Special Journey

Episode 34

My days passed by, without realizing a month had passed and I still had not answered Joseph.

Either because I doubt or because I'm afraid. God has not given me certainty about my choice.

Sometimes I want to refuse, for whatever reason. Sometimes I want to accept it immediately for any reason.

Joseph never urged an answer from me. It's just that I feel unworthy to ignore and make him wait too long for Joseph.

To honestly! Deep in my heart, I began to love Joseph, and always called Joseph almost in my prayers.

The days of Joseph are always the same. Almost every day I come home. Whether it's on the grounds of meeting Kia or just having a conversation with Dad and Fariz. Or he always wanted to meet me. Astagfirulah....

The bell of the house rings. With a bit of laziness I stood up, about to see who this early guest was. Although actually I can guess who the guests who always diligently visited so early.

The sun just wanted to say warm hello. Sunny. Even the embum has not disappeared. Joseph was standing at the door, in a sports uniform. I can assure you that Yusuf will ride around this housing complex with Kia. As usual, their routine is on holiday.

It is fitting that yesterday Kia asked for Abu sports stellan, it turns out that Yusuf also wore a matching colored stelan.

"Assalamualaik." I greeted Joseph who was on my back.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, Afiifah Morning." Joseph answered my greeting by turning his head and followed his body.

"Morning.., please enter Suf." I'm spying. Gave a gap for Joseph to pass.

Just a nod in return from Joseph.

"Directly just eat Suf shirt, everyone still gathers there." I walked past Joseph, followed by Joseph.

"Who's Brother?" Ask Dad without looking.

"Joseph." Answer's short. He sat back in position before welcoming Joseph.

"Ohhh, our special guest turned out!" Mother smiled. Followed by everyone's smiles.

"Assalamualaikum Good boy." Joseph took a position beside Kia. Only Kia is a barrier between me and Joseph.

"Wa'alaikumussala.., om Yusuf is very fragrant." Kia stopped the fried rice in her mouth.

Joseph replied with a gentle elusan in the head of Kia.

"Anisa where Riz is." Joseph looked for his sister.

"Hehehe... He's not eating Bang!" Fariz answered without looking.

"Why Riz? He doesn't usually miss breakfast with us!" Now the eyes of Mother full of questions.

"Hehehe... She, she wants to be in Bun's room, she says she doesn't want to smell the kitchen." Joseph put a spoon filled with fried rice.

"Yes Allah... Sick Him?" Mother could not hide her worry. I just smiled at Mother's behavior.

"Mother, ihh... I never got pregnant young!" I can't stand to open my mouth.

"Seriously Anisa's pregnant?" Mother rada could not believe it. Even half his body came closer to me, Joseph who was beside him.

I just shook my head to see Mother's behavior. Actually I'm just guessing, thanks to my years of experience being a nurse sometimes I can guess just looking at it.

"Yes Bun... " Fariz smiled. It looks like a very happy face.

"Alhamdulillah..." Everyone is thankful. Except I'm Dak Kia, I'm just giving thanks without a voice. Kia must not have understood the direction of our conversation.

"Topcar You're Riz." Joseph clenched his hands to form a fist, and was countered by Fariz. Oh Allah... They're like slang kids. Again, I just shook my head while smiling.

"Hurry up Bang followed. I'm sure you're a copcer Bang, too. Haha." Fariz's laughter was so loud.

A little Joseph's lips were raised. Smiling knot. He glanced at me and followed by all the eyes that came to look at me. What do they think now?

I can only bow down, endure the shame. Why are they looking at me like they know something? Has Joseph told Father, Mother and Fariz? Ah, I don't know.

"You don't know anything!" Yusuf put the spoon back with his mouth fried rice.

"Yes, when will you catch up with Fariz and Anisa? You're also mature enough to get married!" Mother tricked Fariz's words.

"Just pray Mother, Joseph also wants to immediately Bun, but still waiting for a mate."

"There's still no answer from the woman you applied to Suf yesterday?" Hearing Dad's question, my whole body suddenly felt cold. I'm lip-biting. What's gonna happen next?

"Lho! Did Joseph have a woman of choice?" Mother asked Father for an explanation.

