SEBANGKU

SELFISH

Mama Irsyad visited the room inhabited by the son since marriage. Irsyad chose to sleep in a separate room with Farah, although several times they also roomed. He saw the sleeping son curled up with gaping lips. There is a sense of tightness to see the scenery of Irsyad like that, usually at this hour he will be busy practicing in the hospital. But since yesterday I have been taking leave.

Mama Irsyad sighed heavily as she stepped closer to the child. The shadow of the meeting with Sha is still imprinted, especially about two possible suggestions that if Irsyad knew it would make him a half-dead dilemma.

"Ma!" call Irsyad. Apparently he's not sleeping.

"Aren't you sleeping?" mama asked a little surprised.

Irsyad wakes up and renders his body at the head of the bed. Looks shabby once his face, very different from people who wake up in general. "Wouldn't sleep, Ma!" he answered lazily, then touched his phone.

"Mandi gih, we have breakfast together!"

Irsyad. "Later on!"

"You're a doctor who's not very excited at all," mama's taunting tried to build up the spirit of the son. Usually if mocked like that, Irsyad will nag, do the imaging that he is a great young doctor. But now, he just glanced at the mama without nagging, and was busy with his phone.

The two were silent for a while, the mother was weighing whether it was necessary to tell her about her meeting yesterday with Sha. But if it's not the story, the problem with Sha won't be solved.

"Shey!" call mom by looking at the son. Irsyad just looked up then focused back on the phone. Naturally, usually at this hour already in the hospital but now in the room, work affairs are certainly neglected.

"Yesterday mama met Sha!" mama sees the child's eye reflexes when the former's name is mentioned. Irsyad focused on her mother. Really, mom's heart slipped for a moment. Irsyad so longed for Lethisa.

"What's Sha talking about? What did Sha say, Ma?" the middle-aged woman's eyes instantly heated up. He immediately lowered his head, unable to see Irsyad's enthusiasm to discuss Sha. "Ma!" wriggling her while shaking the arms of the mother.

The beautiful woman exhaled softly, then looked at the son. "What do you expect from your mom and her meeting?"

"He wants to come back to me!" answer Irsyad directly. The answer was like being threatened in his brain, without requiring time to think.

Mama reviewed a thin smile, then sighed softly, too heavily to reveal what was really going on. But it must be revealed immediately. He was very sad to see Irsyad who was too hopeful. Worrying about being disappointed is too deep which can make it depressed.

"Sha only gave two suggestions to mama!"

"What advice?" tanyanya enthusiastic.

"The first one, move on. You have to move on. And secondly, she'll marry someone else." For the second suggestion, mama lowered her voice, for Irsyad to faintly hear it. But apparently not, about Sha he cares so much that he was shocked when the decision to get married was taken by Sha. Irsyad shook his head strongly, a sign of disbelief.

Mama Irsyad also did not want to be rash. He immediately held Irsyad's arm. His determination is to realize Irsyad that Sha's future is not Irsyad anymore. "Listen to mama, Syad. Stop. Stop seeing Sha again."

"No, Ma. I have to see him again. He can't just get married. She should marry Irsyad, Ma!" he said by force. Trying to take off the check on the mother, but can't just be. Until my mom hugged him. He realized that the child had entered the stage of depression. His life depends on Sha's presence. Very depressing.

"Listen to my dear mother. Listen," he hugged Irsyad tightly. "Please don't meet, Sha again. She's a good girl, even my mom says it's really good. Let her live quietly, you want to see her happy right? Don't see him anymore."

Irsyad laughed heartily. "If I don't see him again, what about my heart, Ma. It was enough for me to follow my mother's advice by not seeing her again, and in fact she wanted to work with another man. I don't take it."

"Mom knows, honey. Mama knows, but please.pity her. He's already you're disappointed, left out of marriage. And if you meet often, he will be considered an actor by the community. Please, Syad. Think of your actions."

"Ma, if Irsyad doesn't see him. The wedding will take place, and Irsyad won't let it happen, Ma!" he said while crying. Her body decays to the floor, and mom immediately hugs her.

"Irsyad can't live without Sha, Ma. Irsyad's only hope of happiness is Sha, Ma."

"Darling.." Mama couldn't hold back tears. The heartache of people because of a breakup is different. Some consider a breakup is natural, some like Irsyad break up then break up life expectancy as well. So many cases of suicide because of love, or suddenly crazy because of love. They are like that because they unite love to humans rather than love to the Khaliq, so they cannot accept reality.

"You have to learn to forget Sha. Little by little learn to love your wife. There must be wisdom behind this problem. Rest assured, you are good for Farah. And Sha is good for her future husband."

Irsyad laughed again, crying, "Mama would say that I don't deserve Sha that?"

Mama just shut up.

"Sha is a unique woman in Irsyad's life, Ma. The first girl to make Irsyad feel genuine affection and care apart from mom and dad. Sha introduces what it means to struggle, to accept the circumstances that are in life, Ma. That means Sha to Irsyad, Ma!"

"Learn a little bit, baby. If you keep doing this you hurt a lot of people, especially your wife."

Irsyad fell silent, then looked at my mother intently. "I want a divorce, Ma!"

Mama shook her head, "Divorce is not the solution, you're just not used to Farah. Try to build a household, Syad. It is not good to impose the will. Farah is also a good girl, maybe she's your real soul mate."

Irsyad was silent, and did not catch what his mother said. For him, Sha was his life. He's not just gonna take Sha off. If you can choose it is better he took off Farah alone. Selfish, let. Not everyone in this world has a selfish side as well.