Not Him

34

“I don't want to lose you.” Kyuhyun's voice rang out, looking extremely desperate. He still hugged Hyunjin's body, not intending to let go at all.

Hyunjin can't move, her body feels stiff. “why?” only that word can he put out. He still couldn't believe Kyuhyun was hugging him right now.

“have I told you that time? l loved you. It's not just a joke. I'm serious.” Kyuhyun tightened his embrace. Hyunjin's eyes widened, disbelieving Kyuhyun's words just now.

“why do you treat me like this Kyuhyun-ah? How do you feel about me, actually? I'm confused about you. Don't you like me? You yourself told me not to take that seriously.”

Kyuhyun was surprised, then let go of his embrace. He shook his head strongly, “t is not clear enough? I LOVE YOU.”

Hyunjin looked at Kyuhyun's eyes deeply, trying to find a lie there. Surely that name just wants to work on it again. But nothing, but it looks very serious. Hyunjin could even see Kyuhyun's eyes had already turned red. Oh my God, is Kyuhyun crying?

“me too, Kyuhyun-ah. I love you too. But you kept hanging me, you confused me.” Hyunjin said. Hyunjin's eyes began to get wet with tears. Once again, Kyuhyun managed to make her cry.

“you love me too?” Kyuhyun looked at him in disbelief.

Hyunjin just nodded weakly.

“I thought you and Donghae-“

“indeed, I liked it at first. But that was before I realized I was starting to love you. But you never gave me a chance to explain. You don't even want to wait for my answer. You keep dodging.”

“mianhae.. this is my fault.” Kyuhyun hugged Hyunjin again.

“can you clarify all this? I don't want you to make me confused again.” said Hyunjin on the sidelines of his stuffing.

Kyuhyun released his embrace and grabbed the girl's face. “I love you. From now on be yeojachinguku.”

“ini order or request?” hyunjin asked still sobbing.

“no, this is not a command or a request. It's a statement. From now on don't look at anyone other than me. You understand, hm?”

“ya! why seusikan?”

“you know? I'm always jealous to see you with another name.”

“Kyuhyun, why are you so romantic? It's like it's not you. Did you eat something wrong?”

Kyuhyun ignored the question, then re-clutched Hyunjin in his arms. All the weight on his shoulder seemed to have been lifted, he felt very light now. Actually he was ready if Hyunjin would reject him, but it turned out that the girl welcomed his feelings. He's happy amazing.

“Kyu, are you going to keep hugging me like this? many people saw.” Hyunjin asked doubtfully.

“oh, sorry.” Immediately Kyuhyun let go of his embrace. He scratched his neck in the wrong manner. Why did he suddenly get so nervous?

They walked side by side, but Hyunjin's heart kept pounding with nervousness. He couldn't even afford to just join hands with Kyuhyun. He kept a little distance, not wanting Kyuhyun to hear his heartbeat racing very fast.

The two of them immediately sat at the bus stop as soon as they arrived, but somehow they just kept quiet. But now it is not silent because of each other away, but because it is awkward with the thing they just experienced.

“Kyuhyun-ah.” call Hyunjin break the silence. It's not good if you just keep quiet like this. Kyuhyun turned his head while muttering softly.

“since when did you start liking me? Is it when we start fighting a lot?” hyunjin asked with a slight laugh remembering that.

Kyuhyun shook his head, signaling Hyunjin's guess was wrong, “ seconds in the hospital, our first meeting that time. You remember?”

Hyunjin gawking, “Ye? You liked me ever since? yep! it turns out you've been harboring feelings for me all this time huh? Why do you always torture me while working at the cafe?” hyunjin protested while pursing her lips in annoyance.

“itu.. hahaha. I'm just happy to prank you.”

Hyunjin glared annoyedly at Kyuhyun who was smiling triumphantly. “ish, sucks. Then..why didn't you say it a long time ago, if you like me?”.

“i've said it before, haven't I? You're the one who's insensitive.” Kyuhyun tried to defend himself.

“you said that at the wrong time, I had a doubt.” Deny Hyunjin do not want to lose.

“so you didn't believe me back then?”

“inally it was. But then I believe, but your attitude that makes me hesitate again.”

Kyuhyun gasped with Hyunjin's statement, he realized he was also wrong for avoiding the girl. “I don't know how to. The first time I said it was unintentional. But you just thought I was kidding. That pisses me off a little.”

“already, now we already know each other's feelings. So don't act stupid anymore and keep avoiding me.” Hyunjin said with great affirmation. When Kyuhyun was indifferent to her, it really made her tormented.

Kyuhyun nodded, “and you don't try to tease me with Yeoram again. That's one of the things that makes me think you don't have any feelings for me.”

Hyunjin nodded and looked back, too nervous to see only the shadow of Kyuhyun. Why is it like this? whereas in the past he was never nervous when with Kyuhyun – fine, maybe only occasionally.

Since then, Hyunjin has been trying hard to control her heartbeat. The girl continued to smile, the feeling she had felt on her first favorite name, now she felt again.

Donghaea..

Slowly the smile on his face faded, changing with an anxious look. Why could he forget this? There was Donghae waiting for him. But, he couldn't possibly let go of Kyuhyun, he couldn't possibly. Will he hurt Donghae? But anyway all this has to be resolved so that no one gets hurt any further later.

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