"Mother ask Joseph! I don't know who that woman is either. But Joseph once told me that a month ago Joseph proposed to a girl." Father pressed his mouth towards me Joseph.

"Suf! Do you really have a dream woman? Did you even propose to her?" Mother's gaze turned to look at Joseph.

"True Bun, just pray. Joseph also wanted to immediately Bun, but again had to wait. Who's He? Joseph would later introduce if He had received Joseph's sermon." Joseph looked at Mother. Seriously. That sounds very serious.

I am incapable of words. But at least I was a little relieved, at least Joseph did not tell me I am the woman He has blessed! I'm the woman they're talking about.

I squeezed both my hands in turns. Maybe today is the time to answer Joseph.

"Pupus is our hope Yah!" Mother nudged Dad with her elbow. Father simply replied with a nod and a disappointed smile.

"What does Mother mean?" Fariz, who had been smiling since, was now looking at Mother full of questions.

"Yes... It's okay." Mother took a sip of water in front of her, "but wasn't it already a month ago? Why is there no answer from him?" Ask Mother again.

"Hmm, maybe He still needs some time Bun, it's okay Bun, Joseph can still wait." Joseph encouraged his food with water in front of him.

Actually, I know what Mother means.

I once overheard Father and Mother confiding in each other, wanting to make Joseph my life companion. Joseph wanted to be a father to Kia.

Seems like... Joseph really has not told Father or Mother about me.

"Ahhh, romantic times You Bang! Not afraid of being disappointed again? What if he refuses Bang?"

"It's okay if it should be rejected Riz, it means not a soul mate!" This time I looked at Joseph. Why do I think that Joseph wasn't really serious with me.

"You seem so serious about your choice Suf! At least fight if you love her." Mother's speech seems to represent my curiosity.

"Mother is curious! Take him to meet us occasionally Suf, you're like our own son."

"God God is Bun." Joseph wiped the mouth of the rest of his food with a tissue.

"Hopefully the best woman to accompany Mu Suf, Joseph was a near-perfect man Bun, would have regretted if the woman had rejected him." Dad spoke up again.

"True Well, and hopefully she's a good woman Suf." Mother finished her breakfast.

"Ahh, Dad is too much. Even Joseph felt that he was too perfect for Joseph... He's more than good, Bun, he's so valuable. Please pray Yusuf Bun, a mother's prayer is very great." Hearing Joseph's words my heart trembled. I'm getting harder to catch my breath.

"Yes already... Yusuf and Kia not a sport? The sun is starting to rise!" Dad was a watch in his left hand.

"Yes, let's go." Joseph landed Kia in his trunk.

Kia looked so happy. Never lost his smile with Joseph. Kia never asked about Haikal again.

Once something night Kia told me, that she was not sad if the haikal people did not love her anymore, she would continue to be a good child, but this time in order to continue to be loved by Om Yusuf he said. Kia has also repeatedly asked me to stay and even sleep with Joseph.

I led Joseph and Kia to the front gate.

"Yusuf... " I'm trying to start a conversation" I'm sorry that I've made you wait too long. But if you change your mind, you can cancel Suf."

"It doesn't matter Fah, I'm sure my choice is correct, so waiting a little longer isn't a problem for me either."

Our steps stopped when we got to the front gate.

"Suf, are you really sure to make me your choice?" I'm looking. This time I dared to look at Joseph longer, I wanted to see Joseph's eyes. Let me be absolutely sure of my choice.

"What makes you doubt my feelings Fah?" Joseph looked back at me. Oh Allah... My heart beat again raced erratically. I threw away my sight.

"Either... I just don't think it's appropriate for Suf, Father and Mother to be right, you're almost perfect Suf." Now my eyes are on my feet.

"And if I'm right about perfect, you're also a more than perfect woman Fah, you're gonna make this near-perfect me even more perfect." I'm still quiet.

"May... By Allah, I love you not because of Kasian, I love you because of your morals, I want a sholehah woman who can make me closer to my Lord Fah, well... Although I'm not a hypocrite, I fell back in love with your beautiful face." Hearing Joseph's words made me hide my face bowed more and more deeply.

