Special Journey

Episode 22

" i'll drop kia for a minute ya suf ". I leaned my body slightly on Yusuf, in this place it was very noisy.

" where are you going? ". Ask yusuf.

" to the mushola for a moment "answer me without turning my head.

I went floor by floor to arrive at my destination.

This heart is so restless, I just want to tell you a little bit of this burden, hoping that God will come with a little strength.

Finish berwudu' I immediately pray sunnah 2 rakaat.

Where else should I complain if not to the owner of this heart?

Is not prayer the best medicine for a hollow soul, a worried mind and a restless heart?

Ja.. I need a prayer for a cure for all these heart problems.

I finished my prayers back to the place of Yusuf and kia.

How surprised I was, when I saw that Yusuf was playing stroller with kia, they were very happy even yusuf laughed so loosely.

My heart warmed to see their togetherness.

Many times my heart gave thanks in meeting with Joseph as a repellent for longing for the figure of a father.

But to be honest, this heart is too scared to expect much, I know and know who I am. Perhaps I should have expected more from Yusuf.

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After a long day of playing, we went home.

" thank you Yusuf, for all you did today for kia ". I stared at Joseph after a moment before the gate.

" don't forget to continue to pray affiifa, it is with all the decisions of God, this is a test, God willing will mature you and soften your heart more ".

Today the cold and indifferent joseph turned into a wise man of speech, I found another joseph in this day.

Instantly there was a sense of comfort in this heart, astagfirullah.. How easily this heart wavers only because of the gentle demeanor that Joseph did for a moment.

How easy is it for God to reciprocate this feeling in the heart.

" god willing, I can't just take a little longer, I don't want to wish him back or ask God to give him back in my life, whatever he is who became my life companion for 6 years, with him I feel the somersaults of life ".

Yusuf and I walked side by side with Kia between us.

" don't be afraid to let go of your past, don't be afraid to start a new life, one day you will be grateful for your past, believe it ".

Joseph smiled back to see me. So did I.

" have you guys gone home bang? ". Fariz appeared in front of us.

" i'm looking for a brother from earlier, I guess in the cafe there's no more sightseeing ". Fariz came in with us.

" why? " ask fariz.

" later I will tell you bang, brother pray magrib and dinner here alone ". Connect fariz.

As her there was a problem with the Cafe, a look of anxiety on Fariz's face.

" brother just go home first, then clean up here again, sultry brother ".

" bath here just bang, just take it easy to wear a lot of new, rich people bro ". Fariz hit Yusuf on the shoulder with a fist.

" not good brother ". Joseph.

" no papa, take a bath there, our trus pray magrib jama'ah, we finish dinner together, mother has cooked a lot ". Mother appeared from the kitchen.

" i went up first huh. "my farewell to Yusuf. Yusuf nodded.

Me and I immediately headed to the room, we immediately took a shower after preparing to go to the prayer place.

Again I was amazed to see Yusuf with a skullcap on his head, plus wearing a cocoa shirt and sarong that adds to the perfect appearance of Yusuf.

I immediately threw away my sight. I was afraid of getting fascinated to see Joseph.

" joseph the priest ". Dad's orders.

" father alone well, joseph cannot, father is more worthy ". Joseph asked his father to take the priestly position.

" just you, I want to see, I want to see you become a priest. "

" let's bang, the ordinary is also willing ". Connect fariz.

" you're fariz, I'm not focused ". Yusuf still refused as he glanced at me behind him.

Fariz smiled looking at Yusuf's face.

" father alone well, rather than later he was wrong "now Fariz helped save joseph.

" thank you ". Joseph said half a whisper.

" learn to be a priest, if you want to be given the blessing of your father ". Fariz said while whispering.

" have you talked?, can we start? ". Dad looked towards Yusuf he was fariz.

I just smiled at their behavior. If again with fariz, yusuf as if only a teenager who likes to joke, never seen a serious look what again fierce as his attitude to me.

Finish our prayers to the family dining room.

" what do you want to eat? " ask kia.

" fried chicken "answer kia.

I gave kia her favorite fried chicken.

" why were you looking for me? ". Joseph opened their conversation.

" bang.. Like the maya can't wait until we get a replacement for her bang, I'm so kasian see her ".

Answer Fariz while putting food into his spoon before eating.

" later just talk about his work, eat first, later even no appetite because think of work ". Mother interrupts the conversation of Joseph and Fariz.

Hearing our mother's words we ate almost without sound, only the sound of the clanking of spoons and forks was heard.

After eating, I helped my mother wash the dishes because mommy had told me to rest early.

After washing the dishes, I met kia who was gathered with father, fariz and yusuf. I was about to take kia to the room, like she was tired from playing all day.

" mother, ". Kia held my hand when I wanted to take her to the room.

" why baby ". I sat down next to Kia.

" kia miss abi, mother says kia should be a good child, so abi can love again the same kia ". Suddenly my body trembled at the words of Kia. Everyone looked at me with pity.

What am I supposed to say?.

Seeing the tears begin to tear up my heart broke into pieces.

I tried to hold back my tears.

I want to give you strength.

I hugged Kia, rubbing her head full of tenderness and affection.

" we bobok first, son, we pray again with God, so that later abi can love again the same kia ". I tried to calm down.

My tears began to fall. The more broken my heart.

" don't cry baby, kia already promised mom, if you can't miss abi, here a lot of dear kia kia kia, there is atok, if you can't miss abi, grandma om fariz also om yusuf trus also there nisa kak ".

I wiped the tears on Kia's cheek.

'Strust me, O God.' My inner self.

" right kia, we all love the same kia ". Fariz hugged kia full of love.

