Not Him

45

“I have made a choice. Keeping you by my side, it's too selfish. I know you can have your dreams without me. You deserve to be happy, you deserve what you want. I'll just be your barrier.”

“stop talking as if you are the destroyer of my life!” Kyuhyun snapped at Hyunjin, he was already at the limit of his patience. Can't Hyunjin listen to him? He also had a choice, and that choice he had made, although it was difficult. But what does he get now? The girl he expected to keep supporting him, now turned away, leaving him behind.

“I am indeed the destroyer of your life, and vice versa!” Hyunjin yelled at Kyuhyun, her tears just escaping. He could not continue to pretend to be strong, when in reality he was so depressed. The problem now is not just his relationship with Kyuhyun, but his family who are now facing a big problem. He should be in the hospital right now, looking after his mother who desperately needs to be cheered on at a tough time like this. But what did he do? He even came to this place, arguing insignificantly with his lover. All this made his defenses collapse. It can't be as loud as usual. Why does she cry so much after knowing Kyuhyun? Shouldn't love bring happiness? But only the bitterness and pain in his heart he got, from loving Kyuhyun.

“I didn't ask for your approval. I just convey my wish.”

“so this is what you want?” Kyuhyun looked at him in disbelief. The only person who became his candle in the dark, now had extinguished the light for him.

“how can I stay with you, when your father has thrown my father in prison? What kind of kid do you think I am? I am my father's daughter, I am afraid to betray her.” Hyunjin tried to hold back her stuffing. It's too hard to say this, but that's all he has to say.

“Kyu, you realize not? we can never be together, it's too hard. Too many things become a barrier stone for you and me. Split up, the only good for both of us. I hope you can understand.” Hyunjin got up from her seat, left with tears without even hearing Kyuhyun's reply. He could not stay too long near Kyuhyun, which made him even more tormented.

Kyuhyun just kept quiet, not moving a bit to chase after the girl. So that's so? Maybe now Hyunjin already really hated him, because of his father's actions. If that's what's best for Hyunjin, he can't do anything about it.

“but you know, Hyunjin-ah? Separating from you is the greatest fear I have once again felt in my life.”

___

Hyunjin walked to the hospital. His feelings are still chaotic, but he must not be seen crying in front of his family. As much as possible the girl trained herself to smile, trying to look okay in front of others.

Hyunjin reached the door of the room where her mother was being cared for, but suddenly someone came out from behind the door. Hyunjin was a little surprised, but was able to adjust herself straight back.

“oppa want to go home?” ask that guy, Donghae.

Donghae shook his head, “just want to go to the toilet. Where have you been?”

“tthere's something I have to take care of.”

“so? Come in, your mother's dead. He's been looking for you since.” Donghae stepped back, starting to move away.

Hyunjin bit her lower lip, the girl's tears were coming back. The good face of―baik―saja― was gone, changing with the look of someone so desperate. Hyunjin's hand moved without her brain's command, pulling Donghae's shirt that was walking not too far away from her.

Donghae turned his head in surprise, but was so surprised to see the girl he had loved was suddenly crying so much. “eh, you why?”

“aku stupid, really stupid.” Later issuance. Donghae was certainly confused by this situation, making him panic himself.

___

It was night, and the air outside was cold, but the girl felt nothing. He wished he could die soon, with all that now befall him. He was still crying, hoping that his sadness would be slightly lessened along with his tears that kept dripping out.

“I can't handle it, it's too hard for me.” Hyunjin still sobbed, while burying her face on Donghae's shoulder, making Donghae's clothes wet with her tears.

“if you're sad, just cry. Didn't I say I'll always be your back when you're sad?” the namja gently rubbed Hyunjin's head, trying to calm her down.

“oppa, why are you so good? You should've cursed me, hated me. I've hurt you.” Hyunjin slapped Donghae's chest. He hates that name, why is Donghae always there when he needs someone to share his grief? it made her feel like a cruel girl, throwing away people as good as Donghae.

“what makes you like this? is it because of your mom and dad?”

“not just that.” Hyunjin took off Donghae's shoulders, gradually wiping away her tears. Hyunjin instantly fell silent, as Donghae slowly wiped his face with a handkerchief, wiping away the tears that had soaked almost his entire face. Why is it that the longer he looks like an angel?

“tell me slowly, I'll listen to him.” Donghae smiled sincerely, that smile could always make Hyunjin feel at peace.

___

Jino walked back and forth in front of Kyuhyun's room door, occasionally glancing at his watch and muttering softly. He was really worried that Kyuhyun would not return as soon as possible. Kyuhyun can get out of that house? Of course it's impossible. But thanks to Jino, the guards were knocked down after being given sleeping pills on their drinks. Soon the effects of the sleeping pills will disappear, and this will be the end of his world if the hyungya does not return soon.

“aigo hyung.. Where are you anyway?” Jino was really panicking at that moment. Kyuhyun could not be reached because he did not have a cell phone. His phone had been confiscated so he could not contact Hyunjin again.

Jino glanced at the two guards who were still sound asleep not far from her. “if they wake up, I'm done.”