"alright... Me and Kia go first. You wanna come?" I nodded as a rejection.

"Be careful, and... Kia remembered to be a good son, do not trouble Om Yusuf. Okay fine! "

"Remember Mom, by Mother." Kia waved to me.

"Assalamualaik."

"Wa'alaikumussalam." I returned their wishes.

"Yusuf... " I raised my voice as Joseph began to pedal his bicycle.

I walked closer to where Joseph stopped his bike." God willing, I will give the answer before Father and Mother. So then... Quickly back. Please be careful." Hearing my words, Joseph's smile broadened. Eyes sparkling. Whether my feelings were alone or it was true, he seemed so happy.

He's back pedaling his black bike.

"Why do I feel so hard to let go of Joseph and Kia?" I walked in ending my monologue.

"Maybe it was because I was nervous to answer Joseph and meet Joseph again later." I hit my jidat slowly. Diverting prejudice.

"Lho... Brother not coming?" Joseph stopped his steps for a moment, followed by the eyes of Father and Mother were fixed on me, when he realized my arrival.

"So. Lazy sister. Milk for pregnant women?" I pointed at the glass of milk in Joseph's hand.

"Yes... Milk this morning was not drunk Nisa kak, she said nausea!" I followed Joseph into the room. I saw Nisa lying with her eyes closed. It doesn't seem to be sleeping.

"Nis, are you okay?" I sat beside Nisa, with the back of my hand pressed against her.

"Come on, sister, don't know how Nisa feels. Nausea, dizziness, manggigil Nisa's body." Nisa opened her eyes, and she looked like she was wailing.

"Hey! Why do you want to cry? Joseph didn't treat you well, did he?" I saw his eyes blushing, winking, holding back the rain that was about to fall on his cheeks.

"What the hell, brother! I can take care of Nisa the most. Sister brother's husband on standby!" Joseph did not accept my accusation.

"Why didn't Bang Yusuf come here, sister? Though she must have known Nisa wasn't healthy." I smiled at Nisa's question. I can tell you this is why he cried.

"Bang Yusuf did not know that Nisa was not healthy like this, after all Joseph bang where know pregnant people are not healthy. She'll come back here again, if she's there, brother tell her to look at Nisa." I thrust out the milk that Joseph had brought, "drink the milk first! You need to stay on top of the nutrients, leave your baby."

"Assalamualaik." I turned my head towards the door behind me.

"Wa'alaikumussalam." Looks Mother with a variety of fruits in her hands.

"What would Nisa eat? Mommy will make it for Nisa." Mother sat beside me. Fariz was still standing with his arms folded, more like a bodygard than a husband. Dress all black with a tall body and strapping.

Nisa shook her head, again shedding tears.

"Thank you, Mother, you've always taken care of Nisa and dear Nisa." I smiled at Nisa's hugging mother. Replied with a gentle swipe on Nisa's back.

"Sister, from last night Nisa as I cry, a little cry. I get confused sometimes. It's all wrong, brother." Joseph was noisy in my ears.

I just smiled at Nisa's husband's curses.

Mother stretches Nisa's embrace.

"No need to thank you, Nisa is also the daughter of Mother, must always be the Mother and Mother of love." Mother wiped the rest of the tears on her cheeks.

"Pregnant mother is the hormone is unstable, so it's natural that Nisa likes to feel sad or anxious." I rubbed Nisa's back, indirectly answering Joseph's dreadful question earlier.

"Don't stress, bring happy! Enjoy this pregnancy deck." I gently stroked the smooth cheeks of nan chaby Nisa.

"Nisa don't be afraid to tell me anything that baffles Nisa, or say everything Nisa wants." I went back to trying to make Nisa calmer. Followed by a nod Mother sign agreed with my words.

"Assynoltom... " I saw Joseph take a call. His voice so loud made me look at him.

"Wait a minute, please explain slowly." Joseph moved away from the room, out of the room.

Before long, Joseph returned with Father, with a tense face.

"Dad, Fariz! What was? Is his face so tense?" my frown increased to see their strange expressions. Now the eyes of Mother are also on them.