I'M BETWEEN YOU AND HIM

MY TIME WITH YOU

This week I can leave after a few weeks barely have time for Ranti and Jingga.

We have been so busy lately. Right after Vika came into our lives. There is always a busyness that makes us even further away so it is difficult to communicate from heart to heart as before.

I asked Ranti to turn off her phone. So did I, turn it off first. Today I would like to take my wife and children on a picnic in a suburban Jakarta park. I don't want the phone ring to interrupt my time with Ranti and Jingga.

Departing early in the morning, at 6 with some supplies and equipment, we went three. I want today to be just us, the nuclear family. After the business of travel umrah for father and father is finished, I think this is a good time to relax for a moment. Take a break to relax before father and father umrah one more week.

Bogor city air that is still morning is so clean and cool. Although the morning vehicle from the direction from Jakarta began to be crowded, but Ranti and I were quite satisfied because we were not stuck in traffic.

I named a piece of carpet that we deliberately brought to sit back to enjoy the beautiful garden view. Looks so happy orange running around with Ranti who is chasing behind him. I laughed a little watching my son's behavior just puppet.

This scene was once my dream. Take your wife and kids out for a picnic in the open. Enjoy a beautiful day without much burden of mind and a place of recreation that drains money. Just sitting in the park. Play along. Joking together. Bringing our own food that we will eat. I always imagined all of that. Especially when I was a bachelor, did not have an established job let alone a partner. If I daydream it, there must be a drop falling on the left corner of my eye. Mournfully. Remembering the bad times of my trouble.

Now I have everything. Thanks to my effort, hard work and prayers all this time. God has granted all my prayers. Therefore, it would be foolish of me if, when I have everything, I act ignorant and have no gratitude for it.

These few days I'm almost out of control and jumawa. Because there are other women who follow me always. Trying to give me a place of comfort other than my current good life. With Ranti and Orange. Should I be the bad guy for both people who have always been there long ago and now. From the beginning I was a nobody, always supporting me to be what I am today.

Like a dream, Vika suddenly came to my life. Like lightning without rain. Like a fire without friction. Almost shook myself because of his arrival which I initially considered unlucky even turned into a miracle. Gave me so many advantages even I never thought of speaking to my parents this fast because of the blessing of Vika's arrival.

Sometimes every prayer I realize this is the path that God gives. Maybe this is actually a test for me. Imagining having tens of millions in my savings just never. Suddenly now there is a savings account in my name with a nominal 1 billion. Not to mention the 2 billion nominal time deposits. Is this real money or monopoly money? Sometimes I still don't believe the truth. A beautiful woman who continues to hunt me gives him attention and comfort, continues to urge me to always by his side take care of all his finances.

Indeed, all this is also not separated from his attachment to my wife Ranti. Everything is so perfect God arranged for me. It almost made me dazed and lost my way for a moment.

"Yes!... Can we break our relationship with Vika?" ask me to Ranti after we are satisfied to play with Jingga. And Jingga is now sleeping soundly in Ranti's arms while breastfeeding on Ranti's chest.

"Why mas? Koq suddenly said that?" ask Ranti. I took a deep breath.

"I'm getting dizzy, same as him!"

"Hehehe.... That's Vika mas, if you want it to be followed. But he's actually a man who can't manage koq, mas!"

"I have to keep taking care of her finances, which? You want me to constantly have to hack him, who? You think I'm happy about that? How heavy I am, hold that much money. Think about how to make the money go around.... What do you think this is all hard? Not to mention the nature of the drill which makes me more uncomfortable. But if I let go of hands, I was afraid to say only the benefits of the money. It was his money that made me the heaviest burden."

"It is precisely this belief that incriminates me. I prefer my old life. Although tired of a lot of work. Dizziness towards the end of the month, but I enjoy it! I can sleep well. I'm not scared."

"But if we release Vika to be independent from us, I'm afraid she'll fall again! Money runs out, later it turns out he came back to ask us for help. Are we going to be able to accept it? Will we reject it too?"

I'm silent. Ranti's right. But honestly, that's not all I'm afraid of. What I worry about is if my heart falls. Falling into the trap of Vika's love. Can you accept all that when it happens, Ranti. I dare not tell him the truth. Though all this time, I never covered anything from Ranti.

I am an ordinary man. A normal guy who has bad instincts too. Especially if almost every day the temptation comes to me. I was lured to accept it. And I'm not like other men who have to bother with a sweet mouth to get other pleasures besides home enjoyment. I just have to accept it in front of my eyes. Stay sitting sweet eating luxury dishes in front of me without having to find let alone steal. How could I not be tempted? Randy! Doesn't your heart's instinct vibrate, feeling that your best friend could steal me from you? Is it so pure that your heart is far from negative thoughts or are you stupid to never have the slightest suspicion of me or Vika? Or do you trust me that way?... I have a lot of questions myself.

I love you too much, Ranti. I don't want to share my heart with others. Even though it's my best friend who's pretty and bears a lot.

But I'm also a regular guy, Ranti! A man who can be afraid if there is too much temptation in front of my eyes.

"You better manage all the finances, huh who? Find a place for Vika to open a business. Give input too, want to open what business. Resto or boutique. You khan fellow women. Must have known each other more. Please don't involve me too often?"

"Why, mas? I have a Jingga mas! Still breastfeeding too. I could not accompany him too often by bringing the orange to and fro. I know you're tired of making money too. Not to mention that a lot of work in the office was also added again I had to tell Vika to take care of as well. Even Vika once proposed, how if we open a joint business. Mas quit his job at the now-franchised resto company. So he was in the Vika company. He said for a small PT, the money is enough for capital."

"Huhuh? Quit work? Aisshs.... I worked there for 20 years! You'd forgotten? Where do we have all this, if not from the results of my hard work so far in the company that! You'd forgotten? Where we used to get married, make a simple reception, if not from my loan in the company. Now..... On the basis of your friendship with that woman, you told me to stop just to be the one who is not yet clear about her future? Ranti!..."

"Sorry, mom! That's Vika's proposal. I didn't think too much about that, either."

"You really don't have bad thoughts if your best friend is too involved in our household life? Even my father and father have not so far interfered in our personal affairs, which is!"

I'm on the blood ride. Upset with Ranti who seems to have become a loyal follower of Vika. He doesn't even care about my heart and feelings. I'm mad at him. I buried Ranti until we returned to Jakarta leaving the Bogor city park with a broken heart.

"Mas! Vika called me a few times. Now he's at my dad's house he said. I'd love to, if we stop by Dad's house, and take Vika home?" ranti said somewhat flatly. Apparently he reactivated the phone, making my blood boil.

"Bodo. I want to go home! Cape!"

Ranti silent. He knew I was like this. If he continues to force me, there will be a third world war between us.

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