Special Journey

Chapter 6

"Miiris is not my life brother? gone is my hope to build a happy household, lost already hope mate until heaven with Haikal mas."

I end the grim story of the past that now the heartbreaking story is re-enacted.

I saw them staring at me with pity and pity. Many times I wipe away the tears that do not stop flowing.

"Why God loves me so much feet, that God gives me trials that I don't think I'm strong to bear."

I was still crying, my tears couldn't stop flowing even for a moment.

They were still sitting in front of me listening to all my heart with their own thoughts.

Many times their hands have been stroking my shoulders.

"But I know I must be strong, one world I go but my other world is waiting for me, so don't get too tired of me brother, I still have God where I come back, where I ask for strength. A place to lean and God will not forsake this weak me."

I forced myself to smile at them.

"Mr..." They hugged me at the same time they gave me a warm smile.

There is gratitude in my heart to have them by my side, those who used to be nobody now they are my back.

"You are great Fah, God knows whom God must give." Sister Ana tightly gripped my hands, "i envy your willingness to accept all this trouble, Fah."

"As long as you're still here, you can count on us Fah, we'll take care of you Kia and your future baby."

Brother Nada gently stroked my stomach and cheeks, while wiping away the remaining tears in the still flowing.

"Thank you, I'm so grateful to have you." How much I love and love them.

"Now what are you going to do Fah?" asked Valen, making me take a deep breath. Be that as it may... I don't know what I'll do after this.

Tok tok tok tok

A nurse walked in in her white uniform while smiling at me.

"Are you disturbing y brother?" He was going to come back out, "later Elin came back here again brother." continued his turning body to die me and my friends.

Elin is our Junior at this hospital, holding almost the worldwide average health seniority that's very viscous, he said, those who are called Junior rarely anyone dares to refute their senior orders whether they like it or not most of them will accept it.

But, I personally don't care much about this, for me. They don't need to respect me, just they are disinclined to be on par, just, I also like to be friends with those so-called seniors.

Elin one of them, she even likes to tease me chabi cheeks when she meets. He was never afraid of me, but obviously he was very shy and scared of Valen's brother. Let alone Elin, senior just wry if brother Valen is angry. Ck... My best friend this one is amazing.

"No, papa Elin, come in, what's up?" I let him in.

Elin glanced at us Valen with the corner of her eye. "Sister's home remedy is ready, brother's administration is also ready, brother can go home now."

"These are the drugs, brother." he took out one by one the drugs that had been applied to me.

"Thank you, Lin." I smiled at her.

"Don't need Elin anymore, right kak how her consumption? Heheh... Big brother is smarter than Elin." he teased me again with his naughty smile.

"You are well... Aren't you afraid of him?" I pointed at brother Valen who was sitting quite far away from my bad m.

"Stttt, Elin go first babay." she put her index finger on the lips while whispering a little to me. "Sorry to interrupt Brother-sister, I'm sorry." he lowered his head then waved his hand and immediately left.

Brother Valen just stared at Elin sharply.

Actually he is not fierce, but his innate is serious and always firm so many people are afraid of him.

I just shook my head and smiled at Elin's strange behavior.

"Often your smile, let it stay young. Kasian is here in horror when he meets you." Toda kak Nada glanced at brother Valen.

"Kc... They're the ones who are more, but I'm not very fierce." Valen's pillow defended himself.

"Haha... Your feelings are just that, for the adek-adek here you are a tiger, a little bit ngaum ngol." Brother Nada does not want to lose.

"Kc... "Sir Valen just clucked in annoyance.

"You want to go home now Fah?" Ana diverts the quarrel of two different human characters.

"My heart is still not ready to continue to meet Haikal at the house, but where else should I go if not return home? Kasian Kia too." I replied.

"Or do you want to stay at my house while Fah?" sister Ana offers overlap to me, she is living alone because her family has moved to the village.

"Thank you, but what about people's views? What about my in-laws? And I still want to be a filial wife, I don't want to leave the house without Haikal's permission." I'm confused.

