I'M BETWEEN YOU AND HIM

RANTI OPENED MY CARD 2

"Yeah, mom?...." Ranti grunted softly.

"If you love me wholeheartedly, you won't be tempted as beautifully as Vika, no matter how sexy she is. He gave you everything. Money and power! Make your subconscious follow it. According to all his wishes."

"He always follows me! I am not a man hungry for wealth and money. I'd rather work hard on my own results. You know me not for a year and two!" I'm inflamed. I was angry Ranti was wrong to judge me.

"Yes, that's true. But your subconscious believes, if there is a chance why should it be missed? So khan?" Again I just fell silent.

"You also don't love me wholeheartedly, when you don't think long and don't even try to prevent me from asking for a divorce, ma'am!"

"That's because I don't want to hurt you for much longer. I'm aware of my huge mistake with you, Ranti!"

"really? Isn't it because you're still hoping to start a new life with Vika, mas? I didn't guess wrong khan? You fantasized about living happily after you received the prison sentence because Vika would smile sweetly to welcome your return like a riding prince. So khan?"

"You're wrong Ranti! I haven't been able to cut ties with Vika because of my position in prison. And I promised to solve our problems without anyone getting hurt, either you or Vika. I am a man who holds fast to promises, Ranti! I don't want to break a promise to Vika who wants the three of us to be okay!"

"That, mas? You are a real man who holds fast to your promise to Vika? Who gave you the dream to live together with my permission? Then the three of us live happily side by side forever? That's what you mean, mas?"

I was again cornered. Ranti's words were exactly like my mind.

"And mas, if you are so strong in remembering your promise to Vika to be able to solve your problems so that you can stay together with the marriage bond, what about your promise to me, mas?... You remember your promise to Vika, but do you remember your promise to me? Remember?"

I can't answer. Besides forgetting what I promised Ranti. I was afraid that answering would backfire on myself.

"Remember your promise to me, man? Your promise before God, witnessed by my marriage guardians, father and mother, was confirmed by the ruler and also many witnesses who attended our marriage! Isn't your promise to me more sacred than your promise to Vika that looks like a baby monkey's love? Which is more important to you? Answer, mas! I'll hold your promise to me accountable first."

Again the big hammer hit my head until dizzy. Sore tears unconsciously dripped down both of my cheeks.

"You are a believer. You also don't like those wild-collar guys out there. But you easily forget your promise that God wrote in your book as your good deeds because marriage is really looking for the reward of heaven, right? You always mention Allah, but you also underestimate Him because your promise to me is with the permission and the pleasure of Allah!"

I cry and I can't control my emotions. Ranti really skinned me all out. And his words are all the truth.

Oh Allah..... It turned out that everything Ranti said was not wrong. I just realized my true self. But Ranti already knew my personality before myself. Yes Allaaah......!!! I'm run over again. Struggled with tears on the floor.

I turned out to be uglier than a dirty, smelly kitchen mat. I'm inferior to brigands and ruthless sadistic killers. I'm really pathetic!

"You remember me? Just realized? New engeh? Where have you been all this time? Struggling to lift yourself and your dignity to the same level as other human beings with your prayers and tears so that God will give you the opportunity to avenge all your pain and grudges on those who once insulted and hurt feelings? Yes khan?.... But you forget, God is the holder of all rights and the life of every creature of His creation! Even you forget the thing that must be the most important part that you must always remember for the rest of your life. Because your promise is not just to me! But to God, to my parents, to the people who attend our Walimahan, ma'am!"

I cried as I got further and further into the dark hole.

"I'm sorry, ma'am. I didn't want to say anything rude to you at first because I realized it was my destiny. But you're the one who finally made me roar rudely, taking out my vows and uncooks all along. You cornered me on and on! Though all this time I have accepted my fate with a spacious chest because I can not take care of you well until finally losing yourself that is increasingly changed, mas! I'm not your old Ranti anymore, mom! I've changed, mas!"

