Special Journey

Episode 16's

I started to walk with a little doubt.

What should I say if my father and mother ask about haikal?

May God strengthen this heart.

Ye are guiding this heart.

To be honest, I miss my mother's embrace. I want to share the burden of my heart with you.

I'm sorry, father, mother, for the umpteenth time I disappointed my father and mother.

Bismillah...

I am sure God will give me strength.

" we've reached the house om fariz huh ma'am? " kia followed my steps by dragging a small suitcase in her hand.

" yes, baby, are you happy not to see me later? ".

" very happy mom, sister kia very miss om fariz grandma and atok ". It was clear that happiness on his face and at once his fatigue seemed replaced with happiness.

I smiled at him too.

I pressed the Ball that was next to the fence. I waited for the door to open.

No wait for long I saw mommy come out of the house, like she was also very surprised by my arrival.

" stttt "I signal bu siti to be quiet when mom siti is about to return to the house.

Ms. Siti immediately opened the gate of the house after understanding the signal I gave.

" o lord... If you go home, son, I miss you so much ". Mom spontaneously hugged me.

" thank God, mommy's healthy? " i'm also very happy to meet this patient woman.

Ms. Siti has been working at my parents' house since I was 13. He was brought by his father to the city after the death of his husband and two children due to a fire in his house.

Mom is like family to all of us. She is a very patient woman in every way.

" kia's.. Kia how are you? ". Ms. Siti carried the kia to the depths of the house.

" healthy bi siti" replied kia who hugged the neck bu siti.

" ahh aunty misses kia too, later so there is her playmate dina ". Lady siti kisses kia's cheek.

I just smile to see them.

" dad mother same fariz is at home no ma'am? " i can't wait to know where they are.

" there is a non, maybe in the upper room watching tv while waiting for azan magrib ". Answer the siti.

" up to the top first y bu ".

" yes non "answer bu siti.

I pum seger down one by one the stairs to the upper room.

I heard their laughter clearly. They must be watching a comedy show. It became a favorite broadcast in this house, except for kia who certainly love cartoon shows.

They are still unaware of my arrival and kia. Me and Kia walked slowly. Ahh kia is so good at following my game.

Me and Kia were sitting in a chair beside them, but why were they still unaware of my arrival and kia. As soon as their focus is watching television, they are not aware of the presence of me and kia.

" assalamualaikum mother fariz's father ". I can't wait to hear their reaction.

But shit they ignored me and me.

" atok, grandma om fariz do not see kia? ". Kia also couldn't help but feel the emotion of seeing their behavior.

But they're still sitting where they're looking at me and kia.

" dad.... Oh god, mother.. ". I pu stood up and turned off the TV.

Suddenly they laughed. Like they deliberately upset me and me.

" what the hell, brother, just disturb me ". Fariz started talking.

I swear by what.. Like they already know me and kia's coming.

Ahh plan to suprise even back at work.

" don't frown, here's mom hug". Mother said.

" here atok hugs is also the favorite grandson of this atok". I also held kia.

" we already know brother wants to come, we see brother in front of the gate earlier ". Connect fariz.

They are not surprised by my arrival and.

" ahh miss his mother with you guys, why not go home Not saying sis, not her you still have a contract of employment? " ask mom.

Oh allah...

What should I answer.

" mmm... Afiifah then sick mother so get permission to get sick for a few days, afiifah already can't wait to return, so the issue of contract afiifah at the end of the same head of the affiifah room ".

I feel my answer is not a lie, because indeed all my work problems have been resolved, brother Valen.

" what pain are you, son? " ask mom.

" hmmm ordinary pain bun, "my answer.

Mom and Fariz looked at each other. I know they're thinking I'm not okay.

" kia how are you? Here om fariz gendong, uluhh om already miss tau ". Kia moved into the fariz deck.

" we are healthy, om later said the mother kia school here with the same grandmother" atok ". Kia looked towards Fariz.

" good donk, later om fariz will often take kia to school and pick kia home, continuess.... We're going to the zoo, what? Kia likes it? " ask fariz.

" want to want.., kia want to stay here just the same with grandma and atok ". Kia replied with a smile looking at Fariz.

" we go to the room first youk, we take a shower then eat new we play again ". I brought Kia to my room.

The weight of his taste to enter my room, the room that became a witness of how happy my first night with mas haikal.

For a moment I saw every corner in this room nothing had changed.

On the wall above the bed there are still photos of my marriage with the haikal mas.

Almost in every corner of the walls of this room decorated my wedding photos and haikal mas.

I saw the first photo with mas haikal on the dressing table, so clear in my memory that haikal told me how great his love for me.

Long time I look at every photo on the wall of my room, I want to get rid of all these memories.

I threw my body next to Kia who was lying on my bed.

I will continue to learn to organize my heart to bury every memory with the haikal.

I know it won't be easy, no matter how much I've given my whole heart to haikal in a few years.

" mother... Kia wants to take a shower ". Kia pulled my shirt.

" okay.. After bathing kia join atok salat ok."

" same mother too? ". Ask kia.

" hmmm no, the mother prays tomorrow, if the mother is healthy, the sister prays the same atok grandma and om fariz ". Answer me.

