Not Him
26
Hyunjin sat pensively at the stop where she usually waited for the bus with Kyuhyun a few days ago. His tears had not stopped dripping since Kyuhyun's departure. He cries, crying for Cho Kyuhyun who just ignored him after saying that he loved him.
His heart ached, was it that easy for Kyuhyun to change his heart? Throw it away. If Hyunjin had no feelings for Kyuhyun and still liked Donghae, it would not have been like this. He will definitely receive Donghae and everything will go smoothly. His engagement to Donghae should not need any obstacles. But now? Everything that had happened from the start seemed to turn 180 degrees with this moment. Everything's changing. Her feelings - which she had doubts about before - had already established, that she also loved Kyuhyun. But what was the reply from the name? he just dodged.
Hyunjin continued to curse at how stupid she was. After this what should he do? Will he come to Donghae and say that he loves the namja too? No, it can't. Her feelings couldn't have changed that quickly, as quickly as she changed her feelings from Donghae and turned to Kyuhyun's heart. It's a lot heavier.
“you can get sick if you sit here for too long.” busy with his own thoughts, Hyunjin did not realize there was someone coming. The man knelt down in front of Hyunjin, then put the gloves on the girl.
“Donghae?” pekik Hyunjin was shocked at Donghae's sudden appearance.
“what are you doing here?” Donghae sat beside Hyunjin, ignoring the girl's question.
Hyunjin shook her head slowly, “not doing anything.”
“this is so cold. Don't you feel cold too?” Donghae hugged his own body, trying to resist the cold even though he was wearing thick clothes.
Hyunjin doesn't really care about Donghae. He was still crying. “why is everything like this? Didn't he say he loved me? Why is he treating me like this now?” Hyunjin muttered to herself, but the quiet made Donghae still hear her.
Donghae sighed heavily, then clasped Hyunjin's glove-clad hand from her earlier, “still I'm here.”
Hyunjin turned her head, her face implying a deep confusion. The thing that made him wonder is still the same as some time ago, “why did you change so quickly? didn't you say you didn't like me? You also refused to be betrothed. If this is just part of our game, you better stop it. I've decided, we can't have a fake relationship. It will hurt ourselves later. I don't want to lie to our family anyway. That-“ had not been able to continue Hyunjin sentence, Donghae immediately put his index finger on Hyunjin's lips, hinting at the girl not to talk any further. Can't he see the sincerity in his heart?
“do not talk again. I really love you. This is not pretending at all. Don't doubt my feelings.”
“why did you change that fast?” ask Hyunjin still while crying.
“are you not like that too? you changed your feelings for me in an instant.” Donghae's words immediately made Hyunjin's lips tightly clenched. What he said was on target, it was all true. Hyunjin himself also did not know why it could be this way. Is that his love for Kyuhyun? kyuhyun is just a namja he has not known for a long time.
“if you want, we can start over. I'll wait for you to learn to love me once again.” Donghae looked at him sincerely.
“i never even learned when loving you before.” Decak Hyunjin while releasing his hand from Donghae's grasp. “feelings cannot be forced. You yourself didn't say that?”
“indeed, but love can grow as time goes on. At least there's still a little gap in your heart for me, right? I'll try to take my place back.”Donghae smiled sweetly, making Hyunjin even more powerless to hold back her tears.
His heart was already locked completely by Kyuhyun, and perhaps only that name could open it. It would be difficult for him to go back to trying to force his feelings on Donghae. He won't hurt Donghae. No, he can't do that.
“now it's night, I'd better take you home.” Donghae got up from his seat, then grabbed Hyunjin's still silent hand unmoved. “ayo!”
Inevitably Hyunjin welcomes Donghae's helping hand and follows where Donghae pulls him. This time it felt different, he no longer thumped while with Donghae. Once upon a time, his heart almost jumped out every time he saw Donghae's smile. But Donghae's gentle treatment of her now created a feeling of warmth and comfort, he felt at ease near the namja.
Donghae opened the car door for Hyunjin, then he turned around and entered the other door in the driver's seat.
“after this, forget Kyuhyun. Open your heart once more to me.” Donghae said before his car drove through the silent night. Hyunjin did not reply, remaining silent. He feels sorry for himself. Will he hurt Donghae? That name is so good to him now.
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Donghae hand moves pull Hyunjin's long hair blocking her eyes. “but since the beginning I can accept you, maybe we are together now.” Donghae smiled wryly, recalling his stupidity back then.
Donghae wanted to wake Hyunjin up, but he felt unbearable. The girl looked very good at her sleep. Especially when he touched Hyunjin's forehead, his forehead felt hot. Hyunjin has been unwell since she met him at the stop. Donghae finally got out of the car and rang the doorbell in front of him.
He rang the bell several times, but no one opened the door. Donghae understood, it's already very late. Everyone must have fallen asleep, he thought.
Krieeett's..
The door opened, a tall namja standing in the doorway rubbing his eyes, looking still sleepy. “Nuguseyo?” ask the name while watching Donghae from top to bottom.
“You must be Hyunjin's sister, right? your name is Choi Minho?” donghae asked to make sure. He didn't want the wrong address. He had never been to this house before. This address he knew from his mother.
Minho nodded confirming Donghae's words. “hyung who?”
“aku Lee Donghae. I delivered your brother, but he's asleep now.”
“MWO? She slept...with you?” asked Minho who immediately rounded his big eyes, as if his sleepiness just vanished.
Donghae shook his head in panic, “It's not like that! I drove him home, and he fell asleep on the way.”
“oh, then where is Hyunjin noona now?” Minho chuckled in search of Hyunjin's whereabouts but he didn't see her at all.
“dia is in my car.”
“you've woken him?” ask Minho again.
“no, I can't wake her. Can you wake her?”
“ah, but Hyunjin noona will be very difficult to wake up when he is sleeping soundly. Let there be an earthquake even if he won't wake up.”
Donghae chuckled softly at Minho's honest talk, “then how?”
“can you carry him inside?”
Donghae was a little shocked to hear it, but he ended up nodding as well.
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