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Nine Seventy

I feel relieved and worried. Indeed, after insisting with all my emotional strength, Reiki finally left Ken's apartment coldly. Yes, his face was sinister as I glanced briefly at the man before actually leaving here. But I don't care about him.

Ah, no. I don't think I care. I just feel like I need –more important– to explain to Ken than to follow Reiki's wishes. Though it is deep in my heart that I still have a taste for the grown man.

My hands are clinging to each other on my lap. My head is down because I feel guilty, or maybe it's more about feeling bad for Ken. I don't know. For sure I must immediately explain to the man who currently occupies a single sofa that has a distance from me.

"So this is what you want to tell me earlier, yes" Ken said in a flat voice.

I looked up but Ken wasn't looking at me. Oh my gosh, I don't know why I feel so sad about this distance that Ken created.

"Ken, I–"

"When, Ra?"

"Yes?"

"Since when have I been among you? Since when have you been hiding this from me? And since when did you find out about my relationship with him?"

I shake sadly. "Ken .. I just found out that you're cousins when he's engaged. 'You're the one who took me there."

"Trus why aren't you telling the truth?"

"What story, Ken? The story that I finally met her again who turned out to be your cousin? I don't know what to tell him to you. Because it was between me and him before that there was never a status. Oath, Ken. It was hard to finally escape her life but in the end I met her again at her engagement" I explained in frustration. "I never knew what I was to him. All the stories that ever existed between me and him were never clear. It's even too painful."

"But you shouldn't have hidden this from me,"

"I just have the courage to tell a story now. I admit it. And again, I'm not in a state of pleading for you to believe, forgive, or side with me, Ken. I didn't do that. I just wanted to tell you this without expecting anything from you," my breakup made Ken turn his head and look me in the eye. "From the beginning, I didn't have the slightest plan to engage more deeply with you. Not when I've had a bad story with your cousin. And people like you, I should have stayed away."

"What kind of people do you mean?" ask Ken beware.

"The rich, famous and powerful. I'm pretty sick of getting to know Reiki without trying to get to know you, Ken. Didn't I not know you from the beginning, even though you are very famous. But then I realized that I had wavered. You are too much fun to miss in my life. Your pleasant and annoying servant and your warm family, enough to make me feel comfortable and able to survive to this day." I wiped the tears that had just escaped on my cheek. "But you take it easy, I emphasize once again that I never intended anything while at your side."

"Ra .." call Ken softer than ever.

"When I was close to your cousin, I never expected much. I know who I am. I'm how small it is in your eyes. Then I would rather go from his life than survive but to be humbled. No matter what I feel. That's not important. Same, so do you, Ken. I know enough who I am. That's why I've never felt more like you just because I was scared. I'm afraid if I have the wrong taste–"

my sentence was interrupted because Ken suddenly came up to me and took me into his arms.

"I'm disappointed in you, but I also believe in you, Ra .. I understand how sincere your personality is."

I cried in silence, in Ken's arms. I let my tears wet her shirt and felt comfort from the warm rubbing on my head.

"I thank you for choosing me–" hearing her sentence made me instantly break away from her. "Why?"

"I'm not here to vote for you, Ken. I'm only here because I feel I have an obligation to explain to you."

"You mean?"

"I told you that I have no intention of approaching anyone part of the Maheswara family anymore."

"I'm Barata, not Maheswara."

"Also in reality you are a Maheswara too, Ken. Hence, after explaining this, I intend to pam–"

"You forgot what I said when Rei was around? I'll never let you go, Ra."

My gaze was fixed on him. He must know what my mind is now. "Same. Reiki will not let me go anymore, he said. And I know for a fact that he'll do it."

"me too. You should know that I'm going to– too"

"Then from that, Ken. Rather than me being the cause of your brotherly relations being bad, so I'd better go."

I sighed softly as I followed Ken who was leaning on our sofa. "With me you're in a bad state you're getting worse. It's getting worse."

"You're so stubborn, Ra."

"Nowevert? Not that you guys are so stubborn as to treat me."

Ken looked on inadmissive. "I? So I'm still not good at treating you? yeah except when you were my assistant, and took a lot of my orders, the rest I was really good, Ra. I love you so much, I'm not good at showing you off?"

I looked back at her eyes looking at me in her relaxed position. If only time could stop for now. Without me bothering to think about what impact would happen if I decided to be with him. I must be happy. But unfortunately, I have no power. I no longer have the strength to fight for those far out of reach.

"It's not good, Ken. But I mean it's all you want. You treat me as you like."

Ken widened his eyes for a moment. Then he turned and looked back at the ceiling. It baffled me until he finally said, "I accept you for who you are, Ra. Your body soul. Whatever it is."

Well, now my forehead is wrinkled. Looks like Ken has another meaning to that.

"I'm open-minded about relationships with the opposite sex,"

Ha's? What the hell is he talking about?

"I'm not going to judge anything you've done while you're still together. Because the most important thing is the future, not the past."

So it means ...

"I'm not a man who's going to fight over a virginity–"

fuckin.

"www!" ken shouted as I scooped his mouth with all my might. "It hurts, Ra .." she lamented as soon as I let go of my hand. He looked at me horror.

"Yes anyways, you!" with sewot and fierce I still hit his arm. "It's disgusting anyway."

"Well?"

"I don't like that. I–" I stammered in shame. Yes, the topic of an adult relationship is very sensitive to me. Although I'm not really innocent, but for that one stage I've never done it.

Ken's laughing amusedly now. His fingers even occasionally pinched my cheeks in a fit of anxiety. "You're so funny, Ra. I'm just saying you know! Somehow I believe that you are not the type of girl who is sexually active in relationships. Yes, although I'm sure you're not that innocent, but you're more innocent than not. Yeah, right?!"

I didn't answer. I prefer to stumble and pretend to be asleep.

"You are all that, Ra. Nothing yet, it must have been nyakar first."

"No, no."

"HA?" now Kenneth is in shock.

I held back my smile as I glanced at him. He doesn't seem to be angry with me anymore. "If you don't believe me, ask your cousin" my god got up.

Kenneth slapped his body on the couch and whined, "I'm heartbroken, Ra .. geez. .. The pain is not just in the heart, but in all the organs in my body. Yes in the kidneys, lungs, stomach ...."

"Complication of your dong."

"That's it ..."

"Udah ah, I'm going to sleep. Sleepy. Tomorrow we'll talk again."

The man ignored me. He was still complaining alone on the sofa, while I was walking to the other room to sleep.

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