But for a moment his face immediately turned bright when he saw Kyuhyun was already standing not far from before him. Kyuhyun walked away, with a face that was really unpleasant to look at. His handsome face was as if wiped away by the aura of darkness that enveloped him. Seen Jino can already guess, there must have been a bad thing between Kyuhyun and Hyunjin.

“hyung, thank goodness you've come. Quickly enter, before they wake up and find you outside the room.”

“why am I so stupid? I could've prevented him from leaving, but I couldn't.” Kyuhyun suddenly hugged Jino, his tears just dripping down. For the second time in her life, Jino saw her hyung was crying.

“hyung.”

___

Sunlight enters through the open window. Kyuhyun immediately woke up, staring at the glare of the reflected light from his bedroom window.

A woman in her sixties turned around, and smiled kindly at her. “you have woken up young master? Get ready soon, big master is waiting below.”

The new Kyuhyun would ask, but the sound of a knock on the door instantly made him turn his head in that direction.

Kyuhyun looked at the girl lazily, somehow his frustration returned again after seeing the girl in front of him. “what are you here for?” Kyuhyun asked.

“only stop by. Can't I see my future husband?”

“dream just you. How many times do I have to say it? I only consider you a sister, nothing more.”

The girl, Jung Yeoram, smiled. He had often received rejection from his beloved oppa, but only this time his attitude to him became that cold. He then walked up to Kyuhyun who was still sitting on the bed.

“what oppa rejected me because of that girl? Butwhy? Didn't you even know her for a long time? why can't you ever understand how I feel, oppa? I love you, more than anyone.”

“don't get stuck with that feeling of your childhood. You already know, I don't love you as much as you expect.” Kyuhyun turned his face away, unable to bear to see the girl who was hurt by him.

“we see, do you still love her after knowing her true self?” Yeoram smiled cunningly.

“apa?”

“ini. I hope you can open your eyes wide, you've been lied to by him.” Yeoram threw a thin brown parcel, the girl then walked out of Kyuhyun's room.

Kyuhyun did not care at all about it, but in his heart he was also curious. Finally Kyuhyun's hand moved to grab the package. It felt light, it seemed to contain paper. Kyuhyun opened it and took out the contents. He noticed it, and how surprised he was when he saw the photos.

“Hyunjin?”

___

Kyuhyun hurriedly went down the stairs. There were no more guards standing outside his room, so he could just as easily get out of the room. Then it went to the dining room, where the Cho family gathered to enjoy their breakfast.

“where did you get this?” With mounting emotion, Kyuhyun slammed the package containing the photos right in front of Yeoram, making the girl stunned and stopping the show smearing―roti―with his―selai― for a while.

Yeoram smiled with satisfaction, Kyuhyun's current reaction was indeed what he expected. Kyuhyun's angry? Of course, that's for sure. Which man wouldn't be angry knowing his girlfriend hugged another woman? Besides Kyuhyun knows very well, but he likes his girlfriend.

“how? do you want to keep hoping for him? Be aware oppa, he's just playing you.” Yeoram gulped down a glass of milk in front of her. Be relaxed, ignore Kyuhyun who has risen in blood because of this act.

“i ask, who did you get this from?”

“not important from whom. Isn't it important you know the truth?”

“sial!” Kyuhyun punched the wall next to him, leaving everyone silent for a moment. Even Kyuhyun's own father could only be speechless seeing his son like that. Kyuhyun came out, having previously snatched the key of his motorbike which happened to be placed on the table―Jino who took him a few days ago.

___

After college, Hyunjin went straight to the hospital. He wanted to replace Siwon to look after his mother. Since yesterday Siwon has continued to be there to look after his mother, and Hyunjin knows very well that his brother does not rest in the least, in addition he has to take care of his father's case.

Today Hyunjin came with Jiyoo, the girl continued to insist on visiting Hyunjin's mother. They had just arrived in front of the entrance, but suddenly someone pulled Hyunjin's hand violently.

“we have to talk!”

“Nothing to talk about!” Hyunjin forcibly took off her hand, from the person she knew was Kyuhyun.

“ alright, then let's talk here. What does this mean?” Kyuhyun flicked the brown parcel in front of Hyunjin's face.

“apa?” Hyunjin asked coldly.

“look at it yourself!” Kyuhyun gave it a rough fit. Hyunjin opened it, and how surprised the girl found her photos―which looked like she was making fun―with Donghae. Although in reality it's not like that. They did sit together, and Hyunjin just borrowed the shoulder to cry, nothing more.

Wasn't this last night, when I was with Donghae oppa? the girl was inexhaustible, where did Kyuhyun get these photos from?

“can you explain what that means?”

“nothing to explain. You're just wasting my time.” Hyunjin was about to leave, but Kyuhyun again held back his hand so as not to just leave.

“what is it because of this that you left me? Because Lee Donghae?”

“right, because of him.”

To Be Continue

usually Sunday can not up. jd I ajin script passable byk. .

I am the younger brother of Dr. Choi Siwon and the wife of Cho Kyuhyun apologizing for the lack of words and stories and thanking the reader.

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