I'm still in the hospital, I can't get you today, I don't feel good about you if you have to leave him alone."

It was very clear that I heard a conversation about Haikal that I didn't know who he was calling dear, I still closed my eyes,

I don't want to wake up and I hope all I hear is my hallucination or just a dream.

"OK okay... I close the phone first, I'll tell you again, see you baby." Then he took his call.

Now that I don't need an explanation anymore, I'm old enough to distinguish friends or more than just friends.

Tok...

"Excuse me.. Already awake madam? It's really good to sleep here? Are you the same as the hospital? To the point of having to sleep here?"

Suddenly Sherly came into the room, and I opened my eyes. He smiled at me.

"Ah you sher, want to replace brother here? I want to go home, I have no interest in sleeping here even though it feels like in a hotel room." I said back to teasing her.

Sherly is one of my colleagues, she also works as a nurse, different she is in the room vip Internai (especially for internal diseases).

Even though I was treated in a room that was super comfortable of course with special care also from my colleagues, still my room is the best and most comfortable place to rest, it's just that the house that used to feel like heaven has now changed, there is no more warmth in it.

"Don't go home first, brother, you must heal first" he advised, checking my blood pressure and making my bed.

"90/50, brother is less rest well? Must be less eating too, right?" he looked at me while hunting me down to hear his questions.

"I've been feeling dizzy this week, sometimes even without appetite, maybe because I'm tired" I replied, "Thank you."

" doctor Rita's brother has come as his kayak." He immediately tidied up the tools that had been used.he left me for sure to accompany the doctor rita visit.

Rita's doctor is an internal medicine specialist at this hospital, she's a senior doctor and we're all often upset if the work is long or something goes wrong, he's a super killer when speaking his voice is very smooth and that's the cause we most often in the form of not hearing what he said.

"You are it if I speak in the hear, his ears in pairs, how long have you been working here? If I visit don't talk much." that speech used to be on me, hehehe... That was when I was at work. I don't really understand the nature of each doctor here.

We as partners of doctors really have to understand the nature of the character and workings of each doctor here.

Tok...

"Ehh you turned out! why did he faint? Too tired, huh?" Suddenly doctor came in. With lips a little smile.

"If the work must know itself too, if it has started not fit, it must be enough rest."

He started babbling while opening both eyelids, of course he was checking my health.

I'm just smiling.

"What do you feel now?" He asked again, but this time he looked at me and smiled.

"Slight dizziness Doc, sometimes nausea, no appetite at all, and trouble sleeping." My answer.

"When did the moon come? Your HPHT." He asked me unexpectedly with one hand going into Jaz's pocket head.

Degs... Of course you're shocked.

HPHT stands for THE FIRST DAY OF MENSTRUATION. This is one method for calculating pregnancy.

"I think it's 1 week late doc," I forced myself to smile.

"I checked the urine." Doctor Rita hit me on the shoulder and left my room to die.

"Direct call the lab now and check the urine well."

I heard him give orders to his assistant, sherly and the nurse who accompanied him visit.

Hearing what the doctor said earlier as if he suspected that I was pregnant, I forgot that this month I was late.

"Pregnant? If her suspicions are correct, what should I do?"

I asked myself. I'm not ready yet.what's with my marriage getting worse.

Not long after the uswatun came and brought the tube where my urine, Uswatun was the laboratory officer of the hospital where I worked. When he finished, he returned to his room.

Waiting for the results to come out I was very anxious, I was afraid that Haikal would not accept my Hamannan.

"May the result be negative o Allah" My monologue exclaimed, rather, I was praying.

***

"Assynoltom... "

Tok tok.

"Lake in." I let her in.

"Ahh brother rara, why sister? " It turns out that sister Rara, she is also one of the nurses here, but she is a senior nurse, for us respect and respect for seniors is very important.

"You're alone, fah?" It throws a view in all directions.

"Yes brother... Haikal's coming home." I smiled

"No, I love medicine first." Just a nod in response. He also gave me an injection in my infusion hose.

"Oh yeah... Congratulations well, the results are positive, later you are proposed to Doctor Hadi, maybe discharged magrib he came here." Brother Rada told me the results of my urine that had been checked. Positively.

Hearing her words my body is getting weaker. I tried to hold the turmoil in my heart.

"Thank you for the information." I replied with a smile.

My tears began to flow profusely, I was not ready to accept this surprise of God.

If my relationship with my husband was okay, I would be very happy.

"Hopefully hearing this news your abi will be happy and change son." I spoke to my future fetus while rubbing my stomach still flat.

I try to calm my heart and mind. I kept praying in my heart that he would come back to me, Kia and our future son. But where he is. I picked up the phone and tried to contact him..

"What's wrong?" My call was connected, and he answered immediately.

"Where are you? I have good news for you, can you go to the hospital?" I try to speak as gently as possible, I hope that he will fulfill my request.

"I still have a job, I'll just run out of magrib I go there." Haikal cut off our phone.

What else can I do, I just hope God gives me strength and patience.

I close my eyes, I try to sleep, and hope for God's miracle when I wake up.

Arrive arrive...

" Assalamualaikum, Mother." I saw Kia open the door and squash my arms.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, mother's daughter." I welcome her embrace.

"When is your mother healed? Let's go home quickly, don't get sick anymore." he looked me in the face.

"Mother's prayers yes, heal quickly and always healthy so I can play with sister again." I pinched her nose a little pointed.