" so if you are sick you can not pray? ". Kia asked back.

" can't donk, while we can continue to pray, if we are sick we can pray while lying down.

" trus mom wants to pray while sleeping too?, kia pray the same mother, so you can while lying down ". I smiled at Kia's answer.

If all want to know it kia kumat, my head can hurt to think before answering.

My brain can travel around the world looking for the right answer and can be understood.

" hmmm that's not what mom meant ". Answer me stammering.

" ah already is.. Anyway kia salat sma atok duku yes, tomorrow we pray together again. ". I immediately took Kia to the bathroom.

Kia is neat with her prayer equipment.

" assalamualaikum's.. Kia is ready for prayer ". Kia appeared in front of my parents and Fariz.

" god is so beautiful this niece ". Fariz sahut.

" here pray beside grandma ". Mother stretched her hand to welcome kia.

I just smiled looking at them.

I left them in the prayer room, and I walked to the kitchen to check on dinner.

My tongue is unceasingly grateful to have been given such good parents and always loved me and my sister who were always ready to protect me like a brother.

If only I had a brother, my life would be more exciting and happy.

Finish their prayers immediately to the dining room and immediately sit at the dining table respectively.

" siti's mom ate? ". My daughter when she saw Lady coming out of her room.

" it was non, it was with dina and her father" replied ma siti.

Dina is the only daughter of wayang bu siti and pak saiful, the second husband of bu siti who also works at my parents' house.

" ohh so, if we have not eaten, we eat together ma'am ". Obviously I was smiling.

" no non, we've eaten, please continue to eat his non, mr bu mas fariz, I'm sorry first ". Lady passed by leaving the dining room.

So happy to sit and eat with them, the people who always gave their love for me.

Near them made me forget a little about this heart wound.

Seeing them smile I didn't have the heart to tell my problems. I was afraid to get them hurt.

Many times I took heavy breaths and exhaled them.

" you why son?, from earlier mother see you always exhale that way?, there is a problem? ". Hearing mother's question, father and fariz suddenly saw me and for a moment stopped chewing their food.

" no bun, afiifa may be just a little tired, so lack of appetite ". Answer me.

'pardon me ma' I lowered my gaze, as if avoiding the stages of their questioning eyes.

" yeah you've spent his meal, then bring kia rest ". Connect mother.

" when will you go back to Jakarta again? " heard Fariz's question when I fell silent, I pretended not to hear him.

" sister.. What else did you think? ". Fariz grabbed my hand.

" hmmm why deck? ".

" o god. When will you go back to Jakarta again? " fariz repeated his question.

" just brother up to deck, you have asked when brother came home, why? Did you lose your sense of kangen the same brother? ". I teased her.

" yeeleh... I'm kangen kia not brother ". He's a horse.

" if my sister doesn't go home again? " i smiled and then saw their expressions.

They were silent to my words.

" aha... How about silence anyway? ".

" on your food deck, it'll be all over you". I saw Fariz staring at me.

" i'm just kidding, don't look at me donk, maybe I'll be here a long time, until your wedding is over deck". I broke the silence.

" let's eat again, we'll keep talking at the top house ". The father who had been silent and enjoying his meal spoke up.

I felt the atmosphere in this dining room become strange, like they were that my household was in trouble.

We also continued eating.

After dad's meal, Fariz and Kia went back upstairs and I helped mom get her dinner table.

" bu siti, do not let the affiifah only help mother, mom siti just rest now ".

I grabbed a dirty plate in Mom's hand.

" no papa non, non-affiifah rest only, must be tired after a long journey ". Lady Siti again snatched the dirty dishes from my hand.

" no papa, if mom siti still wants to help, please make hot milk y mom, let alone the afiifah who help mom, after all I want to near the mother continue ". Hearing my words, my mother turned to me.

" already mom, just follow her affiifah, finished making milk for kia, mom siti can rest, do not hesitate ". Connect mother.

" well mom ". Mom passed by leaving me and mom.

" you are not tired fah?, if you are tired of just rest first ". Mama looked at me and then continued cleaning the dining table.

" no papa mama, besides afiifa also not sleepy now ".

" you have something you want to get to Mom? ". I was silent to my mother's question. Then I took a slow breath.

I just shook my head in response to my mother's question.

" no papa if you still don't want to tell a story, but you don't forget if you still have a family, you still have a mother to share, don't mind your own problems, later you become thin ".

" he... Mommy can only, no papa times y bun if curusan, let more sexy and beautiful ". I tricked mother's words with jokes.

" eleg... Mending if it makes you beautiful, if it even makes you feel malnourished how? ". Now I laugh at your mother's words.

" mother mah anything, mother do not worry, God willing whatever the issue of affiifa, afiifa will pass through her with airy chest, if ever the afiifah need the shoulders of the mother, the afiifah, afiifah will come to lean on the shoulder of the mother, thank you mother has always worried about the afiifah ".

This time my speech sounds serious, I see the empty stages of mother to me, I don't know what is in your mind.

For sure, I am not ready to tell a story at the moment.

" it's over, let's go to the top of the bun ". I'm holding mom to the upstairs room.

I smiled seeing the continuous act of spoiled kia on my neck.