Just a Bond

Be done

"You're funny when you say that again." Suddenly, my head turned back towards him. This gaze highlighted her sharp self that was even chuckling. Ah, errata. He laughed instead. Though slowly.

I'm clucking. "Mas, please please deh. If you want to tilt, don't take me. What's so funny try? This is me again upset, the same upset Mas Farhan as well, but Mas Farhan can still relax, laugh ha-ha hi-hi like that? Is healthy?"

I quickly closed my mouth when I realized what I had just said. Highlight Mas Farhan's sharp eyes pierced through my eyes. What surprised me was that Mas Farhan suddenly sat right next to me. He kept looking at me sharply, making me secretly tremble again.

God, where did I get my courage from? Can I say that the same as Mas Farhan? That one just wasn't like me. Yeah no, anyway?

Mas Farhan's increasingly sharp gaze, made me less anxious. The fears were like the days that had passed when Mas Farhan began to get angry, as if he had re-entered his heart. I don't feel like I have the courage anymore. Even to apologize for my boldness in replying to Mas Farhan with such a remark, I did not dare.

I lowered my head while pursing my lips tightly. The fingers of one hand and the other began to interlock, as a sign of anxiety in the heart more and more.

"Mas, you ... What are you doing?" Obviously I'm in shock dong. At the previous moment Mas Farhan did not want to come into contact with me in the slightest, then at this moment, he suddenly hugged me.

Ah, anyone please. Please help me wake up. It's not a dream, is it? Ah, no. This is really, Mas Farhan hugging me.

"Don't be afraid. It should be me who is afraid, Najwa," he said as he stroked gently on my back. Please, Mas. Why is this all of a sudden, anyway? I want to feel like I said that. Because it felt like there was a strange swish running through my blood stream after Mas Farhan's hand landed there. However, I don't know why my tongue suddenly felt faint, so all I could do was just be quiet - not return the greeting.

But, wait! Should Mas Farhan be afraid? Mean what?

"I'm sorry for yesterday, this morning and in the dining room."

So Mas Farhan knew that yesterday I was secretly observing him?

I'm still mute. It was completely beyond expectations. Mas Farhan admitted his mistake and he apologized. Really, this is really unexpected.

Is this a sign that Mas Farhan wants to improve our relationship?

Don't let your guard down, Najwa! He could be trying to fool you. Don't baper! Please!

And somehow, when the good side of the self begins to appear, the negative side must accompany.

I'm still silent. Ah, errata. We are still silent in an unfriendly embrace, after the sentence his apology has not been responded to. I was really confused as to how to respond.

"Najwa, you want to forgive me, don't you?"

I'm still flinching. Maybe because there was not a single answer that he got, he broke his embrace, then looked at me quite deeply.

"Why should I apologize, Mom?"

"Because I know I'm wrong, and it should be that the wrong person apologizes."

Ah, very wise of his words, yes. I wanted to know if he realized any mistake. However, there is a sense of reluctance that then approaches the heart. There will be a flashback scene this morning. Oh, naw. I don't want to burn my heart with the fire of jealousy.

"Udah, Mom. Don't talk about it." I slightly shifted my body, away from Mas Farhan. Don't forget, being close to Mas Farhan still makes me nervous to know. Oops.

Ah, what does Mas Farhan want, anyway? So sweet to know.

Still holding my hand, Mas Farhan then said, "But I have to explain to you, Najwa. This morning I really didn't know that my HP was in Rifka." Well, right? He only remembers his mistakes, but before he had many mistakes with me. "I came here this morning-"

I pulled my hand, then raised it in front of him. "Please, Mas. I said, don't talk about it anymore. Who has passed, let it pass."

Because I'm lazy to hear your alibi, Mas.

"But I don't want any misunderstanding between us. I want to explain to you"

"What's? You want to explain, if this morning was so fun to talk to Rifka, to forget everything. You are angry with me because I said so, but you do not know where I want to say goodbye. HP also had to be left here, so it could meet again with Rifka. I do, don't I?"

Seeing Mas Farhan was silent, I deliberately used to talk again. Rarely will I have the opportunity to convey uneg-uneg with him. Just the time I nagged, she could really open her eyes.

"Why just that one? You never realize, do you with your mistakes yesterday?" Seeing Mas Farhan's face made me even more upset. The intention to relax themselves even became chaotic. I regretted letting her sit down earlier. If time could be repeated.

Oh Allah, astaghfirullah. Do not imitate my habits that like to dream like this, yes.

"Have a good time, my. Why also apologize? You never know what you have been doing all this time. When I asked you about changing intentions or not, you didn't answer, did you? Even go out of nowhere. And now you're like gini, as if your intentions had changed. I'm tired, Mas. Stop acting like this."

"Why are you so hard to believe in me?"

Waw. Look at my husband's response. That's great, isn't it?

I chuckle softly. "Mas, Mum." My head was frowning - not thinking about my husband's exalted behavior. "Don't blame me if I can't believe it with you. You realize, don't you, anyway? From the beginning that made my trust destroyed it was you, Mas."

Ouch. If I had not remembered to remain polite before him, I would have laughed out loud. Alright, the intention for relaxation in this place has failed, I must find another means of self-relaxation. I got up from my seat, then turned a little towards Mas Farhan.

"Udahlah, Mommy. Nothing needs to be explained as long as what Mas does is just an alibi, and tries to defend himself from being blamed. No, I'm not gonna turn on Mas Farhan. Don't be afraid." Because what's wrong is that I dropped my love for you too quickly.

"Najwa, I beg you."

I looked at Mas Farhan's face this time. Oh my God, I was confused myself. Mas Farhan is sincere isn't he, sorry?

"Yes, the point is Mas Farhan apologized for that one, right? Yes, I'm sorry. Huh, isn't it? I'm going to the room. Dizziness, peeping rest."

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Hi, I'm coming again. What about this part? Comment dong. Don't forget the likes and votes, yeah. Thank ye.

Sumenep, Madura, East Java

Saturday, 14 August 2021