"Hmm, as good as you go home to your in-laws Fah, and ask for a solution from them." continued Valen.

"Maybe this is the best idea right now, sis, mksh y kak." after a long thought, I think Valen's suggestion makes sense.

"Let's take you home." brother Nada stood up and held both of my shoulders.

***

I turned my body trying to sleep, but my efforts were in vain, until late at night the sleepiness had not come to me. My eyes are fresh, still full of battery.

I saw the clock on my phone

"Ahhh, it's 03:15" I murmured.

"Huhf.". "I took a heavy breath, many times.When I came out of my room, right now I was in my in-laws' room. The room that used to be a witness to how beautiful the life of a husband and wife, how delicious it is to get married.

I'm heading to the bathroom, I intend to perform the evening prayer.

According to the science I've learned, one of the best times to ask the creator is in a third of the night.

I want to tell you all the anguish and sorrow of my heart.

There is nothing I can do, other than accept this matter with great pleasure, I assure myself that there will be no problem without resolution, impossible as long as God gives me sorrow, there must be happiness on the other side of my life.

Finished facing the Catholic.I returned to my bed, I looked at the beautiful face of Kia who was asleep, my feelings were more uncertain.

How unfortunate is the life of Kia, who can no longer feel the affection and love of a father completely.

"I'm sorry, dear Mother, forgive me." I said softly,

I don't feel any tears coming back.

I hug her tiny body, I kiss her whole face lovingly.

"Oh Allah, please take care of Kia and give her priceless love." my prayer.

***

Morning time.

"Ma. "I greet the woman who has been six years I call my mother, my mother-in-law.

He smiled kindly at me.

"Sorry Ma, I finished praying Afiifah overslept again." I felt bad to see my mom preparing breakfast alone .

"No papa fah, mama is also used to it, you just rest, you must be tired after all mama just arrange her food, the cook Still mbak" mama's smile still adorns her face.

"Again, Pa." I said. While pulling the chair where my father-in-law was sitting.

He's still the same, just like from the beginning we met, until your six-year marriage, he's still cold to me.

For six years I lived with this husband's family, I've known enough of them personally, including my father-in-law, in fact I know that he doesn't like me very much, no matter what the interpreter, he said, I never knew.

Even on my wedding day, my father-in-law was not present, he never even gave my blessing to my marriage and Haikal.

There were actually too many problems from the beginning of my marriage and Haikal's. Not only did I not get the blessing of my father, my parents did not accept Haikal with all their heart, especially my younger brother, Fariz.

My parents didn't like Haikal for nothing, not only did my family not like Haikal, but my family didn't like my father-in-law at all.

The reason they did not like the Haikal family was only one, because the Haikal family was too arrogant and demeaning my parents even they had humiliated my family's self-esteem.

*** flasback

"I don't like this wedding, and I won't be at your wedding."

That was the first word my father said when Haikal and I asked my father to come to our wedding.

"Please marry without my blessing." papa reaffirmed his words without looking at me and Haikal.

I squeezed both my hands.

Why does it hurt like this?

"Pa... Haikal please pa, even if papa does not like my marriage, at least he can attend pa." mas hmHaikal pleaded.

"No cal, papa's a lot of work, and it's more important than just your marriage" replied papa firmly.

"Please respect the Afiifa family, Pa." Haikal is trying again.

"Even if your entire family of future wives asks me to come, I won't want to."

"What's the reason you didn't approve of our marriage?" I ventured to ask.

Papa turns around. "you ask?" papa looked at my face carefully.

I answered with a nod of my head.

"But I don't know, I just don't like you and your family." replied papa lightly without any guilt.

I also fell silent immediately. After papa convinced me and Haikal not to attend, finally me and Haikal gave up, I thought maybe by walking his time Papa would be able to accept me.

One year, two years, three years to six years of my marriage, my father still looked at me with a look of dislike and tended to be cold.