"God may my mother recover quickly, amiin." she raised both her hands.

"Aamiin's." Me and Mama answered simultaneously.

"Have you eaten fah?" ask mama.

"It's ma." Answer briefly, somehow I was too lazy to talk.

"Ma... I was in the urine, the result is I'm positive pregnant ma." And somehow I suddenly hoped that mom could help my household with haikal mas.

"Alhamdulillah Fah, congratulations." Mama smiled a little. I know mama hides feelings that I don't know what she feels, which for sure it's not a sense of happiness, maybe mama is also afraid as much as I am, I was afraid that Haikal would not accept my pregnancy.

Even though I never told my mother about my household, I'm sure she knew we weren't okay.

"Why you?" Mom asked, as if she understood my heartbreak.

"Ma, Afiifah want to ask help mama, ahir-ahir this Mas Haikal increasingly changed ma, even he began to be rude to me, Afiifah ask help mama and papa talk to him." I looked at my mother expectantly.

I feel desperate, now my mom and dad are my hope. My eyes began to glaze over again, my voice began to tremble holding back my tears that began to flow.

"Mama has long suspected that you have a problem, try to tell me the same mom, the truth is, what happened between you guys." My mom looked at me seriously.

I also fulfilled my mother's request to tell me about my household problems. From when she started to change, what was the cause of her to the problem that the possibility of her cheating was behind my back.

"You're patient Fah, later mama try to talk to him yes, you don't be too stressed kasian your baby." Mama tried to calm me down and rubbed my stomach gently.

I was a little relieved after telling my problems to my mother, without realizing I was asleep with her beside me.

" Tok tok..."

"Please come in." I wiped my tears and tried to get out of my sleep.

"Sorry Fah, Dr. Hadi said he did not enter this afternoon, he said he would visit tomorrow at ten and you went straight to the poly for USG." brother Rara came to bring information that I think is important, because from earlier I was waiting for the doctor hadi to come, although I was afraid of my pregnancy but still I wanted to know about my fetal development, there was still a little sense of belonging in my heart.

"Ohhh that, hmmm yes already papa brother, how else, thanks y sis infonya." I smiled even though I was a little disappointed.

Rara Oun left the room.

"Mama don't want to go home yet? It's not good tonight to bring Kia home too late ma." I asked.

"Wait for Kia to wake up Fah, she'll soon wake up her usual." Connect mama while looking at the clock breaking in her hands.

" let afiifah wake up ma, later even kemalaman "sung me.

" baby... Kia, let's wake up already invited grandma home son, later connect bobok at home just love "I try to build kia kia.

With weight he opened his eyes.

"Would you like to keep mom here, okay? I'll take care of mom." Kia hugged me and looked at me expectantly.

"Maybe, but Kia's not scared? here are many diseases, later if brother is sick how? I'm sure you'll be sadder." I tried to give Kia some understanding.

"Please mom, sister miss mom." Kia started to pull out her cute face with her lips slightly on the manyun to the front.

"Don't you love, Kia's gonna get sick like mom?" I'm still at my stand.

"Mother's right baby, tomorrow we'll see you here again, now we go home first." My mom tried to make him understand.

"OK on..." Kia let go of her hug she got off my bed with an annoyed face, perhaps more aptly put on a sad face.

"But mom promised ya'll heal fast." she improved her body looking at me.

"Hmmm mother promise." I clasped my 4 fingers and let my little finger stand, smiling at her. He also put his little finger on my little finger.

***

23.20 Wibf...

I heard the door of my room being pushed, at first glance I saw Haikal enter without greeting, with eyes that remained focused on the phone.

"Where are you from?" My view follows the movements of Haikal.

"It's none of your business! why do you like to interfere in my business?" He looked at me with hatred.

"I just asked, all day you go not take care of me, or at least you take care of Kia, not even fun-loving unclear, I'm still your wife, she said, I deserve to know where you are and who you're going with." I'm getting pissed.

"Who told you to get sick, huh? besides Kja there is also a mother who takes care of her, mama is more careful of Kia than you." she raised her tone.

"I don't want to get sick either, I'm pregnant." I told him about my pregnancy, without seeing Haikal. To be honest, I wasn't ready to see the expression of him hating me even more.

"Pregnant?" he looked at me as if he couldn't believe what he heard. "whose child are you carrying?" he approached me, his burly hands clutching my chin very roughly.

"Let go!it hurts." I tried to let go of his hand.

"The answer...! Which man have you slept with?" he slammed my face violently while releasing his grip.

"What do you mean, mas? do you think I'm the same as you? Love cheating, it's your son." I really can't hold back my emotions, but I can still control my tone, because I realize I'm still in the hospital.

"My son?" he smiled, as if full of ridicule.

"I don't think it's my son, I've never touched you again, don't you think I'm stupid." He brought his voice closer to my ears.

"You grew up with your own son, I don't care, please ask his father to take responsibility." He slammed the door and left me again.

I was already unable to endure this pain, my hope was completely dashed, not only did she not accept my pregnancy, she ruthlessly accused me of having an affair even fornicating with others.

I can't tell you how sick I feel right now, my heart is breaking into pieces. My chest really hurts, like I'm squeezed by heavy things.

I cried until my whole world was gone, I needed my mother by my side, I was no longer strong enough to endure all this pain. My past memories have come back to life.