I'M BETWEEN YOU AND HIM

NOW I'M AFRAID SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN TO HER

I came home with an empty heart. Worry looms over Vika doing stupid acts again. I've read books, people who are unstable in their minds can do reckless. And Vika is being conditioned.

Before I left him alone in his house, I asked him again for his promise to take good care of himself. Do not do stupid things that harm him. And Vika agreed.

"If I am fierce and speak harshly, it is my care. Don't put your heart in. Okay?" I asked Vika to understand if I would one day snap at her again.

"I'm home, right? Remember my message, draw near to God. Can you pray khan? Minimal praying, ...God will give you happiness if you sincerely ask."

Vika looks at. A sweet smile hugged me tightly. As if I were going far away, I became even more afraid of leaving him alone.

"Would you like to stay at our house again? You can sleep with Ranti. Wanna?" ask me to answer his head.

"I'm not okay, mom! I used to sleep alone. Go home, you must be tired all day working." he said coaxing me home. My feet feel heavy stepping.

"I'm afraid you're doing something I don't want to do, Vika!"

"Ga, mom! I promise khan to you. I'll be a strong woman like your door. I really don't want to let you down with me!"

"If you break your promise, I'm really angry, Vika! Tomorrow make me salted squid oseng use chili ijo yes?"

"Sorry, my money's up!"

"Why didn't you say that?"

"I'm ashamed, ask you to continue. Keep pushing you!"

"Yes, I went to the minimarket first huh? Get the money at the ATM nearby! You wanna come along? Want to buy something for your needs? Come on!"

"I'm waiting at home, Mom!"

"Vickas!.... Hhhh.., I have to do more so that you can believe my words."

I closed my face worried. And when I opened my hand from my face, Vika suddenly kissed my cheek. I'm surprised I'm not playing.

"You're so sweet when you're sulking! I promise you, I won't worry you anymore. I'm sorry, but I'm khilaf! I wait at home while making ginger wedang ya!?" I breathed a sigh of relief after seeing Vika's smile behind the red tinge on her face.

I took a million for Vika until we met the buyer. I have to be more patient with Vika who has the opposite nature of me and Ranti. I should be able to understand his character who was used to being pampered since childhood. Much different from me.

After sipping wedang ginger made by Vika. I came home because it was night. My watch shows at 10 o'clock. It's been quite a night.

Although relieved because of Vika's promise earlier. But my heart is empty. There's something left, I don't know. Like it's holding my heart.

I pray in my heart, may God keep Vika from bad things.

Ranti opened the door with her eyes

sleepily.

"Sorry, I came home too late!"

"The face is very pale. Must be a lot of work, right!? Have you had dinner yet?" ranti asked me to hold her tight. Trying to calm my troubled heart.

Ranti put me inside. Show her baktin' to her husband by opening my shirt that smelled bad. I know, she's a very good wife. Although his eyes were a little sleepy, but he served me without many words.

"I ate, which! To have a bath, it doesn't feel good that this body is so sticky!"

"How about I cook some water first, right? Let's take a bath with warm water."

Ranti obeyed my words. He entered the room again accompanied the sleeping orange.

I was alone in the bathroom. Lowering my body temperature and my heart's turbulent mess with our bathroom shower.

I can go crazy too, I murmured in my heart. The shadow of Vika's face covered in deep sadness flashed through my mind. Her pill cry slashed my heart. A tight hug showed her fear looming over me. Vika! What's happening to me now.

Another incident occurred when Vika almost jumped out of my car. If that happens, I may be dealing with the police at this time. And I imagine Ranti crying all night. Cry over me and Vika. Not to mention my 2-year-old son Orange less so disturbed sleep at night. Hhh....!

I need to get to bed fast. Rest to recover my tired mind after this body. Tomorrow morning everything is back to how it was. Missing all the turmoil alternates a sunny day with millions of happiness. Aamij!

I hugged Ranti from behind. Sleeping like that helps me forget everything that happened today.

...

My eyes glanced at the clock in my hands. Again. It felt like a long time to wait for the break to arrive. I hope Vika comes with her cooking for my lunch. I could breathe a sigh of relief when I saw Vika's face. I'm worried about him, but I don't know what to do. Contacting him is absolutely impossible because of the constraints of communication tools that do not exist. Yep. Vika hasn't had another phone since she followed me from Batam to Jakarta.

I actually had the intention of buying him a cell phone. But I think, it's better for Vika to buy it herself according to her taste after she gets her house money later. And again at that time I was still thinking long to spend money for the sake of Vika's lifestyle. For me the needs of his daily life were more important then. It seems that everything is out of my control.

"Sir Dika, there's a lunch delivery!"

"Yes, thank you. The guy who drove her is gone, is he?" ask me enthusiastically at the office boy who delivered my lunch.

"It looks like it's still downstairs, sir! Had a chat with mbak Cecil lobbied."

"Okay, thank you!"

"Good, sir! You're welcome."

I immediately darted off to see Vika. Worrying that he left without even having time to thank him.

"Vikaayo!" call me half yelling. Making some people in the building lobby turn to me including Vika.

"Mas Dika! I'll go home, I'll have lunch already I've signed in OB!" vika said with a sweet smile as usual while waving her hand about to pass away.

"Wait, Vika! You koq so gini change anyway? Usually want to keep sticking with me, already like a chick ngintilin parent!" I snorted angrily making Vika laugh.

"Sorry mas! I will go home and wait for you. Hehe.... I told you Cecil would be his new neighbor!" vika said to make me smile. It's good to see Vika back as excited as ever.

"Udah, eat first. The mump is still hot. Cold it tastes bad. Why seek me out? Is it the same with me?" the god half whispered in my ear. I glared at him making him close his laughing mouth loosely. Waving hands rushed out of the building.

I returned his hand.

"Thank you, special lunch!" I said make him laugh while nodding.

"I want a date with Ranti. Don't be jealous, mom!" he said before disappearing behind the door of the Graha building. I smiled happily. Walk back to my office located on the 6th floor of the Graha building.

Whistling smells of salty squid that are appetizing. Read the prayer eat in the heart and eat it with greed. Delicious cuisine, praise my little heart.

I realized, my meeting with Vika was all with God's permission. All He Is the Most Organizing. For that, I now only accept the provisions of his destiny sincerely. I hope this relationship is healthy. Pure friendship without the forbidden spark of love. I just feel sorry for Vika. And it is also my duty to help my fellow-people of God. That'sthat's all.

Although sometimes now the shadow of Vika's face more often crossed my mind. I hope this is nothing. Hopefully this is just my worry that is afraid of anything happening to him.

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