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My backpack is ready, complete with the contents of some clothes –indeed the gift of Reiki– but I have sorted out some fruits for me to carry and I think I will be able to pay for one day.

I was determined to fly to Japan according to the ticket I ordered yesterday. There's still more than four hours until my plane leaves.

The night before bed, luckily when Reiki wasn't in my room, Mama called me. We talked a lot about all the good things about my days, my feelings, and what my plans were going forward. At the end of her talk, Mama finally said a fact that surprised me half to death. He said Papa was currently sentenced by doctors to suffer from blood cancer.

Oh God.

It was a big blow inside me. How could? How did that happen while I didn't know anything during this time?

To know Mama's explanation more clearly, then I have to see Papa immediately. I wanted to hug the man I loved most on earth and scold him. Yes, I will scold him first for lying to me. Why wasn't I told? Wh why? Am I not the only child they have. Then why is a secret of this magnitude still hidden from me?

After expressing my anger, then next I want to accompany his days who are in the hospital there. Yeah, I'll be filial while I'm still given the chance.

Why did my mom tell me? That's what I asked him last night. Apparently Mama didn't want to worry me. And again he said Mama did not want to ruin my happy day to be graduated.

What would my happy day mean if Papa was suffering, wouldn't it? But I better see how he is as soon as possible. Let my heart be at ease that Papa is currently doing well. I want to see with my own eyes.

It's just, do I need to tell Reiki? Ask her permission? Oh come on, he's not who I am. But it's best that Reiki knows I think, so that he doesn't do it later. Or he'll do things I could never have imagined.

I need to get Reiki to his office, where the man is right now. I have to speak well to him, and hopefully he doesn't have to make things difficult for me. I know very well the character of that man.

Huft.

Half an hour later I reached the office building which is located not far from the apartment. Johan who was beside me now showed me the way to immediately get to the elevator that could take us to the top floor directly.

"Om Johan, why are you trying to follow me?" ask me while I'm in the elevator.

"I have a need with the boss' secretary."

That was the only conversation between us. The rest I choose to be quiet.

Before long I had stopped at Reiki's office door. The door was a little open. And according to Johan, I'd better just go in. Johan was seen talking seriously to someone I now know as Reiki's secretary. She's male. I thought it was a woman.

I entered the room slowly. I was surprised to find a scene in front of me now. How can I not be surprised if it turns out Reiki is sitting in his chair WHILE holding me a woman.

Ah sure he thinks it's just a trivial thing. What if I was in his position? He will surely be angry.

See?

I can't trust him one bit. Of course I'm a fool if I still melt on every sweet word.

"Sayang–" Reiki slightly pushed the girl on his lap so that they were detached from her position. He got up and hurriedly stepped towards me.

"Stop!" I hinted with my palm. But he didn't care and immediately grabbed my body.

"Relange ..."

"Relin!" it was the voice of the woman who had been in his lap.

"Mary, out!" exciting Reiki.

"But, Rei–"

"OUT I SAID!"

The woman stomped her feet in annoyance at the clash of Reiki just now. Then he walked out saying, "Okay, I'm waiting for your call, Rei."

And the door is closed.

I was still silent in Reiki's arms that seemed to be regretting his actions. Oh I don't care! I'm tired of him. I was disappointed, hurt, or all this pain. And one thing is certain .. that I must not trust him again.

I can't be around him constantly.

"Darling .." she peeped both my cheeks, my forehead, my nose, and as she headed for my lips, I dug her up with my palm.

I shook weakly.

"He's not who I am" Reiki tried to explain to me. "He came to me and I haven't had time to turn him down,"

I'm not selugu it ...

"Listen–"

"No, you should listen to me, honey."

"I love you."

Her magic words made my heart flutter. Really, I was amazed for a moment. But really only for a moment. Because I'm not that stupid to trust him right away! No more.

"I love you, honey."

Now I am sure that my heart is stronger in the face of the attack of seduction and sweet words from him. Enough of the lessons I have learned from our time together.

I still stared at him flatly, waiting for him to finish what he wanted to say.

"Don't get me wrong, please .. don't,"

...

"Mas Rei .." I said after a while. I'd like to say that–"

"There can be no 'go'! Never say the word 'go'! Okay?"

I let out a breath. Trying to let go of her hand that was holding tightly to both of my shoulders, but she was unwilling to take it off.

"Relin!"

Reiki and I both turned to the source of the voice that suddenly came from behind me. Grandma stood there with her sharp gaze.

Reiki took my shoulder into his arms. We stand facing the grandma. I wanted to let go of this hug but Reiki was stronger. It's always like that.

"I know, grandma, whatever grandma had said to Azzura when she came to my apartment back then," Reiki's words jolted me to the point of turning to her.

"Good, if you already know it," answered grandma no less sharply. "It's obvious what we're fighting about here."

"It wasn't us, it was Grandma who took issue with it."

"Rei, you should be aware of who we are, who you are. Where can your future wife come from among ordinary people. Where does our family's self-esteem go?"

"Helena could marry by her choice. Why don't I?" challenge Reiki that scares me even more. This is not true. I made him fight his family. I'm the cause of their quarrel.

"Erlangga is still the son of your Papa's relationship. At least, he's still on par with us. And Helena's smart to pick a lover."

Enough already!

"Always the degree that grandma speaks of. Why Azzura? Less rich like us?"

"Mas Rei–" I was about to interrupt so that he would not say further rudely to his own grandmother.

"Shut up, honey. Let me do the talking," he said slowly.

"I want to talk too!" my voice was a little louder so Reiki turned to me. "Why didn't Mas Rei ask my opinion? Am I happy with you? Am I happy or not?"

"What?"

"Mas Rei never listened to me. You always impose your will. Just so you know, I'm not happy with you."

"Azzura–"

"You heard that, Rei," interrupted the grandma. That kid doesn't deserve you."

"I don't care what you say, honey. You'll stay by my side!" Reiki ignored her grandmother and will continue to defend me.

"Listen first–"

"No, Honey. Let me face–"

"MAS REI HEAR ME FIRST!"

I shook his hand off my shoulder. Take a step back, I hold my backpack tightly. His eyes keep watching me. Well, maybe it's time I end it all. Can't, can't want to. This has to end.

"I'm tired of all this. Your coercion, your restraints, and all your rules to me are nothing. We are nobody" I said back. "I hate this situation. I want to be free. I want to be myself. Because being around you I find it hard to just breathe. You are not someone who has a right to me.

"I hate you, Mom. Very ..."

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Don't ask ALTHAR, somehow now I'm very easy to lose the mood to continue Mimir with Athar. 😂