I'M BETWEEN YOU AND HIM
DIVINE DOOM
Monday I started back at work. Back to drowning yourself in the busyness. With Rosa and Mas Anang. Rosa once again tickled me with her piled up work. I deliberately covered my illness from the people around me including Ranti as well. For not wanting to turn their views into feelings of pity for me.
Fortunately after 4 days passed Mas Anang put me to take care of our new factory in Citayam. At least I can go home Citayam-Bojong Gede with less time. I also invited Mul and Jabrik to come live with me in Bojong because they also work in a new factory. They can go back to Mount Sahari every Friday afternoon and come back to live with me on Monday night. That's how it is every week.
Thank God, I am always surrounded by the best and positive people who are able to arouse the spirit of my life.
Arif also visited our new factory and told us that Vika was also charged in another case. Money laundering case with her now ex-husband.
I'm glad to hear that. Vika will not harass Ranti and Jingga for a while during her imprisonment. Alhamdulillaah!
I am grateful that Vika finally got a reprimand from God. I hope it can turn in a better direction. That is all my prayer.
Once every 2 weeks I have to control to check up and get drug doping. Hhh.... Boring for a long time, but what power. I still want to see the smiles and babbles of my children. I have to fight, I have to be passionate even though it is heavy I think. I must survive.
I got a phone call from Arif.
"Yes, Rif? When we meet for a month, you miss Rif again?" I said teasing him through the hape.
"Dik! You better go see Vika! You have to see for yourself!"
"What the hell!? Not exactly what you said, Rif! Nevermind! I don't want to deal with that woman anymore. I also handed it all over to the police. So let them take care of it and take care of the case!"
"Vika is in Sources Sane, Dik! Meet him just this once! I'm not pushy, but at least you already know his condition now after seeing it firsthand!"
"Isn't the prostitute in West Jakarta police custody?"
"That's it! Look at him in Grogol, Dik!"
I gasped at Arif's news. Finally I decided to visit him at Sumber Waras which incidentally is the Mental Hospital.
I was surprised to see how he is now. With very appalling circumstances. His legs were tied to the right of the patient's iron bed. Hhh....
"Mas Dikaaa..... You finally came to see me!!! Aaah pleased!... Mas, when do we ijab kabulnya, mas? I am now free.... We could get married. We'll be happy..... We honeymoon to Raja Ampat huh, mas?? I want to dive to see the underwater scenery, mas!... "
"Yes, mas.... Orange is coming with me! Peepy... Orang to sleep! Don't be noisy, don't be bothered? Just bother me, hehehehe..."
"Mas, hug me mas!... Why did you tie my feet? I'm not leaving you again, Mom! Really!! Bukain dong! I can't hurt you to be khan!" he said again in a whispering voice still occasionally turning towards the doll lying beside him.
I just gulped and sighed.
Oh God! Is this your punishment for me and him? You gave me cancer while Vika was mad? Masya Allaah Tabarakallaah!!
Hhh.... Is this the story of my life, God? Is it like the soap operas of the doom of a flying fish station? Maybe yaaa. , 'cause that's what it is. Every action will have a reply. What we sow, that's what we reap. Right, huh??? Hhhh....
"Maaaas, where are you going??? Ooh I know, you want to go to the tailor? Want a tuxedo for our wedding??? Yeeeeey, you sure look dashing and cool with a tuxedo, mas! I am looking forward to it, Mom!! Dika kita, honey boney sweety-kuuuu!! Muecht, muaaacht, muaaaaacht.....! I love youuuuu..... More n moreeeee..... Bye bye loveoooo!!!"
I leave feeling unfulfilled.
Hhh.... Vika and I have a punishment. This time I was not angry with God. I see, this is the power of God. How weak I am before Him. Whatever God wants, kun fayakun.
God gave me punishment because I deserved it. God rebuked me because God loves me. I understand that very well. Proof that God loves me, by sending many good people during my journey of love that is like a roller coaster is so exciting. There were so many great people who stood by me during this ordeal.
I became acquainted with Bang Sobri, someone who always protected and guided me. I also have two rowdy younger brothers, Mul and Jabrik, who have faithfully entertained my days. I also became very close to Rosa and Anang's husband Rosa, who always helped me in every way. Though as I remember when we were both employees of Pak Anjar in a large company, we rarely greet each other. I also got the adoptive father of a conglomerate named Pak Anjar, who unexpectedly gave me some of his wealth.
I could be the favorite child of Mbah Kardi and mbok Sartijah because I can sleep among them during their stay in Cilempung village.
More pleasing to my heart, my father gave me full affection before he was called the Almighty. Also what I am most grateful for is having a new brother like Arif Borne who was able to reunite me and the separate Orange a few years ago.
I happy. Though he must accept his punishment. I accepted it with a sincere smile.
Just one wedge of my sadness. I'm sad that Ranti hasn't found her happiness. Ranti is the victim of the crime I committed with Vika. But why should he suffer the pain that he should not have. Hhh...
O Allah, the All-Mighty! Please ask again and again, happiness for Ranti, O God!... I want to be able to smile calmly leaving this world after witnessing Ranti's happiness. At least if he is happy, my son Orange is certainly happy. I can go quietly if I see the happiness of both.
The best jewels of the world are the wife and son of the sholeha. But it's all his nature. Our love for human beings in the jewelry of the world, when it is time we part. Only good practice comes with us entering the burrow. That is all that can help us from the painful torment of the grave. Subhanallah wa laa ilaaha illallah wallahu Akbar!
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