I'M BETWEEN YOU AND HIM

DETENTION PERIOD

A new trial was held after almost 4 months in prison. A time I cannot express in words. It's not a good thing, it's fun to tell. Even compared to 23 years of my distress, it's still better to be blasphemous in a cell by mistake.

I was too afraid to defend myself. Because I know, it's purely my fault. Vika is trying to find a more bona fide lawyer who can save me from the prodeo hotel later. But still, I'm guilty. Arif is stronger than I imagined.

It seems like Arif has a grudge rooted in me and Vika. He really wants to destroy me and Vika. After he asked for compensation for the divorce receipt barter with a fantastic price on Vika that is 2 billion compensation for all moriil and material grief due to Vika left for several months. Great, Arif's cunning brain! Now he's also suing me 1 billion for my mistake of taking his wife to immoral deeds and impregnating her. Hhh.... He's really smart about draining Vika.

While Ranti since the second day I was detained, no longer visit me and even call me just asking about my situation.

Vika said, Ranti closed all access for me and Vika. Ranti disappeared somewhere. Maybe go home to Pondok Gede or to Depok his sister's house. I just pray Ranti and Orange are always healthy and God take care of them.

I'm just a loser who's now completely devastated by my mossy and arrogant behavior.

Vika's stomach is getting bigger and bigger. I cried in her arms before the hearing in a few days. Usually I'm the one where Vika hugs, but this time it's the opposite. Vika stroked my head slowly. Also shed tears. There was no word of consolation coming out of his lips because he could not say anything.

The small company he had just built with Ranti was finally auctioned off for the future cost of our unfinished business. I'mtired. I surrendered. Even though I am still grateful Vika is still beside me in my downfall. But I was sad, could no longer be a man in Vika's eyes.

Not to mention the company I work for also fired me disrespectfully because of a fatal mistake that affected the good name of the company. It turned out that there was little I had to sacrifice from my playful attitude that I thought of enjoyment forever.

The trial went dramatically. I really just found out that Arif is a great soap opera player. He even acted so well to make the atmosphere of the closed courtroom blue because of the sad story he presented through his testimony as a victim.

Even Vika was hysterical and almost fainted to hear the super great story. Even if I wasn't so close to Vika and knew the original storyline, maybe I would be swept away by the feeling of expressing how cheap Vika was.

I've been able to judge Vika before. The woman is not as low as her ex-husband told her. Perhaps even a thousand and one I saw how wicked a man who was so oppressive, extorting and trampling upon the woman's pride. He's Arifin Borne, the most evil man on earth, I think. I even thought there was a past grudge as well which made him so eager to destroy Vika.

The trial will still go ahead after a one-week delay for me to prepare a plea.

I'm too tired for my next exception. I'm just putting it to the lawyer Vika hired for me.

I was glued to the face of the tyrannical across there during the trial. There Ranti sat in the back seat looking at the trial. But he didn't take the initiative to come to me. Not even a smile can he give me as strength for me in the future. I could only look down at his passing just like that after the trial was over.

I miss the times when Ranti was like my foot. We used to be so compact to build a household that was even so shaken-seok at first. Starting a wedding is simple and contracting a small 5x3 meter room with a bathroom outside. It was so happy even though we lived hard first.

My tears fell as Ranti passed.

After Arif's first trial apparently blew up my case to the media. The atmosphere outside became hot and rowdy especially around my social. My father who initially did not know that his son was in prison finally shocked and fell ill to be hospitalized.

There were some relatives and friends who supported me, but many more who sneered and laughed at my stupidity.

"Brother Dika, there's a guest for you!" A policeman opened my cell door. With a giant step I walk to a special place where prisoners meet if anyone visits.

Ranti!... I held my breath for a second. Surprised to see her sitting in the waiting room alone.

He stood when he saw me coming. Kiss the back of my arm without saying a word. I just cried sobbing falling on his feet. I'm so guilty of him. Also on the Orange.

"I'm sorry, Ranti! Sorry, sorry I hurt you so much!"

