Not Him

24

“you're right it's okay? I think you should just rest at home, look at your face pale once.” Jiyoo unceasingly advised Hyunjin. But the girl just shook her head slowly, hinting that she was okay.

“but you really look unhealthy Hyunjin-ah.” Jiyo observed Hyunjin carefully. His eyes were puffy, and there were dark circles around him.

“I'm fine Jiyoo, really.” Hyunjin said while bowing her head on the table. They are currently in the college library. Hyunjin accompanied Jiyoo who was looking for her task materials. Jiyoo said she could go by herself, but Hyunjin insisted on accompanying her.

Hyunjin didn't go to the cafe. He does not feel well today. He was eager to go and meet Kyuhyun, but considering yesterday's events he felt a little hesitant.

Donghae entered the library, not expecting that Hyunjin was there too. He looked towards Hyunjin but immediately turned back. Thank goodness the girl didn't see it. It hurt, after what Hyunjin did to him. She is rejected, Choi Hyunjin is the only girl who dares to reject Lee Donghae.

But Donghae realized, it was all due to his own mistakes. Just try if from the beginning he did not do bad to Hyunjin, it would not be like this.

After Hyunjin's confession last night, they shut up. Hyunjin never dared to look at Donghae until he and his family came home. Honestly Donghae felt heavy letting go of the girl just like that. He was already in love with her, how could he forget her in an instant? Donghae will try to pull the girl back, though it will take some effort.

Donghae approached the table where Hyunjin and Jiyoo were sitting. “Annyeong.. can I sit here?” donghae asked the two girls. Hyunjin immediately looked up and revealed a surprised look on her face.

Jiyoo glanced at Hyunjin at a glance, but seeing that the girl was just silent, she finally nodded in doubt. “please.”

Donghae sat right in front of Hyunjin, making the girl desperately try to hide her face. He read the book – which he actually did not read-in front of his face, making Donghae so unable to see the face of the girl.

Minutes passed, they were silent with each other. Donghae wanted to talk to Hyunjin, but he had to abandon his intentions - especially considering they were in the library right now.

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Hyunjin stood across from the cafe, her eyes staring straight into the cafe covered only in transparent glass. He wanted to go in there, but his legs felt very heavy to step on. There he could meet Kyuhyun and ask for an explanation of the name, but what did he do? He just kept quiet and did nothing. He was too afraid to meet Kyuhyun.

Not too long the girl stood there, quickly she immediately spurred her steps away. He had never before experienced such a complex love story. He even often mocked his friends who cried because of a breakup, or those who seemed to fly into the air when in love with someone. But what happened to him now? It's even more painful than just parting with a lover, more than that. When he was faced with a difficult choice, but he had to sacrifice one. He can't run away from all this.

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Kyuhyun was quietly glued to his place, secretly watching someone across the street. A girl who has been looking at this cafe ever since.

Kyuhyun let out a disappointed sigh as the girl walked away, not getting into this cafe. He thought he could meet Hyunjin today, but in fact the girl did not come to the cafe. Is it because Hyunjin doesn't want to see him? Does that girl hate him now? Even in his worst thoughts he would not if it happened.

“dia didn't come today?” the sound of someone instantly made him shocked. Apparently it was Jongwoon, as usual always appeared suddenly.

“who do you mean hyung?” Kyuhyun asked pretending not to know the person Jongwoon meant.

“he wants to come or not, I don't care at all. What's his business with me?” Kyuhyun said coldly as he spread his shoulders unconcernedly.

Jongwoon grinned at her, “don't pretend behind your mask it's Kyuhyun, or you'll get hurt even more later.”

“I don't understand what you're saying hyung.” Kyuhyun just passed by. But Jongwoon's speech was still clearly in his mind, he secretly still thought about his words.

The mask.

Yes, it is true, all this time Kyuhyun's attitude is just a mask. Pretending to be cruel and arrogant to the girl, but her feelings are inversely proportional. Is he a hypocrite?

Kyuhyun could not concentrate on working. There's no Hyunjin in that place it feels so lonely. No one was joking with him, no one always made him feel upset, no one he was going to work with, and most importantly nothing made him more eager to come to work.

As hard as he was, Kyuhyun tried to get Hyunjin out of his mind. He thought that before the girl showed up, his life was fine, right? Once there is no Hyunjin he is still alive, his world will not just stop.

But, it all feels different. It feels flat, there are no colors in his life. Inevitably he admitted in his heart, Hyunjin's presence for these few days had brought change to him.

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Kyuhyun walked quietly to go home. Today everything went well, there were no obstacles at all. See? Without Hyunjin he could still survive. What does that girl mean to him? A toy? No, he never thought that way.

Kyuhyun's footsteps began to slow down, he felt that someone was following him behind. What is Hankyung? But it's impossible. Why is Hankyung repeating that stupid thing again? He sure is not Hankyung who is behind him.

Out of curiosity Kyuhyun turned back, but there was no one there. He felt a gust of wind blowing quite fast, making him close his jacket. He's really cold.

Kyuhyun raised his shoulders and then walked back. Still feeling anxious, he tried to stay calm. He does feel he is being watched lately, and he knows for sure his father will not stay silent after knowing his whereabouts now. But he doesn't care about that as long as he's not at “usik”.

Again the sound of the feet behind loomed over him. Kyuhyun was annoyed to death. Can't those people just let their lives calm down?

Krekk heard a strange sound from behind a tree not far from him. The voice was like a twig being stepped on.

Kyuhyun turned around, but he immediately laughed out loud right then and there.

“don't play hide-and-seek with me, Choi Hyunjin.”

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