" but kia miss mom, kia want to sleep with abi again, om yusuf, om yusuf, can om yusuf temenin kia sleep?, kia promise, kia will be a good boy, can kiauf, let om yusuf can love the same kia and not leave kia again ".

Kia let go of Fariz's embrace and looked away at Joseph. Hearing my words certainly made me very surprised.

My heart is breaking hearing the expression of my heart.

It's what I'm afraid of seeing you so close to Yusuf.

Hearing his question, Joseph looked at his father and mother, as if asking them for permission.

Mom and Dad smiled at Yusuf.

Seeing father and mother smiling, Yusuf hugged kia.

" hmmm, is he sleepy now? ". Joseph hugged kia.

" not yet ". Answer kia.

" then, I'll sit first with om yusuf here, later if it's sleepy om yusuf will be temenin kia bobok, how?". Joseph took off his embrace from the kia, then smiled looking at the kia.

" well, I promise you, I'll be a good boy ". Like his kia was really afraid to lose joseph, not only joseph, but probably also everyone who was near him at this time.

I'm afraid we can't do what he likes, I'm afraid the worry we left behind makes the growth and development disrupted.

I'm afraid I'll hold back her desire and pain, to keep looking good for the sake of the people around her stay by her side.

Oh jesus.. Please protect kia.

" it's okay dear, kia do not need to always be a good child, om promise like any kia, om yusuf will always love the same kia, om yusuf will not leave kia ". Joseph kissed kia's left cheek.

" yes.. We all love the same kia, we all promise never to leave kia " continued father.

Without me realizing it now kia who used to be unable to stay still and super active has turned into more silent kia.

So big a shake that happened to the soul because of my separation and haikal mas.

Why can't I be more patient? If I had been more patient in accepting the haikal mas kia. would not have lost the figure of a father to him.

Sorry mom, all this is because of mother's mistakes and mother's selfishness.

I was too busy playing with my own thoughts and my regrets, I was already not focused on hearing what topics they were talking about.

My gaze focused on kia who was now sitting on my back on both thighs while watching youtube on my phone.

" sister, how can you? ".

" au.. Sick deck ". I was surprised when Fariz patted my cheek a little hard.

" bengong is ". Fariz.

" sister want not? ". Fariz asked me again.

" what do you want deck? " i'm confused, because I didn't hear their talk.

" don't tell me you didn't hear our conversation from earlier ". Fariz pointed towards me. I just grinned, because I didn't hear them. I shake my head.

" jeez. "fariz patted his eel.

" should ya we repeat our conversation ". Fariz.

" do you still have plans to work in the hospital again? ". Yusuf asked me. Maybe too long waiting fariz who explained what was their discussion earlier.

" for now there is not yet, I want to focus on taking care of kia, if in a kasian kia hospital if I fit night service ". I'm being honest with them.

" you want to help me at the Cafe?, because my secretary resigned, her parents are sick, we've been trying to find a replacement for her for a few days, but haven't been able to ". Yusuf.

Now I understand the problem of fariz and joseph, which made fariz stressed.

" just try first, son, count so you do not stress at home continue ". Dad's talking.

" yes, try it first, who knows with there activities you can forget your problem "mother oun also talk.

Oh allah.. Actually, before they asked me, I had intended to work at the cafe, but I became hesitant when I knew that Yusuf was the owner of the Cafe as well.

What's more, hearing the words of kia earlier, I was more afraid so I got closer to Yusuf and made kia can not be far from joseph.

" how is brother? ". Fariz again gave up my daydream.

" but I'm afraid I can't deck, you know my brother has no experience working other than injecting people ".

" later slowly you can learn affirmation ". Joseph.

" please yes brother, kasian bang yusuf, his work is a lot, I am also a lot of work where else busy taking care of my proposal and marriage, bang yusuf has also started to finish my application later, I will also be happy, please brother ". Fariz begged me.

" sister think first yes, later sister give her answer ". I actually feel bad about refusing.

" o'm yusuf, kia drowsy, can you take a nap in the room? ". Kia shakes up Joseph's arm.

Joseph saw his father and mother again.

" no papa suf, you just go to sleep, affiifah.. Send them to the room". Said father.

"corpio.. Om temenin this beautiful princess bobok ". Joseph holds kia.

Oh jesus.. I was really uncomfortable with this, how could I be in a room with Yusuf, whatever the reason I felt heavy.

" now booby well ". Joseph laid kia on the bed but why did he also fall asleep?. Ahh can go crazy.

After a while, I finally fell asleep.

" sorry Yusuf, again I have to trouble you ". I looked at Yusuf who stroked kia's cheek.

" affaifah, I know you must feel guilty for kia ". I heard Yusuf's words.

" don't cry, you have to give us strength, don't feel good about us, losing the affection of your ex-husband doesn't mean we don't have the love of others ".

Now I can't hold back my tears.

" thank you, Joseph, for giving love to us ". I sobbed in my tears.

" i know the pain of losing the person we love, because I've felt it, you don't have to erase your memories with haikal, you just need to teach him a lesson for your life tomorrow ".

" i'm still learning to get rid of all my suf, I believe about this wound, I just need time to heal ". I looked at Yusuf's face.

" so strong fah, you will get love from a sincere person, so.. You just need to open your heart, let the other heart into the depths of your heart, do not be afraid to fall back in love, it could be that the second love makes you grateful and becomes valuable ".

" rest, don't forget to pray first, I say go home, take care of me too, because I want to keep kia not because of pity but because I really love her and love her fah.".

" god willing, joseph, thank you again ". I led Yusuf out of my room.