"Your mistake I have forgiven you, even before you ask. Just one of my regrets.... Turns out, your love for me wasn't strong enough to fight Vika's charms for you. I was too confident that ignoring anything could have happened. I'm too proud to have felt that having you whole even to me the beauty of Vika will not be able to shake your loyalty to me. Turns out, I was too arrogant about myself!" I could only cry holding both of Ranti's knees on my face. I am ashamed to hear his words. So shy.

After my emotions stabilized, Ranti led me to sit in front of her.

"Sorry, I'm here to bring bad news. And I hope, I will accept it freely because of God's destiny."

"Evening Vika bleeding. Your baby is not saved. The beautiful baby died before it was born. That's what the doctor who handled it said. Thankful that Vika is better now. Hence, Vika begged me to tell this news to mas!"

Again I fell on the table. Crying no longer cares about Ranti and her surroundings. Ranti just rubbed my arm. Trying to entertain even without words and only through touch.

"You must be strong, my mother! This is the path you have chosen before, right?... I can only pray, this storm is fleeting. It must have passed as time went on!" ranti said very wisely.

He said goodbye to me who was still down with deep regret.

"Mas, I didn't promise to go with you. Even just visiting you. Try to be strong and strong!" he said again before leaving to make me thank you so much for everything. All his loyalty and sacrifice, which I repay with cruel treason.

I realized I was worse than Arif. I hurt Ranti who was so good to me. Hhh....

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The judge's trial sentenced me to 2 years in prison. I was found guilty of all the evidence and records Arif had. Even because Vika's constraints are still weak after giving birth makes her unable to testify for me.

While Arif's side managed to bring my wife Ranti as a witness. However, Ranti's testimony was quite lightening to me as it turned out. Finally, the 2-year sentence had to be passed even though my lawyers argued for too long and proposed that I appeal. But I refused.

I think that instead of spending time and wasting money on uncertain results, it is better to accept the fate of all my mistakes.

"Yes...! I'm sorry mas! I can't be a good mother to our child" Vika caught my arms when she last saw me in a police detention cell. Because today I will be transferred to the Salemba rutan officially to be a patient for a long period of time.

I could only hug Vika with tears. Letting her tell a story among her heartbreaking sobs. It also made me feel a deep sense of error.

I rubbed Vika's face so shabby and so thin. Trying to calm him down with a touch of my hand while I still can. It is said that the rutan is not as free as a temporary holding cell. To visit, there are certain times.

"Mas! Shouldn't we take an appeal?" vika said asking back the path the court offered.

I'm shaking. Chances are I'm languishing 1 year and a half after the prisoner's cut. I accepted.

"Don't be wasteful, honey! Learn to manage your finances. Because the possibility of life is difficult in front of the eyes. I believe you can take care of yourself, Vika! Me here. To account for all my actions. And I hope you get through it too!" my advice is to get Vika to hold me again. I am sad to see him like that.

"The car's on sale, mom! Staying home, even then I do not know if I can afford to pay the monthly installments. I'll try to find a job after I recover."

"So your health is the main thing! Only then will it be reorganized your life. Start everything from the beginning! You can khan, yang?"

"You're saying it wrong!" Vika pouted at me. I smiled at her jealousy.

"Yes honey!"

"I don't know! I can't live without you! I don't know what else to do! Especially now that Ranti also went to leave me. Your house is written for sale. I can't go to my parents' house anymore either! Now only Iksan sir is still faithfully accompanying me, mas!"

I held Vika who was swept back with her heart. Again, these tears are spilled unstoppable.

What to say, Vika? ... You think I can also live without you and Ranti as well as Orange? You think my days are happy in this detention? Even mosquitoes seem to be hostile to me swarming with his troops attacking me without knowing night or day.

Ranti cried seeing me being led to Salemba in a prisoner car. What to say. Like the proverb, rice is already porridge. It's all over. I won't look back. Accept this fate with an empty heart without you. Only the drops of faithful tears accompany my days with my regrets.

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