My wedding day.

Maybe today was the worst day for my parents and my family.

The article is not only papa mas Haikal who was not present at our wedding, mama mas Haikal was not present. Both of his parents were absent.

Mas Haikal was accompanied only by one of his siblings and two distant brothers.

I can see how disappointed my parents, the chapter when the haikal mas proposed to me he was still accompanied by 1 parent, namely his mother, monic mama, my mother-in-law.

But it turns out that on our wedding day monic mama was not present, of course my parents did not receive their treatment.

They don't respect my family, and they don't give explanations and put up real problems.

It also sparked hatred in my sister Fariz's heart.

*** flasback of

After breakfast I accompanied Kia to play in the room, even though my mind was in a mess I also did not want to waste the opportunity to play with Kia.

After a long time playing, I also began to sleepy, what else last night was I lack of sleep.

I slept too.

I don't know how long I slept, I woke up because I heard a noise in front of my room, it turns out Kia also fell asleep beside me, I wiped her pretty face, then I kissed her forehead.

"Wasn't Mama and Papa used to dislike her? So let us separate."

Degs... My heart rate is starting to get irregular

"That's the sound of haikal." I said.

But I still stayed in my bed, only changing position from sleeping to sitting a little.

"You're a grown-up Haikal, try to finish your problem well, you think about Kia's future, what's wrong with you starting to get back to work? It is indeed your duty to give a living and all the needs of your wife, not even your wife who supports you." I heard the voice of my mother began to get upset.

"Don't do any more bad things." continued Mama.

Ohh so now they're discussing my problem and Haikal's.

"Alhamdulillah, ahir mama would advise mas Haikal." I rubbed my chest slowly while giving thanks, I hope that the Haikal would listen to the advice of his parents.

"The problem is ma, not that I can't work but because I don't want to support her anymore, the problem is that I don't want to live with her anymore!" obviously Haikal.

"Haikal... Don't be selfish, do you have another woman?" mom's voice began to die down.

"Huhh, yes ma, I fell in love with another woman, who could make me more comfortable and who was definitely more attractive than her." Haikal's voice also began to subside,but I can still hear it very clearly.

Hearing the explanation and honesty Haikal my heart was getting broken, my chest began to feel narrow to breathe, my chest space felt full.

I shut my mouth with my hands, I held back my cries from being heard, I was afraid Kia would wake up.

"You're having another haikal affair?" their conversation was still going on and I was still faithfully listening to their debate, I wanted to know what the real problem was to make Haikal turn away from me.

"Yes, I'm in love with another woman" Haikal answered briefly densely and clearly.

"Why are you doing this again Haikal? Didn't you tell Kia?"

"Ma... I started not to care about Kia, I also started to get uncomfortable with her ma." replied Mas Haikal "trouble turns out to have children."

"Plaaaak." I heard a slap.

"You're too much Haikal, you promised to change, but now you're repeating the same mistake, aren't you afraid to regret it later? sorry that I was married to Afiifah, is she bad Kal? You'll regret what you did, Kal." said Mama.

"Yes... Having a child like you is hard." Hardik mom.

Now silent...

There was no more fighting between mother and child.

I dared to look at Haikal.

"Now that I know why you changed even if you deliberately didn't take responsibility for me and Kia, it turns out that you don't want me and Kia anymore.

"The poor man lived Kia, if he knew that his father, the first man he loved, the person he hoped to be his protector turned out to never care and love him, he never cared, like he loved that man."

I said to Haikal, I must accept this harsh reality.

"Now you've heard it all, haven't you? you already know that I don't love you anymore." Mas Haikal looked at me who was standing rigidly in the doorway.

"Yes... Now I know the reason, and I'm relieved... At least I know, this problem is open because of me." I turned my body back into the room.

My body felt increasingly limp my whole world stopped spinning, I had no strength to keep going.

Suddenly my stomach feels very painful, like in a crumple, aching his taste.

I feel like something is not right with me.