I bowed down at Ranti's feet. Crying, roaring for his forgiveness. I reached Ranti's feet but she avoided me.

"Diminish your voice! I don't want my newly healed son to wake up and be shocked to see his miserable papa like this. And I also don't want to be reprimanded by the neighbors for making a scene in the middle of the night blind."

"Ranti...sorry me, Ranti! Pardon me! I'm ashamed of myself. Shame on you if it turns out my attitude and behavior is so great the effect on you and the people I care about. I want to make up for it by trying to make you and Orange happy!"

"I will obey all your desires and Orange, Ranti! I will always remember my fatal mistake until I no longer and never stumble a second time. Give me a chance, Ranti! For the sake of the orange, our baby. Our pride!"

"You still love yourself, mom! You just want your life to be as stable as it used to be, right? Even now you only consider me one stick that can support your table that is lame because of the lack of one leg. Right khan? You need me to reign over your life again by walking proud and arrogant, proving that you are a special human being who even though God punishes you but you can still survive and return to being a perfect human being. That you want khan, mas? Not to rebuild our broken home. Your intentions are not that!"

"It's not true, Ranti! .... I want to start again with you. Knitting back our love that was cut off because of my selfishness and arrogance. Let's wake up again from the beginning! With my new personality and your new personality as well. All for orange happiness. Wouldn't he? Let's reunite our vision and mission, Ranti!For true love."

"What kind of household? Which is how, mas?... I'm already hopeless! I now realize that the house we built was a mistake, a failure. Lack of preparation and understanding!"

"Why do you say that, Ranti? That means you also deny the presence of an orange in our midst!"

"No! Orange is the only success of my life, ma'am! The orange is the most beautiful gift that God has given me. But the building foundation of our household that has been wrong since the beginning. Because the household is actually formed by two people with different personalities. Want to understand the character and nature of our partner by courageously accepting his shortcomings. Not with the intention of turning him into someone who is in accordance with our wishes. If you still hold that understanding, everything will be destroyed and free."

"You know what, mas? True love is when we see the true form of our partner without any intention to judge it and change it as we wish. Not mas! True love is to stand strong until the end, despite any trials and obstacles.accept all its shortcomings and be ready to commit to yourself as bad as the nature and habits of the couple. That's real love, mom! Even if the couple is changing for the better and according to your standards, it's a change from himself who really wants to change because he values love."

"True love appreciates and gives each other. Not busy thinking about the rights that we have to accept until what seems to be only the ugliness and ugliness of our partner. That's my opinion, mas! Don't think!"

"I love you more, Ranti!"

"Prove your love for me! Not just with a sweet word that comes lightly from your lips!"

"I'll prove it, Ranti! Wait for me!"

"okay!... And now, I'm sorry.I kicked you out of my house!"

"Later!...It's gonna be 3 in the morning. How am I supposed to get out of here in the middle of a blind night like this?"

"You have sense. You have a brain. And you're a highly educated man away from me who's just a high school graduate. You probably know better how you got home. Whatever, it's none of my business! And if you don't want me to get angry and close your access to Orange, you better follow my words! You can visit Orange again after 4 weeks!"

"Four weeks? Too long Ranti! I can't help but miss the Orange!"

"You agree, or I'll shut you down forever. I could've taken the orange away from you. I could do it all this time!"

"good. I agree to it."

Ranti opened the door to her house for me who was still sitting on her ceramic floor.

I just took a deep breath. He thinks that has changed a lot now. My reflection has really changed. But I love her and I will prove my love to her. I have to fight harder, no matter how.

I swallowed slowly walking out. Ranti closed the door of her house quickly. My wet feet stepped on something stinky and disgusting. My vomit. Oeeek!!!

I tiptoed around looking next to my sandals. While closing my nose. Hhhh.....

You're stupid today! What a fool for your shameful behavior. Like a satan who has no purpose to enter the body of people who lack faith. Maybe I'm eleven-twelve with the demon plinth. Astarghfirullaahhhh! O Allah, forgive me for this weak faith, O God!

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